Oh my god I finally dug this one up. Sorry for being inactive as of late, I've been busy and shit but I'll hope to get back on track with my fanfiction writing.

This is going to be another RinXLen, I love this couple. This one is kind of depicting a situation that I was in when I wrote it, though in this story there have been a lot of changes to the situation it's based off of.

Anywho, enjoy this first chapter~

Rin POV

Let me explain love. Love is nothing, and everything. It's an adventure and a discovery all of its own. You don't know the meaning of love, and what it means to say "I love you" until you let it in, run you wild, calm you down, makes you cry, makes you laugh, warms your heart, tears you apart, and above all, makes you feel everything you never felt before. If you think you have love all figured out, you are missing everything there is to it.

Even I myself haven't really understood my own feelings lately. I've been mixed up in what some may say is "love" for a boy that isn't even all that nice to me. That boy is Len Kagamine, the hot-shot and most popular guy in school. I don't like him for those reasons though; just something about him makes me feel all jittery inside.

Everyone in my school knows about this crush. Of course, I get harassed for it by many other preps who want Len. They always tell me he'll never want me because of my flat chest and unappealing atmosphere. I could care less though because most of them are stupid enough to think he'll come back to them and ask them out again after he already got what he wanted from them.

I hate my feelings sometimes. I never really wanted to like Len because of how he screws around with girls and their virginity a lot, but my heart has failed me.

Beep. Beep. Beep.

I groan and slam my hand down on my orange shaped alarm clock and the beeping stops. I begrudgingly roll out of my soft, warm bed and shuffle across the room to my door and swing it open. I continue trudging down the hallway and down the stairs to the kitchen and grab an orange and feast on the delicious fruit.

After finishing my breakfast, I go back up the stairs and into my bedroom to grab my uniform. I slip the yellow, white, and black blouse and skirt on, put on white knee-high socks and black shoes. I walk into the bathroom and fix myself up, brushing knots out of my blonde locks, brushing my teeth, putting deodorant on, putting white hair clips and a big white bow in my hair.

I walk down to the door and grab my backpack and walk outside and start on my journey to school. This walk always reminds me why I hate people. Mostly because whores who want Len for themselves or think I'm going to turn into a whore for Len talk about me and how I'll never get my chance with Len. And then there's Len who sometimes finds me and harasses me too.

As I walk further down the sidewalk and get closer to the school and some of the people that go there, I hear some of them talking about the most flat-chested girl in the school…which would be me.

"Is it just me, or does she have the chest of an eleven-year old boy?" One of them whispers. It was one of the girls dumped by Len a few months back, named Teto Kasane. She shouldn't be talking though; she looks as if she's only one bra size above me.

I ignore the groups of people making fun of my crush on Len and my chest. I finally get to the doors and open them, entering the halls of torture. I stride over to my locker someone pokes my sides from behind and I yelp.

"Hey!" My best friend, Luka Megurine, says from behind me. She seems oddly in a good mood today.

"Hi…" I say awkwardly, still wondering about what she's so cheerful about.

"You'll never guess what just happened to me!" She states with a bright smile.

"What happened?" I ask, maybe sounding too eager to know what was going on.

"Len Kagamine asked me out today!" Aw dammit.

"Uhm…Luka…" I say and she interrupts.

"I know, I know! I won't let him take advantage of me like he does with other girls. You know me Rin! And besides, if it doesn't work out I'll put a good word in for you," Luka reassures me with a pat on the back and a smile.

"Alright," I reply, "be careful though. I don't want you getting hurt."

"I won't, Rin. I think I can manage," She says with a wink and starts walking away, "I'll catch you at lunch Rinny!"

"Alright, bye!" I yell to her with a smile and resume opening my locker. I grab my things that I need for first period and make my way over to my homeroom. Luckily, I'm the first one in the classroom besides the teacher.

"Good morning, Kagami," He says with a smile and I smile back.

