You're Blind
Just because I look this young,
Does not mean I am stupid.
Just because I am alone,
Does not mean I'm forgetting.
I know your sweet scent.
I know your sweet touch.
I know your sweet heart.
I can taste it on my lips.
When the sun sets on the bridge,
I look down at water.
Now it's all dried up,
And my tears are ones for my lover.
I know things that I can't tell,
I will take them to my grave.
Watch me sleeping late at night,
And you'll know I cannot grieve,
Watch and you'll know why.
I lay there dying everyday,
You are so blind to pain.
I suffer every second here,
All I had left was him.
My watcher drugged me,
It was a test.
I killed Kraelich,
Saved my mom,
And that was it.
Xander lied,
He did not tell me.
Willow laid down the curse,
And it only made it worse.
Willow you did not see,
The parts of me that are ripping.
I am coming apart at the seems,
And no one can be as mean,
As me when it happened.
Betrayal is not my name,
It is not my fantasies.
But it is all I dream about,
My nightmares are my self-destruction.
He visits me you know,
We meet at our beach,
The one we wished to make love,
And our children run the sand with their feet.
I know I'm only dreaming,
I'll wake from day-dreams and he'll be gone.
It will be real and I'll be back,
I'll be dying right on time.
He was all I needed,
All I wanted.
We fit perfectly,
Him and me.
Why can't you see?
Apart we are dead,
Together we are free.
I know your sweet scent.
I know your sweet touch.
I know your sweet heart.
I can taste it on my lips.
My Angel is gone,
Dead at my hand.
I had to do it,
But I wish for the end.
He was my sanctuary,
My shield from the dark.
He was my guardian Angel,
His other my devil in view.
So why did I kill him?
I died when I killed him too!