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Summary: Dr. Jocelyn Carmichael was just trying to survive. She never thought that he would change her life. Never thought that she could fall in love with him. BenOC

Author Note: This is set after the episode Two For the Road.

Never Say Never

Say When:

. . .

See you there, don't know where you come from

Unaware the stare from someone

Don't appear to care

I saw you and I want you

What's your name? 'Cause I have to know it

You let me in and begin to show it

We're terrified, because were heading straight for it, might get it

. . .

"Look at me, Jocelyn." It was a quiet demand and I tried my best not to obey.

"Jocelyn, Look at me!" He yelled once he realized that I was not going to listen to him.

Slowly I raised my head to meet his eyes. I had been nice to him. I had made sure that he got at least one meal every day. I had tried to keep Sayid as far away from him as possible and that was not an easy task. I was the one who sewed him up when Sayid brought him to the hatch and I was the one who made sure that he didn't get an infection. I had kept him alive.

'Henry' stared at me long and hard as I continued to look at him. Then suddenly he held out his hand for me to take. I stared at it for a moment trying to decide on what to do.

Finally, I took his hand into my own dirty one, letting him pull me off the ground and through the jungle. Everything had happened so fast that I had not even had time to fully comprehend it. One moment I was in the hatch pressing that stupid button and the next Michael was shooting people. I had thought for sure that I was dead. I didn't know why he hadn't just shot me but I figured it had something to do with Henry or whatever the hell his name actually was.

"What's your name?" I asked, finally as I stumbled through the jungle behind him.

"Ben." I was a bit surprised he even told me. If he was willing to tell me his name, I wondered what else he would tell me. Probably nothing, but it was at least worth a shot.

"Why didn't you let him shoot me?" I asked softly. He didn't answer me. I was going to ask again thinking that he had just not heard me the first time but he suddenly stopped and turned to face me.

"You were the only one to show me kindness, Jocelyn."

"So… not letting me be killed and then kidnapping me is your form of gratitude?"

His response was to throw a glare over his shoulder. This was just great.

I was on vacation…It was my first vacation since I was a kid. I just wanted to get away from surgery. I wanted to get away from death but instead of a perfect end to a wonderful vacation, I end up in a plane crash on an island where there were monsters and crazy natives. I should have listened to Adam…

"What about your patients, Jocelyn?" My brother, Adam, demanded to know as he stood in the doorway of my bedroom, watching me make a last minute check to see if I had packed everything I needed for my trip.

"Adam, I am going and you have already tried to talk me out of this so many times that I have lost count." I said laughing as I grabbed my luggage and began dragging it to the living room.

Adam opened his mouth to begin protesting again but before he could say anything, I began to reassure him once more that everything would be fine.

"Listen, Dr. Hewitt is, besides me of course, one of the best pediatric surgeons in the United States. My patients are going to be fine. This is my first vacation, Adam. I just want to have fun. Don't worry, nothing, and I mean absolutely nothing, is going to happen to me! Besides, you were the one to talk me into this, remember?"

"Joss…" He began again, running his fingers through his red hair.

"Adam! What is the worst that could happen? The plane crashes and we all die. At least I won't feel anything!" I exclaimed, looking at myself in the hallway mirror and began to pat my red hair back in place. Once I was pleased with the way my hair and makeup looked, I gave Adam a quick kiss on the cheek, grabbed my bags and was out the door.

I was free! I could finally stop worrying about kids dying on the operating table and I could quit worrying about Adam and his OCD. I was free to enjoy myself. I didn't have to worry about anything but having fun. I didn't have to think about the incident anymore. At least not until after I came back from Australia.

Popping the trunk to my car, I threw my heavy luggage in the back and got into the driver's side. Driving to the airport was the most amazing feeling in the world. My vacation was off to a wonderful start!

"Adam was right." I muttered to myself before I began to giggle.

"What?" Ben stopped turning around to watch me.

"I just...I can't believe that this is happening to me!" I explained with a laugh, swiping a piece of my red hair out of my face and behind my ear with my free hand.

He stared at me a moment longer before squeezing my hand. I hadn't even realized that I was still holding his hand until that moment. The scary part was that it was comforting. I was beginning to lose it. I had lost my mind! This was the bad guy. I should not feel anything but disgust, anger….and fear.

I stared at our hands and then glanced up at his face. He did not look at me instead he kept walking his pace becoming faster. Glancing back down at our hands, I yanked mine from his grasp. In a blink of an eye, he had whirled around and had hold of my wrists pulling me close to him.

We stared at each other for what seemed like an eternity before he broke the silence.

"Jocelyn, are you afraid of me?"

"I…" I didn't know what to say. Was I afraid of him? I believed a part of me was. But then there was another part of me that felt…sad for him. I was not for sure why. He had not done anything to make me feel bad besides getting the crap beat out of him by Sayid.

Leaning forward he whispered in my ear "Don't be afraid of me. I won't hurt you."

Most of the time his words would have freaked me out but instead I believed him. There was something in his voice, something almost pleading for me to believe him that in turn did. I shouldn't have. I knew I shouldn't have but He watched me a moment longer and then he took my hand again and said "We have to hurry." And then I was being pulled through the jungle once more.

. . .

Come across, you're lost and broken

You coming to, but you're slowly waken

You start to shake

Still haven't spoken, what happened

I'm coming back and you just don't know when

You wanna cry but there's nothing comin'

You're gonna push, until you give in, say when

. . .

Author Note: I really hope everyone enjoyed the first chapter. I know that right now it is a little rough around the edges but I promise it will get better. And if you have read my other story The Truth About Fate then you know that I like to use the flashbacks to tell my character stories so don't worry you will get to know a lot more about Jocelyn. If you have any suggestions or if you would just like to comment please leave a review.