So now... I have nothing better to do then make up for it by reading fan fictions and of course writing my own. (evil grin) .. So I hope you guys enjoy. So here goes nothing at my first SW fanfic attempt (crosses fingers)
Please read the following
This is somewhat AU... well really a lot. Lol .. It starts off with the meeting on Mustafar.. With one slight change to it. Anakin never gets burnt in the fire and therefore.. doesn't end up in that iky little suit. Annnnnd.. another change.. but you'll just have to read and find out what that is.
... Do Angels Die? ...
".. What have I done..." He gasped over and over, trying to bring the air back into his lungs. Into his mind. Wanting to rewind everything that had just happened. Wishing for it to be a dream, but knowing otherwise underneath it all. Staring out into the darkness of the Coruscant night, he saw nothing but a trail of death. Broken glass scattered throughout the floor. Blood, its vile scent.
"You're fulfilling your destiny, Anakin." His wicked voice replied "Become my apprentice. Learn to use the dark side of the force..."
Without even knowing it, without even wishing it, he had already crossed the line which was not to be crossed. The point of no return. Everything turned to darkness. Nothing felt the same as it did once upon a time. No touch, scent, even feeling, remained. No compassion,... nothing but death.
"I... I will do whatever you... ask." Still no air. Still no life.
"Goooooooood." The demon replied once again with a plastered smile.
".. Just help me save Padme's life." Their love was all that remained. Barely palpable, but still surrounded by a light which refused to die out. No matter how strong the dark became, it was helpless against this small ray of light. A chance for hope some might say. "I cant live without her."
"To cheat death, is a power only one has achieved. But if we work together...I know we can discover the secret."
"I pledge myself... to your teachings"
"The force is strong with you... A powerful sith you will become. Henceforth, you shall be known as Darth Vader."
"Thank you. My master." All was lost.
"Rise."
And so it begins.
She sat impatiently, her destination only mere seconds away. Her breathing unsteady, almost as her heart, but not quite. She was torn, ripped apart and thrown into the shadows of a never ending darkness. Blinded by the deception occurring all around her. She found herself unable to fathom any of the things Obi-Wan had told her not long ago. Her heart was blinding all attempts at reason. All the memories she had lived, all the love she had given. But looking all around her, it seemed as if she had been sent to the pit of hell itself. Fire arose and shot out from depths of Mustafars core. Rivers of lava all around her, and no signs of life yet.
As she landed, she could not help but to take a moment to catch her breath. So many thoughts rushing in and out of her head. It seemed unbelievable that Anakin would be able to do any of the things he had been accused of. But what scared her the most, was that pocket of doubt she held within her. Telling her the truth. Breaking her heart over and over again. She wanted to cry, just break down once and for all for the first time. But not before she saw him, touched him, made sure he was real. Dreams had been known to fool her and take control. Maybe if it were a dream, it could easily be erased.
She saw him walking towards her, fire erupting all around him. Crowning him as its king. Pulling him under again and again... the fire slowly putting his light out. She ran out to meet him, hold him, if it were to be the last time. All of a sudden, her nightmares were coming to life.
"I saw your ship." His voice was still the same. He was still palpable... still alive. But even as real as he was, she noticed a change. "What are you doing out here?" He asked.
"I..I was so worried about you," she replied, gasping for air, "Obi-Wan.. told me terrible things about you."
"What things?" His voice all of a sudden darker. Less calm. Hiding something, as he always was.
"He said, you've turned to the dark side...that you.. killed younglings." She looked at him with a horror stricken face as he lowered his own. Admitting defeat behind his wall of lies.
"Obi-Wan is trying to turn you against me."
She shook her head. ".. He cares about us."
"Us?" He replied.
She nodded. Their secret was now shared with another. One that had known both of them for a good portion of their lives. "He knows...He wants to help you."
He smiled down at her as she said this. As if trying to catch her off guard, making it all seem like an evil plot. She could see through it though. His eyes were not as they had once been. Able to stop her speechless with just a simple glare. They shone so bright, but now so dim. Her heart slowly breaking once again. Shattered like glass, covered in blood.
"Anakin, all I want is your love."
Love, what was love to him anymore? Haunted each night with dark nightmares of those he loved, dying, in pain, right before his own eyes. And he, just a simple bystander, unable to do anything. He would not let it happen again. Ever since the death of his mother, he had promised to never fail again. Padme was all he had left, all he cared about. He would not let his nightmare become a reality... not again.
"Love wont save you Padme. Only my new powers can do that."
"At what cost! You're a good person.. don't do this."
"I wont lose you the way I lost my mother. I am becoming more powerful than any other Jedi has ever dreamed of. And im doing it for you.. to protect you."
