Hello all, this is an edited version of the first chapter of this fic, so I appologize to my followers for the notification, unless you want to read it. I had recently read this chapter and cringed so hard I think I may have cracked a tooth, my writing style has evolved and changed so much since I first posted it, I figured it was time to edit the beginning, so here you go.
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Chapter One- Bad Wolf Bay
Rose POV
I stared at the translucent image in front of me as it spoke, while I stood on a dreary, cold beach in Norway. We'd driven all night and most of today and for a little bit I'd actually hoped that we'd get to go home, I was only disappointed when I got here and there was no TARDIS in sight.
"I'm burning up a sun just to say goodbye," he said with a halfhearted smile.
"You look like a ghost," I told him shaking my head before I could stop myself. His translucent appearance was making me uncomfortable and making me feel even farther from him that I already did.
"Hold on," he said and I watched him hold up the Sonic and the familiar whirring filled my ears, god I would miss that sound. He came into focus and if I didn't know any better I would think he was properly standing in front of me. Before I had the chance to decide I was already moving forward closing the distance between us until I was right in front of him.
"Can I to," I started, raising my hand, but he cut me off before I could continue.
"I'm still just an image, can't touch," he said looking at my hand with what looked like longing mixed with pain on his face.
"Can't you come through properly," I blurted out before I could stop myself- stupid hormones- since I already knew the answer.
"The whole thing would fracture two universes would collapse," he told me simply.
"So," I said with a huff, as I fought off the tears that were putting up a great fight of their own- again I hated these hormones. I just wanted him back, I needed him right now, there was so much he didn't know.
He smirked, then his face straightened into a look of curiosity. "Where are we? Where did the gap come up?" He asked, as he turned his head like he was looking around.
"On a beach called Darlig Ulv Stranden, it translates to Bad Wolf Bay," I said, chuckling at the translation as he did the same. "How long 'ave you got?" I asked then choking down the tears.
"About two minutes," he told me the sadness in his eyes growing.
"I don't even know what to say," I said trying to delay and scratching my forehead. I knew exactly what to say, I was just terrified and if this was the last two minutes I was going to see him, did I really want him to know so he just felt guilty. The war inside my head continued as he made a sound like a sad chuckle and stared into my eyes before looking over my shoulder.
"You've still got Mister Mickey then," he said with a nod of his head toward my family where they were waiting down the beach. Okay, it's now or never, the perfect gateway.
"There's five of us now," I started then paused to take in a shaky breath, "Mum, Dad, Mickey," I hesitate again not sure if telling him is the right choice, "and the baby," I say before I can talk myself out of it. I look into his eyes to see his reaction, he straightens and his eyes go wide in shock.
"You're not," he said barely above a whisper, the fear in his eyes overwhelming. In that moment I knew it wasn't right but I couldn't let him live with the guilt I knew he would feel if I was. It was better than him trying to rip the universe apart to get to his own unborn child.
"No," I said quickly followed by an accidental nervous chuckle. "It's Mum," I blurted before I knew what I was doing, "Three months gone and there's already more Tyler's on the way."
"What about you, what do you want?" He asked and the only thing I wanted to do was shout, to be with you and raise our child, but I knew what he really meant.
"Oh, I'm back working in a shop," I lie so I can lighten the mood.
"Oh, well good for you," he nods.
"Shut up," I giggle, "no I'm not I'm at Torchwood, on this planer it's open for business and I think I know a thing or two about aliens." I tell him with a small grin.
"Rose Tyler," he begins a his huge grin breaking across his face, "Defender of the Earth." Then he pauses and his face sobers, "you're dead, officially back home," he says, "but yet here you are living a life day after day, one thing I can never do."
Finally the tears break through and I'm sobbing because there's only one thing I want and it's not this life I'm being forced into. "Am I ever going to see you again?" I ask through heavy tears, knowing I probably will only ever see him when I look at our child and see the features he will get from him.
"You can't," he says, choking on his own tears as he shakes his head.
"What are you gonna do now?" I ask, wondering if he will find someone else to travel with.
"Oh, I've got the TARDIS, same old life last of the Timelords," he says with a smile that doesn't reach his eyes only sadness showing there.
"On your own?" I choke out and he nods, there's one thing I need to tell him before he goes. "I," I start before choking on my own tears, "I love you," I finally manage.
"Quite right too," he says sadly, trying to lighten the mood. He takes a deep breath then, "and I suppose if it's my last chance to say it. Rose Tyler," then he disappears completely and I'm left staring at nothing but an empty beach.
"Nooo!" I shout and my knees give out from underneath me. I fall to my knees on the damp sand, tears flowing freely as I sob loudly, "Doctor come back! Please I can't do this without you!" I shout with my hand over my still nearly flat stomach and I hear footsteps running through the sad behind me.
"Oh, Rose I'm so sorry," I hear my mom say as she kneels down beside me, "did you tell 'im then, what did he say?"
"I did, but not directly and for the few seconds he thought it was me, he looked so scared, I couldn't let him know." I told her and curled myself into my mother's arms as tears stream down my cheeks.
"Rose, what did you tell him then?" She asked and I knew she wouldn't let it go until I told her.
"I told 'im you were," I said and looked up to find her giving me a look that says he's the father he deserves to know he has a child coming into this universe. "Why does he need to know mom, so he can beat himself up about not being able to get to his unborn child. Or feel guilty for letting me try and hold onto that magna clamp, even though it's my fault I didn't tell 'im, I was going to once we got back to the TARDIS." I shouted at her only angry at myself.
"Rose," she said staring at me with her brow furrowed in concern.
"I need 'im mom, I need to find a way to get back," I look over her shoulder at the two men standing above us, unsure of what to do with the crying pregnant woman curled up in her mother's arms on the wet sand. "Dad, we've been working on that thing at Torchwood right?" I asked and he nodded. "How long d'you think until it's ready for testing?" I asked him then and he scratched his cheek.
"Well, it's almost done, should only be a couple more months before it's operational and we can test it, but there is no way I'm allowing you to jump across dimensions in your condition." He said trying to sound stern.
"First of all, I'm pregnant, not dying. Second, there's no way I'm doing this without him so if you don't think it's safe, you better find a way to make it safe or deal with it, because as soon as I know it's working, we're going through to find his father. I grew up without you and I'm not doing that to this one if I can control it." I tell him rubbing my stomach through my thick black jacket.
"I guess there's no stopping you, come on let's get back home," he says reaching out his hand to help me up off the sand. Tears are still rolling down my face and all I want in that moment is to be in the Doctor's arms, feeling him kiss the top of my head and know I don't have to do this alone. Of course I do, at least until I find my way back home.