White.
Again.
"Not surprising…" I mutter while slowly getting up from bed, the wounds on my arm and neck aching. My eyes groggily adjust to the bright lighting in the room. It's 5 a.m. in the morning.
"Why do I keep waking up so early…?" I softly wonder to myself. Taking my time, I get up from bed and proceed to the exit, intending to head to the roof. Everytime I unexpectedly wake up this early, I find myself seeking solace in a place I know not many people venture to in the hospital. My body is still in a fragile state unfortunately, so it takes me an inordinate amount of time to get there. I lean on the walls for support.
After what seems like forever, I finally make it to the roof, only to find a blonde young boy who got here before me. He turns to look at me in surprise, most likely suspecting no one else to be up here either. I cringe as my arm throbs under the loose bandages wound together clumsily. He notices and immediately goes over to help me, but before he can I stand up straight, ignoring the pain and soreness throughout my body to strain a smile in his direction. I place my good arm in front of me to stop his worried hands from touching me.
"Miss, are you alright? I can help you sit down for a bit!" he offered, arms flailing a bit. I shoot him another strained smile, hand waving his concerns away.
"I'm fine, just a bit tired." My throat forces out weakly. His eyes wander down to my neck, noting the bandages. Now without the support of any walls, I do my best to make it to a nearby bench to sit on, passing by the young boy and now regretting coming out at all. First the painful journey up here to be alone, then a person shows up? My day's not looking good so far.
I feel him following me closely, arms hovering around me in case I fall. I let him do as he pleases, too worn out to protest. I finally make it to the bench and sigh in relief as I sit down, smoothing the creases of my gown. He unfortunately sits across from me. My eyes close a bit as I adjust to my new setting, trying to ignore the presence in front of me. I feel the cold wind softly brushing my hair and skin, enjoying the silence as I breathe out another sigh. I open my eyes at a slow pace, to see the man across from me staring at me with his mouth slightly open, eyes in a trance. He notices me catching him and his eyes widen, looking away frantically as he flails a bit more. I pay him no attention and look to the flower beds.
"Um...miss? A-are you okay?" he asks with slight hesitation. I give a small nod, not looking away from the flowers. Sunflowers. A flash of pink flutters in my memory which I clamp down on as soon as it appears. My uninterested state only spurred him to create more conversation it seemed.
"So, what are you doing out here so early in the morning?" he questions awkwardly. My eyes flicker to his for a moment before looking back at the fresh sunflowers.
"Can't sleep." I answer shortly, throat stretching to articulate. His eyes light up a bit, most likely in finding something to latch onto for conversation.
"Wow, really? I was actually having some trouble sleeping myself! You see, my cousin's in hospital for an appendectomy. Removing the appendix you know? She's always so scared of every little thing, so she made me stay here with her as much as she could! But you know, sleeping in a hospital so often doesn't exactly do wonders for the back…" he goes on, trying to create some sort of mutual communication with me. I find myself slightly irked, as I can't remove myself from this without the slow agony of having to return to my room. He doesn't notice my unresponsive state until a minute later, smile and speech suddenly halting. "Oh my god, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to rattle on to you about myself! Rin's always catching me when I ramble off but it seems old habits die hard...! I haven't even given you a chance to speak and-"
"It's fine." I cut him off, giving him a calming smile. His mouth closes as he looks at me. I rest my head on my good arm, which is placed as comfortable as it can be on the arm rest. He looks down his lap for a moment, fiddling with fingers a bit before relaxing. His cerulean eyes look back up at me, more serene than before.
"Why are you at this hospital then, miss? If you don't mind me asking?" I tense up at his questions, face becoming cold. Flashes of silver glinting in dim lighting, red soaking into black, and a pink cellphone clattering to the ground invade my senses before I can stop them. My heart starts hammering in my chest. I will myself to calm down in front of this stranger.
"I was injured, so I was put in a hospital for treatment." Obviously. The explanation is weak, even to my own ears. His eyebrows furrow for the same reason. I hope he takes a hint.
He doesn't.
"Yes but why?" I abruptly stand up at his incessant questioning. He looks up in surprise.
"I'm going back to my room." I mutter, not caring if he heard it or not. I shakily but hurriedly made my way to the door, as my heart started beating rapidly again. He immediately gets up to assist me, and before I can reject his aid once more, I find myself falling to the ground. Before I can even blink, the young boy catches my waist. I wince as he makes contact with my injured arm. He notices and hurriedly lets it go, though still supporting my waist and other arm. I breathe in and out as I kneel to the ground slowly.
"I'll go call a nurse, hold on-" I grab his arm before he can get up and look at him, fingers shaking a bit. He looks into my eyes.
"No, I'm fine. I'm fine." I wheeze out as steadily as possible.
"You don't look fine, you need a nurse here-" I tug on his sleeve and look into his eyes, silently pleading for him not to. They'll make a big deal about me being out of bed and hook me up, maybe feed me some sort of unidentifiable medication. I'm tired of it. Tired of all of it. He sighs.
"At least let me help you to your room. Please." He tightens his hold on my hand, but not enough to hurt me. Enough to communicate his worry. Doesn't look like he'll give up on this. Inwardly I sigh as I nod in confirmation. His brow relaxes slightly as he nods back, one arm hooked to my waist and back, the other over his neck. He gives me a soft smile to reassure me a bit. My shoulders relax in his hold.
Admittedly, the way back was less excruciating. Although the boy helping me kept making a fuss, shooting me worried glances here and there, constantly needing reminders if I was alright, to my annoyance. Oh well, guess he's just this type of person. Fussy. I pointed out my room, and finally sat down on my bed as we entered it. My body relaxed.
"Are you going to be alright, Hatsune-san?" I looked up in slight confusion as to how he knew my name, and he smiled. "Hatsune. Hatsune Miku. That's what was written on your room door right?" My expression returned to neutral as I nodded in confirmation. I look out the window for a moment before I noticed his gaze on me, more intense and wondering than before. Like I was a puzzle he was trying to solve. I tried not to squirm in place.
He realized his behavior and flailed a bit, cheeks slightly red in embarrassment at being caught yet again. "W-well! I should be going now. You seem worn out from all this activity, so mest up!" His face heated as he frantically tried to find more words to jumble out. "I mean rest up!" He spat out with great difficulty. I just kept looking at him, face expressionless at the outburst. This seemed to help him calm himself for a moment.
"Anyways Hatsune-san, I hope you won't overexert yourself by going to the roof without any assistance again." I make no promises. He coughed into his hand, apparently still embarrassed about his fumble from earlier. Finally, he made his way to the door, dress shoes clicking against the tile floors. Before he made his way fully out the door, he turned to me once again.
"Hatsune-san?" I turn to acknowledge him one last time before his existence is out of my life for good. He smiled gently. "My name's Len by the way. Kagamine Len." He gave a short wave before disappearing into the blank halls. I turn back to the window, the sunlight slowly seeping into the deep blue of the sky.
Len, huh? Hopefully we don't meet again. For your sake, and mine.
A/N: I've loved this series for a long time so I wanted to write some good fic for it! The emotions in these songs stuck with me for years, so I finally splurged my feelings into my writing. Hopefully it was good enough. :D