A/N-Hey Everyone,Thanks for reading!This just came to me at like 2:30 one morning:)Hope you all like,not sure if I want to do and let me know :P-A/N
Disclaimer-I own nothing,Everything Twilight belongs to the fuggin' awesome Stephenie Meyer and,sadly:(,only her.
In that moment I felt so weak,like I could colapse any second.I was empty, a shell of what could have been.I know this isn't what he would want of me.I know it would break him to see me like this.I tried to be strong for my parents,friends and him,but I can't be strong alll of the time.I have to fall sometimes.
When he left,he took me with soul at least and left my heart crushed,Like it had been put in a blender on pulverize.I couldn't have a thought for weeks unless he was in it.I couldn't do anything wihtout seeing him or hearing he left i've been trying,so hard,to keep him would always find a way to break down my wall that was so carfully placed there,No don't think about that,you will end up thinking of him and inturn on the floor in a ball,crying every last sorry tear out of you eyes that so badly wish you to stop.But you can't,You never have absolutly no control over thats the frustrating part,isn't it?Not being able to control your own having to worry about what people say,incase they mention something that reminds you of to excuse yourself from dinner tables and groups so that you can attempt to get a hold on what your feeling or at least push it back until your alone again.
When I moved here to this dreary,wet dull place I thought my world was over,that it had come crashing down on me trying to break me and breaking itself in the process,but then he came along and..Fixed it.Made it all go grabbed the extra bottle of mend-a-world he kept in his back pocket and used his last drops on took all of my fear,hurt and anger and turned them into something... happy and I clung to with everything I when he left he took all of that with him,but thought it best to turn the unwanted emotions back to there rightful of my fear,hurt and anger came rushing back like a puppy that had been away from its owner for to long.
I pulled my knees to my chest and wrapped my arms around them,letting my head rest on the gap traitor tears made there escape and silently slid down my cheek,making a small wet dropplets on my faded jeans.I pulled the sleve of my hoddie up and wiped my eyes before anymore tears could fall.
I had to go downstaris soon and before I could I had to make sure my mask was secure.I felt like a performer waiting for it to be time for her act,her turn in the only difference was,I would do anything to get out of it.I couldn't go anywhere without someone asking me how I was,or If everything was okay.I know they were trying to be nice but I was sick of it,I was showing them that I had moved couldn't they?
A/N-What do you think?Its sort of short but thats what you get at 2:30 that little gray button and let me know your thoughts and how I could improve??-A/N