"Good morning," I say and set my books and folders down on my desk and rest my head. After a few minutes, the teacher goes outside to socialize with other teachers until the bell rings. And then I see the "great one" enter the room with dozens of girls glued to his sides. Each of them are yapping on about something that's probably really stupid and then as Len takes his usual seat next to me and hushes the girls.

"Ladies, ladies, settle down. I have a girlfriend, and I don't think she'd be too happy to see this. So please, go to your homerooms," Len says smoothly and then glances at me with a smirk. I look at him blankly and then look away, using my peripheral vision to find him still looking at me.

"Is there something I can help you with?" I ask, slightly stumbling over my own words because of the way he's looking at me.

"Oh nothing. I was just wondering how the little flatty feels about me dating her best friend," He states plainly.

"Well the 'little flatty' doesn't mind. She just wants her best friend to be happy," I say bitterly, "even if it means dating someone like you."

"Aw, but I thought you liked me, Boobless. Does this mean your friends that I date will stop telling me to date you next?" He says mockingly, "Because I'm not going to."

"I still like you, douchebag. You don't think I already know that, huh? I'm not as stupid as the other whores in this school," I reply with a bit of sadness. I didn't even know that my friends that he screwed with were telling him to go for me.

"No, I know you know. I just wanted to shove it in your face a little more," He says with a smirk and I just lay my head back down in my arms. I hate my life, I swear to God I hate it. I hate myself, I hate my school, I hate my classmates, and I hate Len.

I push my face in my arms and let a few tears go, controlling myself so I don't start sobbing. This always happens, me wanting to cry whenever Len says things like that to me. It doesn't hurt as much when other people make fun of me, but when the guy you like makes fun of you it really hurts.

I hear a few more people enter the room and hear more girls coming over to talk to Len and him talking to them oh so smoothly. It just makes me want to cry and it makes me want to puke. He treats them like princesses before he has sex with them and then afterwards he treats them like trash. For me, it would probably be both times being treated like trash, since he's already ahead of the game on that one.

I lift my head out of my arms as the teacher enters the room and starts the roll call.

"Rin Kagami?" He calls after going through the beginning of the list.

"Here," I grumble and rest my head on my arms again and listen to the teacher call out the other names.

...

After I get my lunch, I sit down at the usual table that Luka and I usually sit at with a few other people. I look around the cafeteria in search of my pink-haired best friend and don't see any sign of her. Then, I begrudgingly look over to the table that the popular people sit at and find Len looking for Luka as well.

"Damn bastard…" I murmur, seeing he's trying to trample mine and Luka's little motto for when one of us gets a boyfriend; "Chicks before dicks."

I look over at the lunch line and find her coming over to our table and I partially smile. I look over to Len again who's trying to wave her over and she is seemingly torn between us. She looks at Len with pleading eyes and he gives her a look of disapproval and then gives me a pleading look. I can't believe this! Is she going to overthrow the rule?

She gives me the one minute sign and scurries over to Len's table and asks him something and he almost starts laughing and shakes his head and I see a frown on her face. I see her come back over and sit next to me.

"Aren't you going to sit with Len?" I ask, partially knowing the answer already.

"You and I have the rule remember; 'Chicks before dicks'! I didn't want to leave you alone and I asked him if you could sit with us he laughed and said no, so I said no," Luka states triumphantly.

"Thanks for not leaving me here alone," I say with a smile that no one else gets to see, only the people who bring me out of my unhappy rut, like Luka.

I look over to Len and see him looking angrily at me, knowing that I won. But then he smirks and grabs his stuff and sits down at our table. I scowl as he tries to make up a sappy excuse to make his decision to sit over here.

He and Luka continue talking throughout the lunch period as I remain silent and impassive. When they quiet down for a moment to take a few bites of their lunch, I catch Len grinning at me like he wants to eat my soul. I feel quite relieved when the bell sings its song and I make my easy escape, saying goodbye to Luka and making my merry way to my locker.