"Come away with me. Help me raise our child." She told him as she gently stroked the side of his face. Hoping to once again bring out the man which she knew. The man which she loved. She could still sense him inside, somewhere inside. "Leave everything else behind while we still can!"
"Don't you see? We don't have to run away anymore! I have brought peace to the republic. I am more powerful than the chancellor. I..I can overthrow him!"
She backed away slowly, all was lost. This was not the person which she once knew. Why had the gods done such a thing to her? Had she not lost enough already in life?
"And together you an I can rule the galaxy. Make things the way we want them to be!"
"I don't believe what im hearing..." It caused her pain to just say it. To finally admit that which she feared. "Obi-Wan was right... you've changed."
"I don't want to hear anymore about Obi-Wan." His voice lower and darker all of a sudden. "The Jedi turned against me. Don't you turn against me!" He demanded.
"I don't know you anymore.." She could feel the burn of tears swelling in her eyes. Wanting to release all that she had been holding once and for all. "Anakin," her voice became shaky, "you're breaking my heart! You're going down a path I cant follow!"
"Because of Obi-Wan?" He mused.
"Because of what you've done!" The thought of it disgusted her. "What you plan to do. STOP! Stop now... come back. I love you!"
"LIAR!" He shot out to her as he saw that which was the topic of their conversation coming out of her ship.
Looking back, she spotted Obi-Wan. How he had gotten on board eluded her. It did not feel as the right time for him to be there, but she was thankful all the more. Anakin was frightening her. Pushing her away for the first time since they've met. She'd never been this afraid before, not even in the face of death. Death did not hurt as much as did the pain loved ones could cause.
"NO!" She shot out. Knowing what had raced through Anakin's mind the second he laid eyes on Obi-Wan.
"YOU WERE WITH HIM!" He screamed out once again. "You brought him here to kill me!" His judgement clouded by the pit of darkness he had been tossed in to rot.
Without another thought, he lifted his hand and the force caught a tight hold around Padme's neck. Choking her, sucking the life out of her. Pulling her into darkness as well as him.
"No!" she screamed out, barely able to speak..
"Let her go Anakin!" Obi-Wan's voice shot out. Powerful, unshaken. Almost like that of a god. Anakin's hold however, did not loosen, if only tighten.
"Anakin," she whispered. After so long of living in a dream, she had finally awakened to the nightmare beneath. Was this the punishment she was to receive for living a lie. So many secrets held from those she knew. Putting everything and everyone at risk, for it to end this way...it just did not feel right.
"Let.. her.. go!" He repeated once again.
As he did so, she could feel the darkness surrounding her. All of a sudden she felt as light as a feather, the air softly swaying her back and forth in a gently cradle...until finally, it stopped. Everything was dark, everywhere was death. Underneath consciousness, she saw another world. One like she would never even begin to dream of. No one thought of their own minds, or had the freedom to do as they pleased with their lives. Everything controlled by a dark soul.. one which seemed familiar to her. The soul itself was barely alive, only part human. It had no lungs, no heart, nothing of its own. Only a feeling it once had, so very long ago.
Anakin looked down at Padme's motionless body. His mind still clouded, but his heart screaming, dying to break lose. Once again, he had crossed the line. Was this the new power which his master had spoken of? He did not want something that felt the way this felt. But he was stuck. He was but a pawn in a cruel game of chess, and his queen, had just fallen. By his own hands.
"You turned her against me!"
"You have done that yourself!" Obi-Wan replied, getting one last look Padme laying lifelessly on the floor.
"You will not take her from me!" His voice loud and demanding, like never before.
"Your anger and your lust for power have already done that. You have allowed this dark lord to twist your mind. Until now.. you have become the very thing you swore to destroy."
"Don't lecture me Obi-Wan. I see through the lies of the Jedi. I do not feel the dark side as you do. I have brought peace, freedom, justice, and security to my new empire."
"Your new empire!"
"... Don't make me kill you."
"Anakin, my allegiance is to the republic. TO DEMOCRACY!"
"If you're not with me... then you're my enemy."
"Only a sith deals in absolutes. I will do what I must." He said as he reached for his lightsaber and ignited it. A soft blue color, bringing light back into the darkness of this dead planet.
"You will try." Vader replied. No longer Anakin, but now something much darker. Igniting his own lightsaber, he flipped backwards in the air.. now standing only a few feet away from Obi-Wan. And so their battle begun. What it was for, was unknown to either of the two. It did not feel right to battle like this. To battle someone you had raised with your own hands, only to be his murderer when it comes down to it.
Vader kept pushing and pushing, each swing stronger and faster then the previous. Obi-Wan seemed to be shocked by his sudden burst of power. But he still had much to learn. Both lightsabers appeared to be dancing. Leaving brilliant trails of color in the air as their owners swung them back and forth.
