Hi again! Firstly, I apologise for this chapter, it isn't that great, but is necessary to the story! Bear with me, it should (muse permitting) get better! I have tonnes of ideas at the moment, but not enough time to write them. However, reviews make me write faster…(no bribery at all!) Also, thanks (again!) to my editor, Near-kun, you are amazing! :-)

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This is the only way. For days I've lain awake, listening to you breathing softly next to me, desperately trying to escape the inevitable. But I can't. I know now this is what I must do. At the start of this battle we both swore the other would die; yet I never thought love of all things would interfere with my plans. I cannot kill you, nor can I watch as you, my reason for life, condemn me to death. There is only one way out.

I must end my life now, before my secret is uncovered. We cannot exist for long like this, perfectly balanced, no one to win, no one to lose. Soon, one of us will disturb this twisted harmony and the other will fall. This is how it must end – a destiny as certain as night following day.

I will not see you die for my mistakes. You have helped me see that Kira was wrong; you cleared my vision and in doing so allowed me to love. It may not be requited, but I refuse to stop the heart I live for.

I could confess, allow you to kill me in atonement for my sins, instead of dying by my own hands. Yet, although we are the greatest of enemies, I believed you when you said I was your first friend. Killing a stranger blackens the soul, what irreparable damage would be done by taking the life of your closest companion? No, I can't let your beautiful hands be stained forever with my blood. This is something I must do and I alone.

I do not fear death – every day spent so close to you is torture enough. I am always near you, constantly reminded of everything I cannot have. How I long to run my fingers through your hair; pull you close and call you mine. I ache to whisper my love for you and worship you with kisses. I would never let you feel alone or unloved; I would make sure you knew how special you are. I would always be there to hold you through the night.

But that can never happen – I must live in life as well as dreams. My love is unwanted; to you I am always a friend, never a lover. Death will be a relief.

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Sooooo…that's that chapter done! Thanks for reading so far….if I beg will you review? Please?? (tries to look adorable) :-D