Nobody Understands

Chapter 1: Seto Kaiba

Looking at myself in the mirror I see what others don't; I don't see the cruel businessman or even the powerful celebrity which I have gained a reputation for being. All I see is me, Seto, merely an outcast eighteen year old who does his best to impress everyone and find my place in this large world. I go to Domino High School and I have been since I was fifteen which hasn't been easy not that it is for any teenaged boy. I know I tend to insult some about their faults but when I do I often only comment on things which I can see in myself. Jounouchi is one of my favourite outlets because unlike so many others he seems to try and throw it back and me instead of taking it and just backing off, why else would I constantly provoke his ramblings, I just enjoy the attention and I guess his lack of fearing being honest, brutally honest makes me want to fight with him at least once a day like a vacation from all the lies and cowards that surround me.

No one could possibly understand what I feel like, or know what it was like to grow up how I did. It had to happen very quickly because when our relatives dropped us at the orphanage after taking all our inheritance it was just me taking care of a five year old Mokuba who was just as scared as I was half the time but I was only ten at the time and I was even younger when our father was taking care of us and he was hardly there but Mokuba was oblivious to the fact that he was an alcoholic and almost all the time I was hiding Mokuba from this reality. Our father died in a car accident, mum died not long after Mokuba was born and that's why our father became a drunk I knew he loved mum. Whenever he was sober he would tell us stories of their travels before they became a family, I remember going to Disneyland before Mokuba was born I think that's what inspired Kaibaland.

After he died we went to live with our aunts and uncles who tricked us into giving them our insurance and sent us to that horrible orphanage. While at the orphanage me and Mokuba mostly played chess and soon enough I was the best in the orphanage. But Mokuba was often picked on so I had to protect him that's what sparked my hate for bullies. But they were easy days compared to the days that followed when that tyrant Gozaboro Kaiba adopted me and Mokuba because we had claimed victory in a chess match. I know that if his son Noah Kaiba hadn't got sick and his body rendered useless I'd have never even been adopted and forced into that corrupt world which I have grown used to now. I studied day and night until I collapsed and then once I recovered I was working once again, I would have given up long ago if Mokuba hadn't given me hope to get rid of Gozaboro and this hard life by sending me some duel monster cards with a blue eyes white dragon he drew himself which gave me hope of getting one and becoming strong as one which could escape from this hell hole with Mokuba by my side.

That life was difficult and gruelling but unlike I had hoped I was not living as easy a life as I had hoped and I wish I hadn't done some things and I try to not have any regrets because everything I did, I did for the most important thing in the world to me and I hope he lives the best life possible because like I promised mum I will take care of him and that may seem strange at this point but that promise is why I am living so if I ever lost him then I have no idea what my life would mean without it and this isn't and it was never was an excuse to why I have done some bad things it's just a summary of my hardships and heartaches I've experienced and I just wanted to get these feelings out and let go of some things weighing me down and hurting my family. I know it is impossible to understand but I am just trying to blend in to the crowd and make my own choices in life.

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