Dear Jay
© MiSERY
Disclaimer: I don't own Jason Reso (Christian.) Everything's fiction.
Summary: Its a letter....
Dear Jay,
I wish we'd never met. I wish I never laid my eyes on you. I wish I never kissed you. And lastly, I wish I never married you. You know I love you deeply, so damn much. But us together isn't worth the shit we're going through.
You're falling apart and I'm scared you'll end up doing something drastic. I'm writing you this letter to tell you I'm leaving. I'm not taking anything from you; it would remind me on how I failed you, so. I'm not taking Sandy, she'll miss you to the point where I would have to take her to you… but seeing your face in pain isn't what I want.
I know by leaving is the chicken's way out. I know you'll blame yourself and start to hate me. I don't want you to blame anyone but myself.
I need to leave so you'll live again and have much more to life then a wife and child. I didn't want you to give up your dream for Sandy and me. I loved you too much to get between it. But you left and your brothers blamed me for walking into your life. I know you regret leaving your life; I've seen it in your eyes. But you managed to brighten Sandy's life with your angel-like smiles and memories of your past before me.
Maybe someday I'll be back. Maybe then, you'll forgive my decision. Maybe then I can look in our daughter's eyes and not see hate. Maybe then you'll love me like once before. Oh, Jay, please know I love you to do this. I can't see you suffer anymore. Baby, know that I'm doing this for you. I love you with my heart and soul; with every breath I take, it's for you and only you.
Forever yours in June…