It's Not You, It's Me
Chapter 1
Kangin and Leeteuk were in their room, fighting about something stupid [I couldn't think of something]. It was their first time fighting since they started dating a few weeks ago. Kangin was tense and pissed off. Leeteuk was trying to calm him down but Kangin would fight him. Kangin screams at him, telling him to not touch him and just leave. To just leave his life and never come back. Leeteuk would be holding the tears back, still trying to calm him down. The other Super Junior members were in the living room. Trying to watch TV but they could hear Kangin's screaming over the TV. They sat there, uneasy and uncomfortable. Kangin finally blew and shoved Leeteuk away from him. Leeteuk slammed into the mirror behind him. The glass shattered at impact, some imbedding in his back while others fell to the ground. Leeteuk collapsed to the ground, his palms and forearms now covered in blood and glass. Pain coursed through his body as he felt the glass in his skin as he moved slightly. It took a second for Kangin to realized what he just did. His eyes widened and he stood in shock. Leeteuk tried sitting up but the pain just increased. The door swung open harshly and a pissed off Sungmin came in.
"What the hell is going on in here?" He yelled. Kangin looked at him, a loss of words.
"Sungmin..." Leeteuk choked through the intense pain in his back and arms. Sungmin looked at him and his eyes widened. He ran to Leeteuk's side.
"Are you alright, Leeteuk?" He said.
"I-I don't think." Leeteuk said and looked at his arms. Sungmin followed his gaze and gasped slightly. He gently grabbed his arm and looked at both of his arms, gawking at the amount of glass in his arms. He looked at his back and saw blood staining his white t-shirt. He lifted his shirt up and quickly puts it down. So much glass it covered his whole back.
"Donghae! Get the van ready! Leeteuk, we're going to bring you to the hospital, okay? You'll be fine." sungmin said, gently helping Leeteuk to his feet. Leeteuk nods.
"M-Mianhae. I d-didn't mean to." Kangin said, finally speaking. Sungmin shoots Kangin a hard glare, making Kangin gulp and jolt slightly.
"Don't speak to me." Sungmin growled. Kangin paused. Sungmin put his arm on Leeteuk's back and they walked out of the room. Kangin looked at the ground. Blood and glass covered the carpet. He dropped to his knees, tears came to his eyes.
"I'm so sorry." He said. He looked at his desk and stood slowly. He walked over to his desk, cautiously, and grabbed a silver object. He took it out of the case and held it in front of his face, seeing his reflection in the shiney medal. He put the tip to the skin of his wrist and puts it deep into his wrist, sending jolts of pain up his arm. He felt himself get dizzy and weak. He cuts deep wounds into both of wrists and looked at the knife. It would covered in his own blood. His vision blurred and his balance deserted him. He collapsed to the ground, knife in hand, and let's the darkness consum him.
OUTSIDE OF KANGIN'S ROOM
While Sungmin, Shindong, Donghae, and Eunhyuk drove Leeteuk to the hospital, Heechul and the others were waiting in their dorms. They all sat in the living room, awkwardly.
"Should I go check on him?" Kibum said. Kyuhyun sighed and stood.
"Might as well. Come on. Let's go together." The magnae said. Kibum stood and they went down the hall and went to Kangin's room. Kyuhyun knocked on the door but only silence answered them. Kibum and Kyuhyun looked at each other, uneasy. Kibum grabbed the doorknob and opened the door. Their eyes widened at the sight of Kangin's blood spaining the white carpet.
"No..." Kyuhyun whispered. Kibum ran over to Kangin and shook him. But Kangin didn't move. Kyuhyun looked at the other band members in the living room. Kyuhyun went into the living room and grabbed his keys and puts them in his pocket.
"What's going on? Where are you doing, Kyu?" Siwon asked.
"Shut up and help me carry him." Kyuhyun said and walked back into Kangin's room. Siwon shrugged and followed. His eyes widened. He immediatly put Kangin onto his back and carried him. Everyone else gasped when Siwon came out. They got into Kyuhyun's car and drove to the hospital.
