A/N: WARNING ! Not a happy RihanxWakana story. As this is m first time writing, this story will be a two-shot. At most a three-shot. Enjoy :3

Disclaimer: I don't own Nurarihyon no mago because if I did it would be a shoujo first and a shounen story

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I started awake, shaking. Thunder boomed like several bass drum being hit all at once and outside the storm raged on.

The chill from my nightmare had followed me from my sleep. I turned to you, seeking comfort in your presence. But your place at my side was empty. I bit my lip, struggling to beat down the aching disappointment and sadness. It was to be expected after all.

The Yamabuki flowers were in season now.

I decided to stay awake for your return. I could not sleep anyway, the recent nightmare still fresh in my mind. Unwanted memories bombarded me; blood, screams and…someone pleading, over and over again.

We made a mistake

I had mine

I wrapped the blanket tighter around my body. It did not help with the cold. My body twitch with the urge for action. I wished that I was in need of something I 'misplaced'.

The door slide open, startling me. There you were, standing at the doorway with your hair and clothes drenched by the rain and droplets of water dripping onto the wooden floor. But what shook me was the dead look in your eyes. The pain in my heart was nothing compared to the cold I felt before.

We made a mistake

You had yours

I fixed a smile on my face, hoping it did not seem too empty. "Ohayo, Rihan-san."

Your head snapped up from the corner you had been staring at to look at me, finally registering my presence. Something that I did not recognise flashed across your eyes. It was not the all familiar guilt that I was used to seeing when you realised I had noticed your sentiment. But I let the curiosity go. For a while, you did not seem so lost.

"Wakana. What are you doing up so late?"

"Couldn't sleep," I answered. "Hold on, I will get you a towel." I jumped up before you could say another word. I found one in a drawer I had put there the day before. Quickly I grabbed it, crossed the room in a few strides, tossed it over your head and before you could protest, rubbed down your hair. I heard you stifled a deep sigh but did nothing to stop me.

I plucked at every strand, meticulously drying every one of them, trying to occupy my mind with the task. Keeping busy helped to take away the pain. When I was finally done, I reluctantly took a step back. I gulped, holding back my laughter. I backed to my dresser, my hands reaching out for an object. Somehow, as I was drying, it had ended up sticking around your head.

You raised an eyebrow. "What is it?"

I couldn't stop it any longer. I laughed, holding out the mirror. "You look like a porcupine!"

You laughed along with me, the sound of it melding together with the clapping of the thunder formed a sort of tune echoing throughout the room.

We made a mistake

Thinking it could last

We stopped after a while. I had somehow ended up in your arms with you playing with my hair, muttering something about payback but I did not care. It felt good to laugh our troubles away and be like this with you. If only for a short while, we get to pretend that nothing hanging over our heads.

You had moved your finger to my face, slowly tracing it. I reached up to try smoothing down your wild hair. It was peaceful.

"I am sorry."

What ? I paused in my efforts of entangling a particularly stubborn strand to look at you. Yours eyes stared deep in to mine, regret swimming in them. Your hand reached out to stroke a hair away from my eyes. "I am sorry. I should have been here."

You wiped the corner of my eye then dropped your hand away to hang limply by your side. You look so sad. I quickly shook my head.

"Iie. It is alright. I understand." How could I not? When I have the same gaping hole in me too.

We made a mistake

Knowing we were never meant to be together

"Besides, I am all better now. I am pretty tough, remember?" I meant it as a joke. But you only look more troubled. That wasn't what I wanted. Desperation took hold of me. I grabbed your arm, panic rising quickly within me.

"I am alright ! Really ! I can look after myself ! So-! "

Please, please don't look like that. I hate it. I hate how sad and guilty you look. You should never be like this.

I love you Rihan

So it's ok. It's ok….

I jumped, feeling your hands on my face again. I looked into your eyes, shining with that unfamiliar emotion again.

"Why ?" you asked. "Why do you always – Don't you know? That I - ."

I blinked back in confusion. Your eyes changed again. This time it was frustration. You guide my face closer to yours and gently placed your lips on mine.

We made a mistake

Loosing ourselves with each other.

I let myself be swept off by your kiss, responding just as eagerly, needing it as much as you did. How did we end up like this? Two lost souls, both of us left behind by those we love and plagued by memories of what used to be, not completely able to move on. Yet, we were brought together and by some miracle, found some comfort with each other.

But…this wound was not something either something either of us can fill, was it, only cover. Because we already belong to someone else. And only they can take it away.

So we will part at the end, like how we had always known we would since that fateful day.

We made a mistake

This lifetime is all we will ever have

You don't believe it, I can tell. It is hard to accept but I have made my peace with it. This is enough for me. When the time comes, I will bid you goodbye. These memories of you, I will always safe keep them deep in my soul. I deepened the kiss as my clothes fell to the floor, pouring all my feelings into it.

I wish you all the joy, all the happiness, my dearest heart, Rihan.

We made a mistake

This just makes it infinitely more precious

That night, as we lay side by side, I snuggled as close to you as possible. I wasn't expecting you to put your arms around me, pulling me further into your embrace. In the security of your arms, I allowed myself a wish, one selfish wish, no matter if it is from afar or that we will never be together.

We made a mistake

Even so I want to see you again