They continued fighting, pushing each other back and forth. Going deeper and deeper into the darkness of the planet, using only the lava as their light. Now inside of the main control room of a large complex, both seized the saber fight if only for a second, testing whom was stronger with the force. Their hands extended out only feet away from each other. In between, a large storm breaking out. When it seemed that neither would win, both were sent back flying, crashing into walls at apposite corners.
Obi-Wan's lightsaber fell out of his grasp as he was thrown back in mid air. Where it had landed, he did not know. Vader on the other hand, was up and ready to charge at him once again. An evil grin now stamped on his face.
"Is that all you've got?" He taunted his old master.
As Vader swung at him Obi-Wan rolled over to the side, barely dodging the attack. Using every last bit of his strength, he sent Vader flying backwards into a far wall once again. He hit the wall hard, causing a shelf just above it to collapse down on him roughly. Sending him into a state of unconsciousness.
Obi-Wan took a second to catch his breath before standing up once again. Walking over to where Vader stood, he did not see a dark lord. He only saw a little lost child that had been with him for many years. A son that he was not aloud to have.
His lost lightsaber stood there on the floor only a few feet away. It was time to finish what he had been told to do. Looking back at Anakin however, he just couldn't find it in his heart to do such a thing.
Using the force to retrieve his lightsaber, he ran back the way he had come to check on Padme and get them out of there. There was nothing more he could do for Anakin at the moment. Somehow though, he believed he could pull through this. He still felt something of the old Anakin inside of this dark lord mask...
She was cradled into a ball as darkness all around her clung on to her skin, ripping her apart, eating her alive. She just remained motionless, waiting for the end. There was nothing more for her in this world. All that she had ever worked for and dreamed of...had fallen into pieces right before her eyes. Everything felt better as she was cradled in this ball of darkness. All her troubles were gone, her doubt. She was free to dream life the way she had wanted it. To finally be able to be free to love. To have a family.
"Medically... she's completely healthy. For reasons we cant explain, we are losing her." The GH-7 medical droid explained.
Obi-Wan looked over to where Padme laid on the examination table. He could tell she still had so much life in her, but it eluded him as well as to why she was slipping away. "She's dying?"
"We don't know why. She has lost the will to live. We need to operate quickly if we are to save the babies." Replied the droid.
"Babies?" Bail Organa asked shocked.
"She's carrying twins."
But as she looked around this dream world, it all sunk down to her. Anakin and her child with her. Living happily as a family. It was all she ever wanted, but not like this. Not in this make believe world she had created. Happiness was not something that could be made. It was something more than that. Genuine.
Opening her eyes, she found her self no longer surrounded by darkness, but now instead by bright lights.
"What's.. going on.." She managed to say before the pain took her over. Screaming, she gasped for air.
"Padme, calm down. Im here." Said Obi-Wan as he came over to her side.
"My baby...is he.."
"Yes.. yes, its doing fine. Just hang on Padme. Don't let go."
She screamed once again, louder this time. Sweat dripping off the side of her face as she fought the contractions going on inside of herself. Until finally, the cry of a baby pierced through her screams.
"It's a boy." Announced the medical droid.
"Luke.." whispered Padme.
Obi-Wan held the baby in his arms and brought it over to where she could see him. "He's beautiful."
Padme smiled, laying her head back and closing her eyes. She didn't have a second to rest before the pains started again. This time they hurt more than the first. Piercing through her over and over again.
"AHHHH!" She screamed out. "What is this!"
"It's the other baby!"
"Two? There's two of them?" She shot her head back as she gasped for air.
"Just a little more Padme. You can do it. Stay with me!" Obi-Wan encouraged her.
"Obi-Wan.." She gasped out. "Anakin.. where is he?"
Obi-Wan couldn't look her in the eye. He was unsure of whether she still had memories of what happened or not.
"Im afraid.. he's not here."
"Is he alright?" She asked looking at him with tear stricken eyes. Eyes full of concern, full of grief.
"Im not sure..."
One final scream and another babies cry could be heard once again.
"This ones a girl." Announced the medical droid.
"A girl?... Leia." Padme sighed and rested her head back once again. Her legs were shaking and she felt so weak. And where was Anakin? Why was he not there with her. Had something happened to him?
As she thought about it, it all of a sudden came back to her. The lava, darkness, and Anakin.. a sith. Her heart began to race. 'No...no... it cant be true...' Her breathing became harder as she gasped for air over and over again.
"Padme? .. Padme! What's wrong!" Obi-Wan asked with a concerned look on his face.
