Dbz Chichi's new begining.

Chichi's:Pov.

It happened again,he was dead...but this time he wasnt coming back...he had told gohan it was for the greater good,that all it did,him being alive was putting the earth and its inhabiants in danger but more importantly...his family and friends...he said he wanted us all to live peaceful lives to be happy and not have to worry about the next villian to come and threaten to blow up the earth...

So he told everyone he planned on staying dead and he was sorry but it was the right thing to do...or so he thought... he thought he was doing the right thing but he couldnt see...too naive to understand that he had a family... that he had a wife and a son to look after, to be there to make things better...to take away all the pain and all the sorrow and just to simply come back to live and stay with us... 'cause we needed him...Gohan needs a father figure...'

They all thought me insane when i had a outburst...but they knew what i was going through or at least tried to.. so they just let me rant on till i ended up in tears.

Dad had had to carry me to his car because i was too unstable to move...'Why goku, why do you keep doing this to us...to me.' I had screamed at everyone of my friends...no they were'nt my friends...they were gokus friends. They only put up with me cause i was gokus wife and gohans mom...nothing more and nothing less...I had called them all the swears known under then sun..i called them fakers...liars...Bastards.

Krillin gave me a sadden look and he just turned and walked away not before giving gohan a friendly pat on the shoulder and saying ''Sorry for your loss, make sure to drive safe,ill come over tomorrow and see how your both doing. Look after your mom its harder for her than it is for any of us. See ya buddy take care.'' I had barely heard him but i did and thats when i started crying, because it hit me like a ton of bricks...I had lost my husband...i had became a widow with a young teen son and yelled at all of my husbands friends...

Friends he's known as a child and friends that he recently made in the last few years...that did nothing but stand by as MY son fought a overgrown green bug monster and had still done nothing after goku had sacrficed himself for the people of earth..for his family and friends who needed him more than ever.

So called friends i mumbled.

I had barely noticed we were home. I turned my head to the right and saw gohan he was staring at his feet with a sad smile and he seemed deep in thought so i left him be. I looked to the front of the car and saw my dads face..he was focused on the road and he looked pale..

I knew why..he was shocked because, like all of us, we did'nt expect what had happened to happen.

'...What did we expect?...' I looked from my dad to the window on my left and sniffle a litte bit...''Oh goku'' I whispered to myself, It would'nt be long now till we got home...just a another five minutes or so, but i could wait, i was in no rush to get home, cause i knew i'd breakdown.

A tear slowly went done my cheek and i let, i didnt move to wipe it, I just let roll down on to my lips and slightly tasting it.I frowned as an other tear rolled down and i looked up..

'We're home...I thought it'd be longer, guess i was wrong just a few more minutes..'

I was broke out of my train of thought and jumped slighty over broke silence and then looked up at the voice that startled me talking.''Do you want me to stay a night or two honey?'' He asked in a small voice, barely heard by any of us but we still heard.''No thank you dad.'' I whispered back. Gohan looked at me.''Mom, are you sure?'' He questionly asked.

I looked at him and said in a small voice with a sad smile.''Im sure sweetheart.'' He nodded and looked to his window and i let out a quiet sigh. Dad then pulled up and i slowly got out and looked to the door of my house, then turned to my dad. '' Thank you for giving us a ride daddy.'' I said gave me a small smile.'' Your welcome ,if you need anything, dont hesiant to call 'kay? Night sweetheart.''

He then reversed and slowly drove off. I stared at the car as it got further and further away, till it was gone. I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked at gohan he smiled a little and signaled with a light shake of his head to the right, that it was time to go inside, i then looked up and saw it was dark and you could see a full moon, i smiled a little as tears formed in the corners of my eyes.

'Goku loved full moons,he said ever since he got his tail removed he didnt know that the moon was so beautiful since he never got a long look at it and when he did he fell in love with the beauty of the full moon and stars and specialy out here the trees made it more beautiful...'

I turned and nodded at gohan and we walked back inside. I didnt bother to shower or change clothes, i just said a quick good night to gohan and ran up stairs and headed to my bedroom. When i got inside i grabbed a shirt that belonged to goku and cried into it while hugging on to it like my life depended on it.

It was a good ten minutes till gohan knocked and asked if he could come in. ''Come on in sweetie.''I said after a few minutes and he entered then looked at me with frown.''I h-heard you crying and just thought i-id check up on you. Are you okay mom?'' I smiled and looked up at gohan.''Im fine...im a strong woman ill get better soon. I just need to get use to the fact your dad wont be coming home this time...''

My voice trailed off at the last sentence, i looked at gohan and he had tears in his eyes, i then remembered he didnt cry at the memorial, he just kept looking at either the ground or sky and barely talked...'He bottled it up so he could let it out later maybe?'

''Sweetie are yo-'' I never got to finish cause he threw his arms around me and cried into my shoulder and i instantly put my arms around him and started crying my self. I mumble soothing words to calm him and after a while i just rocked him as if he was four years old again and just let him cry it out.

He fell asleep cuddled up to me on the floor at the end of my bed and i just grabbed the closest blanket not really caring it it made a mess and just yanked it forward towards me and almost instantly i caught the scent of Goku and i sighed heavy and just wrapped it around me and gohan,

Then got more comfortable and tried to sleep but to no avail.

I looked at Gohan, i cried silently, he has been so strong and i just kept crying at the memorial and screaming at his friends.I kept staring at gohan and slowly i fell asleep crying while still cuddling gohan.I barely noticed the shirt being wrapped around my shoulders and being kissed on the forehead.

Thats all for now! Hope you liked it and R&R BTW There'll be OC and such so please be nice. Thanks for reading! More to come soon!