As I start spinning the combination into my locker I feel a rough push on my back and I slam face first into my locker. I instantly grab for my nose, since it had the most pain shooting through it.

"That's what you get for trying to take my girlfriend away from me," I hear Len's voice like venom ring through my ears and I grunt in pain, still holding my nose which is now bleeding.

"I didn't do anything, you dick head!" I bark, blood dripping from my hand, "You were the one that drove her to still sit with me! I know what you were laughing about, her wanting me to sit at the popular table. Well I don't give a damn about that! Just leave me the fuck alone!" I shout and he glowers.

"I know you're jealous of her, being prettier than you and all, and me wanting to give her a good time and not you," He says.

"I don't give a fuck if you think she's prettier than me and I don't want to join the sad and delusional girls that you've dumped in the past after doing that to them," I say rudely, "Now leave me alone!"

"Fine, then I'll see you in class," He says with a smirk. God dammit, I forgot we have almost every class together. I check my hand to find it covered in blood and my nose still dripping blood. I sigh and put the combination in my locker, open it, grab my stuff, close it, and head to my Literature class.

I try my best not to get any blood on my books so I have to hold them all with one hand and try not to let it drip on them. I walk into the room and the teacher gasps.

"Are you alright?!" She asks worriedly.

"Y-Yeah…I'm fine, just a little nosebleed," I give a shaky chuckle. I see Len in the corner of my eye and he looks unnerved. Well he better be, dammit. He's the cause of this! I also see Luka in the corner of my eye and she looks worried. My head starts to spin from the pain of the nosebleed and probably the loss of blood and I start feeling myself sway.

Before I topple over the teacher catches me and calls out to the class, "Would anyone care to take Ms. Kagami to the nurse's office?"

"I will," Luka replies and not so long after Len does the same.

Next thing I know is that I have one arm around Luka's neck and the other around Len's. I try to get my arm off of Len and I frown, from the pain in my head and the fact that he's trying to play good guy.

We finally get to the nurse's office and she comes out with a shocked expression on her face.

"Oh my. That is a lot of blood!" The nurse squeals and helps me sit down in a chair and hands me a box of tissues, "What's your name?"

"Rin Kagami, grade 11," I say wearily, my head still spinning.

"Thank you two for bringing her down here, you may go back to class," The nurse says to Luka and Len and they leave.

...

The bell rings for our free period and I walk over to my locker, open it, throw my things in there, grab some sheet music from my folder, and shut my locker. My nose stopped bleeding a long while ago (more like three periods ago) but I still have a bit of a headache.

I walk down to the cafeteria where everyone is supposed to go during the free period but the teachers let us go to other rooms that aren't in use by other grades like the music room, the computer lab on some days, and other rooms. I spend most of my time in the music room because singing and playing an instrument makes me happy.

I see Luka already sitting with Len and they are talking. I try to avoid eye contact with them because I don't want anyone following me into the music room. As you might be able to tell, I dislike when people listen to me play an instrument or sing. I especially wouldn't be able to live it down if Len heard me.

"May I go to the music room?" I ask one of the supervising teachers and he nods with a smile. I walk down the hallways and make turns at the correct place and finally find my heaven. I walk in and close the door behind me, checking to make sure no one is in here and making sure no one was following me.

After reassuring myself that nobody is here, I sit down at the piano bench and start warming up with a quiet scale. After doing so, I pull out the sheet music that I brought from my locker and place it on the piano. Most of the songs were songs from my favorite animes and just some of my favorite songs for the piano.

Randomly grabbing from the pile of sheet music, I pull out the song "Lilium" from one of my favorite animes "Elfen Lied". I smile when I see the music I chose, I'd been practicing this one for a while and I learned how to sing it while playing. Even though the song is sung in Latin, it's still very easy to sing.

I place the sheet music in front of me and I start playing and singing. The further I get into the song, I start slipping into my other world, my happier world. Without me noticing, someone cracks open the door and sits to listen to me play and sing.