"Ana..kin...He.. and the lava...no.." She kept gasping for air over and over again. Unable to breathe by the breaking of her heart. If it had not done so before, it was finally shattering into its last pieces. Tears would not stop leaping from her eyes.
"Were losing her again!" The medical droid said as it scurried around the room looking for answers to her current situation.
"Padme. Please.. don't do this! Don't let yourself die!"
"How can I live!" She screamed out.
She could feel it once again, the darkness surrounding her. Darker than before, a much thicker shade. Not as relaxing as before.. something much more painful.
"Stay alive..THINK OF YOUR CHILDREN!"
'My.. children?... Luke... Leia... how can I leave them like this.'
"THEY NEED YOU PADME!"
Her breathing relaxed but her tears did not. It seemed that was all she had left to do. Cry. She had never been one to cry over anything in the past, but it seems that time had finally caught up with her.
As he opened his eyes, the first thing he saw were stars. Thousands...no.. Millions of them, spread out across the universe. Sitting up he noticed he was back on his masters ship. What had happened? The last thing he remembered was Obi-Wan, and Padme. They had tricked him. Deceived him. Plotted to kill him! The anger arose within him, boiling inside his veins. Everything around the room began to shake. Things exploding and falling off the wall.
"Be calm, my apprentice." Sidious called from the doorway.
Anakin turned to face his master. His distorted face haunted him every time he looked at him. It frightened him for some reason. It made his master, and all the power he promised seem like a lie.
"Master...where is Padme? Is she alright? Is she safe?"
"Padme?" Sidious sighed as he lowered his head. "It seems that in your anger.. you killed her."
Anakin took a few steps back, almost falling to the ground from what had just passed through his ears. He couldn't have. He would never. "..I... no.. I FELT HER!... She.. she was alive."
"Go and look for yourself if you must."
"What do you mean?"
"Her funeral. It is being held back on her home world."
Without another thought, he took off. Something just didn't feel right. He knew she was alive. She had to be alive.
It was impossible to make an estimation as to how many people were present during the Funeral of Senator Amidala. The sun was setting and the sky was getting dark. Everyone had with them a white candle. Lighting up the darkness in the sky. Hoping to guide her spirit to the next world.
She looked peaceful, almost as if she were just asleep. Her dark curls were spread out all around her coffin as they carried her to her final resting place. In them beautiful white flowers were placed, along with white ribbons, curled to match her hair. She wore a blue gown, with shimmering sparkles of green and other luminescent colors. Her hands were crossed right before her pregnant stomach. And in her hands, she held something she would never leave behind. The japor snippet that Anakin had given her the first time they had met.
Not many meters away, watching from a nearby tower, stood a broken soul. Tears couldn't help but escape as he watched his be-loved being taken away. Dead and pale.. but still beautiful through his eyes. This had all been his fault once again. Everything had been. And in the end.. it still ended the way it was not suppose to. He gave up everything to stop this from happening.. but not even he could re-write destiny it seemed.
The funeral lasted for hours. Many freely cried as beautiful speeches were made by those close and even far to the senator. She was deeply loved by all her people, and even by those who did not know her. It was just something about the light she always had surrounding her that drew people closer to her. Thousands of flowers of many different types were placed by her grave before everyone finally left.
All alone now, he stood in front of her tomb. Picking up one of the flowers, he studied it as a tear escaped from his eye. It was her favorite. She had told him once.
"Padme..." His voice was shaky.
"Im sorry for everything. It was not suppose to be this way." He fell to his knees in front of her tomb. Now he too was surrounded by the same flowers as she.
A quick snicker escaped his lips as more tears fell. "I always dreamed we would be living back here. Raising our son the right way... Going out the lake every day."
He smiled and bowed his head. "Guess im just asking for too much huh?"
"I don't know what to do Padme. Im lost. All alone without you. I have no one else anymore. What am I to do?"
He placed the flower in his hand among with the others. "Its too late for me. There's no turning back... not after this. Please just know...I will always love you."
"Come milady...Its time to board. Your children are waiting."
She took one last look at the planet she was currently on. Never to return to it again. Always to remain hidden, which is what she fought so hard to keep from happening. But in the end...there's no way to change everything that happened. Its just destiny as one would say.
"I don't like this idea."
"Why not?"
"It doesn't feel right having to hide like this. Having to lie to everyone and never be able to see them again."
"Im sorry milady. I agree... but there's just nothing else we can do. We have to keep hidden.. for the future of these children. For the future of the Jedi."
End Chapter 1
TADA! .. well let me know what you think. Of course.. I used a ton of actual dialogue from the movie, but its just this chapter to let you know what's going on in the story. The other chapters are a twist to what could have happened in the SW universe if certain things had and had not happened.
Hope you like. Review and let me know