Hey guys this my first fanfic I hope you enjoy it! This little fic was based off the song"If I lose myself" by one republic I don't own neither the song or the beautiful novel by Brigid Kemmerer. I know there is a lot of spelling errors but English isn't my native language.

"You can feel the light start to tremble,

Washing what you know out to sea.

You can see your life out the window tonight.

If I lose myself tonight,

It'll be by your side.

I lose myself tonight"

Nicholas POV

Nick opened up the door softly and started quietly walking up the stairs,he kept replaying the feel of Adams lips on his, how the scent of orange took over his senses and consumed him,with all the thoughts whirling in his mind Nick almost missed the thrumming of excitement in the air,something had pleased it. It was begging for him to follow so he obeyed. He walked along the hall until the air was telling him to stop,right out the front of Chris's room.

Nick looked into the room,surprised when he found that the door was slightly ajar, the room was bathed in the pale glow of the moon. Nick was surprised when he saw Becca laying in Chris's arms, the sheets dipped low at her back exposing bare skin,she was laying on her side against Chris's chest, he's arm curling her into him protectively,he was running his hands through her hair and whispering soft words the air carried to Nick "I love you", Nick felt bad about imposing on this clearly private...Moment if that was the right word for it.

But he air was telling him to stay, it kept whispering words "passion ,love, lust , love" The air was humming happily, something it did not do often, air was normally cool, calm and refrained not...buzzing ,Nick wondered if perhaps since Becca was a fifth if her emotions were effecting it.

Nick was surprised Becca had spent the night ,he knew Chris and Becca were getting serious but not this,he considered waking them,but chose to act against it.

He remembered when their parents died,Chris became quickly withdrawn,Nick had Gabriel but Chris ,Chris was alone. Even though he was a year and a bit younger than him,nick and Gabriel always had seen him as years younger than almost started crying,god he must be PMSing like Gabriel had just kept standing there watching Chris and Becca drift off to sleep.

He remembered when Chris was twelve he use to lock himself in his room and sketch a lot something he inherited from their mother but stopped doing when he turned thirteen, Chris had always been a loner,nick had never seen him with friends Ever period.

He continued to watch them,he presumed Chris was asleep but he softly pressed his lips to Becca's and pulled the sheet over her completely,pulling her even tighter into his smiled at the both of them.

Nick thought back to a few weeks before when he'd asked Chris when he knew he was in love with Becca, he'd blushed and Nick thought Chris might of stormed off like Gabriel would but he said he fell for Becca the night she drove him home, he said he wasn't looking for this ,Nick immediately thought that 'this' was a synonym for a relationship then Chris said "but Becca was in his way".

Nick glanced back at the one sleeping couple,he smiled then closed the door slowly padded down to his room and closed the door.