Too often in life I would obsess over the beginning. I'd pour so much time into wondering when it would happen, and where I would be, even when I knew I should concentrate on the middle; where I was right then. I knew I should enjoy myself and I knew I should accept my middle, as insignificant as it maybe. I knew I should be happy - and I was, I knew that too.

I knew all of this, yet I continued to obsess over my new beginnings, so much so, I guess I left little thought for the end.

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He was my beginning, my middle, and my end. He was my smile, my laugh, and my endless chatter. He was my listener, my patient friend, and I loved him.

I loved his chocolate eyes and his coffee coloured hair. I loved that when he smiled, his eyes crinkled like starbursts around his eyes. I loved him.

I loved that he always listened, that his lips always lifted a little whenever I talked too fast. I loved that he spoke to his horses when he thought I couldn't hear, and that he cared for them like they were his best friends. I loved that he always had time for me, even when I was particularly hysterical. I loved that he laughed and he smiled.

I loved him. I did. I do.

I loved that he'd ramble when he was nervous, that his fingers always wrapped around my long blonde hair. I loved that he was there, in my beginning and my middle.

I loved that he'd go out of his way to help me out and how modest he was when I thanked him. I loved that he was a gentleman, a sweetheart. I loved that even in the last moment, he was my sweetheart, my love.

I never thought about the end, a time when my best friend was gone. He was my end, though, and I loved him. I still do.

And even though I never told him, I think he knew that too.

Short, I know, and vague too. I'll leave it up to you to decide who this story is about. I like that, it makes it interesting. :)I'm currently in the midst of a Heartland-athon :) so feeling like I've missed my adopted characters, thought I'd write a little one shot about two of the character - little being the operative word. :) Cyber brownies for anyone who guesses who it's about.

Sadly, I can't promise anything in terms of my other stories, but I'm not putting them on hiatus or labelling them as discontinued because that feels like giving up. I'll just keep writing until I find something I'm happy with. Sorry. :)

~Wildatheart~