I finish the song gently and emotionally and I hear clapping and finally notice the person that was sitting there was Len. I look at him with shock and I feel my face heat up immensely.

"W-What are you doing here?!" I ask angrily.

"I'm not allowed to applaud you for having some talent?" Len shrugs with a grin and I just frown.

"You didn't answer my question, what are you doing here?" I ask again with a cold tone.

"You didn't answer my question either, why can't I applaud you for having talent?"

"I asked first," I state and he sighs in defeat.

"Well I was heading over to the restroom and I heard singing and piano playing, so I thought I'd check it out and I found you in mid-song so I sat and listened," Len explains, "Now, why can't I applaud?"

I sit in silence because I actually can't come up for an answer for that one. Shit, this is probably one of the things that keep me from dropping my crush on him; he messes around with me and treats me like shit all day and then he compliments me on a few things. Maybe he's feeling a little bad about hurting me earlier, but he's heartless so I doubt it.

"That's what I thought," He crosses his arms and smirks while I frown and blush, "Play it again."

"W-What?!" I question in surprise since I really didn't see that one coming.

"You heard me, play it again," He says, "I caught you in mid-song, so I didn't get to listen to the beginning of that song. So play it again."

"Fine, but…can you not watch…?" I ask slowly, embarrassment creeping up on me.

"Why~? Is the little flatty embarrassed?" Spot on, asshole.

"If you watch, I won't play," I reply with anger buried into my voice.

"Fine," He says and turns away from me. I give a deep sigh and resume my position at the piano and start playing and singing the same tune from before slowly feeding my emotions into it.

I feel impressed with myself that I got this far singing and playing the piano without having a panic attack. No, there's no backstory to my dislike of preforming in front of others. I just really don't like it, I mean; people can listen from afar but not standing right behind me.

I finish up the song softly and calmly. I stop playing and turn around to find Len turning around with a smile on his face. Like an actual smile.

"How come I didn't know about this before, you always sneaking away to the music room to do this?" He asks.

"Because I didn't want anyone to listen to me. That's why I 'sneak' over here. I especially didn't want you finding me here, but I guess my luck doesn't last long," I say bitterly.

"Are you embarrassed that I found you here?"

"Yes,"

"May I ask why?"

"You know why! You always make fun of everything I do. This was one of the things that makes me happy, and I can only do this and be happy when I'm alone. I didn't want you finding me and showing up here to harass me every free period of the rest of the year."

"Well I'm not going to make fun of you for having talent, something that many of the losers I dated don't have at all," He says plainly.

"I never know what you're going to do, you know. Today for instance; One minute you're slamming me into a locker causing me to have a nosebleed and then the next you're helping Luka lug me down to the nurse's office," I rant and he frowns.

"I'm sorry about that," Len says with little sincerity. I give him a cold look.

"You don't even care. You were just helping Luka because you didn't want her to get away before you screwed with her. Don't think I don't know your little game, I've known it ever since you started it in seventh grade," I glower at the asswipe that stands before me.

Thankfully, the bell tolls and it's the end of the day. Finally I can go home and hopefully relax a little, even though Len will probably be on my mind like he always is. I walk out of the room with my music in hand and stroll to my locker. I grab my bag from it and close it and start walking to my house.

So what do you think :D?

Good? Bad? Mediocre?

This story was kind of a vent for me back when I wrote it because I was going through a similar situation, but I changed up a lot of it and put it in this.

Credit for the first paragraph of this chapter goes to someone on YouTube on a video for Yiruma's song "Because I Love You", I forgot their name but just know I did not, I repeat DID NOT make up that first paragraph on my own.

I would really like your guys's input for if I should continue with this one because when I read it to my sister she was saying how cliché it was so I dunno if I should continue, but it'd really help if you guys gave me some reviews on if I should. So don't forget to R&R!

Mochi BE GONE! *snaps fingers, smoke appears, and I disappear*