A/N Bellarke is separated in the beginning chapters obviously He thinks she is dead. There will be some "romantic" like moments between him and Echo/Raven. I'm not sure how their relationship will pan out but Bellarke is end game. Also apologies for any mistakes, I'm incredibly busy at Uni right now, but I just couldn't get these two out of my head. Enjoy and please review and tell me what you think.

It started with one drink and turned into two. Then it grew from there until he had consumed the entire bottle of liquor. Somehow he had ended up naked, laying on a cool metal floor beside an also naked and equally drunk Echo.

He felt his stomach twist, from the alcohol and from his bedfellow. He didn't hate Echo, but there still was a sense of mistrust there. Echo put herself first, always, that was something Bellamy just couldn't understand. He wasn't like that, he always put Octavia first, his people first. He did what had to he done to protect those he loved just like...

He stops his train of thought there, his head pounding like a hammer trying to break out from inside his head. He couldn't let himself think about her anymore. It had been 72 days, but it still hurt to much. He could only think about the now. His focus was on the Ark and it only. He's the leader, they need him. They were just getting used to life on the Ark, it was only last week they got the Algae farm completely sustainable.

Slowly, Bellamy sits up, lifting the boxer shorts off the floor and pulling them up to his waist. The chill from the air vent sends a shiver down his spine. Echo lays motionless on the floor beside him, her back facing him. Glancing around he realizes that he isn't in a room he recognizes, it must be a maintenance room. There are cleaning supplies lining the walls. He felt like he needed cleaning after this.

Bellamy felt the nausea wash over him as he glanced over at the girl unconscious beside him. Maybe she would be drunk enough not to remember anything about their encounter when she woke, he was drunk enough to only remember bits.

It started out with them glazing out at earth, the red clouds and fiery mess of it making them both depressed.

Raven and the others had adjusted to life back on the earth quickly enough. They had lived here before, life returned to a sense of normalcy. They had new responsibilities now but besides taking care of the algae farm and keeping the Ark in running conditions, their life was run by the motto of whatever the hell they want.

Emori and Echo seemed to be the only two having issues adjusting. Emori stayed with Murphy most of the time, the two only separating when they went off to their jobs. Emori helped Raven with repairs on the tech of the Ark.

Echo couldn't seem to find her place. An Ice Nation spy amongst Sky people. She felt like a literal fish out of water. She had tried to kill all of them before, and now here she is, living with them.

Bellamy found the liquor in a cabinet in the Earth monitoring center. There was a whole basket of it. The liquid burnt his throat as it went down as he looked out the window. It was hard to believe his sister was on that earth, that Clarke had sacrificed her life to ensure he and the others didn't suffer a melting fate. He owed her everything, yet he never truly believed she would be gone. They were supposed to make it, together, like they always did everything. Together.

Somehow his depressed thoughts turned into sex with Echo. He really needed to stop drinking.

As Bellamy stands from the cool floor where he laid and goes to collect the rest of his clothes, Echo turned to face him.

"We can pretend it never happened. I do have a reputation to protect after all." Her voice breaks through the silence of the dark.

Bellamy says nothing, he's not sure what to say.

"You miss her don't you." Echo questions.

"Octavia? You know I do." Bellamy whispers back as he slips on the rest of his clothes.

"That's not the her I was referring to and you know it." Echo says cooly.

Bellamy was hoping to not speak of this with her. Clarke was none of her business.

"Clarke and I weren't like that."

Echo's eyebrows raise from her shock.

"You guys didn't even once?"

He shoots her a look over his shoulder.

"Well that is a surprise. You two, seemed inseparable."

He doesn't respond, that vault needs to stay shut. He can't focus on the past, he's got to keep moving on. Fully dressed, he heads towards the door.

"I'm sorry, you know. I never said it. Clarke was special, and that's coming from me. I didn't get it before that last day, I thought she was overrated." Echo stands from the floor, her body completely revealed to him. Bellamy doesn't even look. "Roan spoke of her like she was some mystical being, the great Wanheda. He had more respect for her than he ever did for me and I did everything he ever asked. Lexa thought she hung the moon. And then there's you. The strong soldier who doesn't take crap from anyone. Besides your sister, she's the only one you ever let in. The one you would give your life for and she for you. Time after time, you two were it for each other."

Bellamy felt the vault begin to open, the emotions trickling out and stinging his heart just as bad as the alcohol did last night.

"What's your point Echo?" Bellamy asks sternly, his hand on the door. He couldn't stand this much longer.

"My point is, even now you can't admit the truth, you can't just say that you loved the girl and it made you weak. It still does. Take last night for example."

"Last night wasn't about her."

"Sure it was. You know Octavia is safe. She's got her little Trikru posse. She's the Heda of them all. The only other person who can cause you can get that drunk is Clarke. She's the only other one you care that much about."

"Fine, I cared about her okay. Maybe even loved her. She was there for me like you said, time after time. Even when we made mistakes, even when we didn't agree, we always had each others backs. Always. Sure it could have been more, easily. But who the hell knows what could have happened because we were running from our lives too much to ever stop and think about it. We never had down time. We were always putting our people first, trying to protect them from people like you." His voice is laced with venom.

"Hey." Echo begins, but Bellamy continues.

"No. I'm done talking about this. I'm done." His voice cracks. "It's over, she's gone. She died, doing what she always does. Saving everyone but herself." His pulls the door open harshly.

"She died saving you." He heard Echo whisper as he walked briskly out the door. It stopped him in his tracks. It's true. He knew it, everyone knew it. The single person she cared about more than anyone else on that ship was Bellamy.