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I had an idea so i typed this together. Let me know you think of this story.
Promises. The thing about promises is sometimes we choose to believe them because we really want to believe a person if being honest. 'I'll be at your concert,' ' I'll call you after I'm done' and my favorite 'I'll love you forever, we will be together forever, I won't leave you.'
I chose to believe every one of these lies out of her mouth. She didn't show up for my concert, and she didn't call after she was done. I pull on a pair of black tights, than put on my dress. It looks good on me but I don't care about looking good. I'd wear a trash bag out and look as possibly awful if it wasn't for everyone else being there and making a fuss about it. Looking good won't change her last lie to me, we won't be together forever, she left me.
I put on my low black heels and make my way downstairs. Trina and my mom are in the living room waiting. I walk down to them and my mom hugs me tight.
"It's going to be okay baby." She whispers in my ear, another lie.
"You can not say that to me mom. You can not tell me it's going to be alright." I scream at her. She doesn't say anything else she knows I'm going to act out in a time like this. The only thing that would end this pain is the same person who caused it, Jade.
"I hate you. " I whisper softly crying to myself when I get in my dad's Corolla. We drive towards our destination as soon as Trina and my mom get in the car. Trina reaches over and grabs my hand. It's such a loving gesture from her I start crying harder as she pulls me over and wraps her arms around me.
"I love you Tor. I'm going to help you though this whatever you need."
"She promised she'd never leave me Trina. She said we would be together forever." I cry into her shoulder. I cry the entire way to the building. I don't even care to fix my make up when I get out because I know I am going to be doing a whole lot more crying. I spot Cat and Andre first. They come over and both give me a hug. Then Beck and Robbie, Robbie had the good sense not to bring Rex today. I think this may be the first time I have ever really hugged Robbie.
"We should go in now." Beck says putting his arm around my shoulder. Being near him makes me feel close to her again.
"Yeah come on Tor." Andre says coming and squeezing my arm lightly. I get in the building and sit next to Beck and Trina slides in on my other side. I lean my head onto Becks shoulder ruining his shirt from my make up and tears but he doesn't care. I can see his tears leaking form his eyes. Even Trina is crying I don't know if it's because of how upset I am or if she is genuinely upset. I can hear Cat on the other side of the Beck silently weeping into her hands as Robbie puts his arms around her and Beck puts his hand on her knee. This is a tough day for us all.
My parent's sit somewhere in the back my mom has a few stray tears that fall and my dad sits there with a pained expression. I wonder why he is so pained?
The week and a half before this day Jade had been starting to act strange. She would come over and we would watch movies together and have fun until she'd get a text from someone and though she quickly covered the scared look, I'd still see it. I got the same answer every time what was wrong. She'd just it was her mom or dad giving her a hard time. I chose to believe the lie because pressing her would only make her mad, was it actually believing her though or just choosing to not learn the truth.
The night of my concert, three nights ago, I received the worst news ever. Jade had been in a car accident with her mom and dad. I found out after the concert. After I performed to see Jade was not in the audience. After I cursed her in my head saying I hated her and she couldn't even be here for me. She didn't call me after she got out of work. I hated her for that too. I tried calling her on the phone before my concert. After the third call I gave up and left a voice mail saying I hope she didn't get stuck working late at work and that I hoped she would still be here. I also told her I loved her.
I questioned if she got to listen to that message before their car was t-boned by the pick-up truck that ran the light; if she heard me get to tell her one last time I loved her. Jade's side was hit. She was sitting behind the passenger side with no seat belt. She was killed instantly. Her mom also died before the ambulance made it there. Her dad died on the way to the hospital; I know all this because my dad was the cop on scene. He was the one who had to tell me that my world fell apart.
We all grieve differently. I want to just hate Jade for making me believe she would be with me forever. I know it's not her fault my mind isn't thinking right. I want to hate her because it's better than the hurt I feel; I could never love someone as much as I love her. I wonder what I did to have her taken away from me. I look at her closed casket and just wish that this is some sick joke she planned and she is going to pop out of it like a stripped cake. That would be something I could see her doing. But it doesn't happen it stays closed.
Let me know if you think i should continue this story. I'll still be working on Drug of love as well.