TO THE HOSPITAL
Sungmin, Shindong, Donghae, and Eunhyuk were waiting in the waiting room of the hospital. Siwon and the others came suddenly. Sungmin, Shindong, Donghae, and Eunhyuk quickly stood, seeing Kangin on Siwon's back. A stretcher came and Siwon puts Kangin on the stretcher. Sungmin caught a glimpse of Kangin's wrists and gasped. The stretcher went off into the E.R. Sungmin ran up to the Kyuhyun.
"What happened to Kangin-sshi?" He said, gently pulling Kyuhyun aside. Kyuhyun looked at him.
"Kibum and I went into his room to check on him. We found Kangin on the ground," tears formed in his eyes and looked down, "his wrists were bloody and he had a knife in his hand. I don't know if he's unconscious or dead." He said and puts his hand to his mouth as he began to cry. Sungmin gently sighed and gathered Kyuhyun into his arms and held him. Kyuhyun buried his face in the crook of Sungmin's neck and cried. He wrapped his arms around Sungmin's middle and held him tightly and close. Sungmin looked up at the night sky as he gently ran his fingers through Kyuhyun's soft dark hair.
"No one wants to be at a hospital, Kyu. I just wonder if they'll ever recover, emotionally and physically." Sungmin whispered. After a minute, Kyuhyun finally calmed down. He lifted his head and looked at his lover. Sungmin looked at him and gently smiled. Kyuhyun leaned in and kissed him. Sungmin closed his eyes and kissed back. After a minute, they seperated for air and looked into each other's eyes lovingly.
HOURS LATER
They were all waiting, impatiently, in the waiting room. They didn't hear anything from Kangin or Leeteuk. They didn't even notice when the door opened and someone walked over to them. He scanned scanned their faces and smiled.
"Guys. You awake or something?" He said. They all shot their heads up and looked at their leader, who smiled at them. His forearms were covered in wrappings.
"Teukkie-hyung!" Sungmin chimed happily and hugged him gently. Leeteuk chuckled and hugged him back. "Are you alright?" Sungmin said as they let go of each other.
"I got over 200 stitches but I'll be fine." Leeteuk said. Sungmin smiled brightly and nods. Leeteuk looked at the others, who continued to sit there, uneasy. Leeteuk frowned. "What's up with you guys?" He said. Sungmin frowned and looked at Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun leaned backward and avoided eye contact with Leeteuk. Sungmin gently sighed and he looked at Leeteuk.
"Teukkie, you're not the only one that ended up going to the emergency room." He said. Leeteuk looked at him, confused. "Kangin-sshi is in there also. He...tried suicide." Sungmin said sadly. Leeteuk's eyes widened. "We've been here for hours but we haven't heard anything yet." Sungmin said and looke ddown. Leeteuk was too shocked to say anything.
"I-I...how did this happen?" Leeteuk said, word finally coming to his throat.
"I-I don't know. Kyuhyun said that he and Kibum went to check on him after you guys left. But they found him on the ground, knife in hand and deep cuts in his wrists. They couldn't tell if he was dead or unconscious. Teukkie, Kangin-sshi might be dead for all we know." Sungmin said, his voice starting to wobble. Kyuhyun sensed that his lover was about to break down so he stood from his chair. He turned Sungmin around. Sungmin immediatly enveloped him in a tight hug, burying his face in his lover's neck. Kyuhyun kissed his temple and caressed his back. Leeteuk turned and looked at the door in which he just came out of a few moments earlier. He was about to walk back in it when a doctor walked out. Leeteuk paused as he stared at the doctor. The doctor looked up.
"Super Junior?" He said. They all looked at him. The doctor scanned every one of their faces.
"Where's Kangin-sshi? Is he alright?" Hankyung said.
"Kangin is..." The doctor said.
TO BE CONTINUED...
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Cliff-hanger! . What do you think of my story so far? I tried to keep it simple -winks- But not too simple. Review please! Tell me how I did and what your thoughts were. Thanks!