Dear Gibbs,
Before I hand in my resignation to Vance I wanted you to read this. Last night, I held my best friend's hand as she died. I watched the light leave her eyes. I never got a chance to tell her how I felt because you stopped me with your rules. This morning I came into work and had to tell my little sister and brother that not only did their best friend die on the street last night when she didn't need to be there, but I had to tell them that they had no chance to say goodbye to her, because you put her in a position she shouldn't have been in. She trusted you with her life, something she didn't do easily, and you misused that. I lost the love of my life last night, are you happy know? I know how you felt when you found out about Shannon. Abby hasn't played music in her lab since I told her, because, like a true gentleman, you left that pleasure to me didn't you? McGee hasn't said a word. They won't go near each other. They won't talk to me. You broke up our family Gibbs. Are you proud? I've written to the people that matter enough to care that I'm leaving. I cared about her too Gibbs. I have to make the phone call to Eli to tell him that he isn't a father anymore. Because you've just taken another child from him. You wanna know the worst bit? The second to last thing she said was 'promise me you will not blame Gibbs for this'. She slipped away doing everything she could to stop me hating you. Because she was perfect. She was brilliant, and the last thing she prayed for was for me to forgive you for taking her from me. Well, that's one promise I can't keep. Because I blame you Gibbs. I blame you.
Yours sincerely,
Your former Senior Field Agent.
Abs,
I'm so sorry Abby. You are far too young to have lost both of your best friends. Even though I'm not there, I'll always be there for you Abby. I'm only a phone call, text, Facebook message away. Ignore Gibbs please. Don't let him and his stupid rules keep you and McGee apart. I made that mistake with Ziva. I couldn't bare it if he robbed either of you of the chance of being happy. Don't let him get in the way Abby. I'm sorry that I had to break this to you. I'm sorry this job took another of your family. I'm, I'm just sorry sweetheart. I love you with all my heart Abigale and I'll always be there for you.
Stay strong,
Tony.
Tim,
Yet another sister has gone. Don't make the same mistake as me Tim; don't let Abby slip through your fingers. You never know how long you've got in this life, especially in our line of work, so take the chance and make each other happy. I'm always just a text away. You need me, you get hold of me. Anytime, day or night, I'll be there for you. You're the baby brother I never had. Never forget how much I love you just as I'll never forget how much you did for me. Do whatever makes you happy Tim.
Your brother,
Tony.
Ducky,
I know you won't, you didn't for Kate, why would you for Ziva, but I think you should get another ME in to do her autopsy. I know how hard you took Kate's. I always looked up to you Duck. You were like my wise old uncle that was always there with a cup of tea and a rambling story to cheer you up. Not gonna cut it this time. I want you to know that even if I'm not at NCIS, even if I turn my back on Gibbs, I'm not turning my back on you. I'm just a phone call away. I love you Ducky. You are my family. Blood is thicker than water, but nothing is thicker than love.
See ya Duck,
Tony.
My sweet darling ninja,
Oh baby, what do I say? I love you so much. I'm sorry I couldn't save you. I will never stop loving you Zi, no matter how long I live. I'll never forget you. You were perfect, no matter what you thought. I wanted to make you my wife one day; I wanted to see our little DiNozzo-Davids running around. I'd give anything to see you smile one more time. I want to hear you laugh again. I don't want to see you die every time I close my eyes. I don't want to feel you loose your grip on me and life and watch the light ebb out of your eyes and hear you tell me how scared you were. I want to see you happy. I want to see you glow. Hell, I'd even settle for a death glare right now sweetheart. I just want you back. I want you in my arms again. I want to feel your warmth, your softness, your smile. I want you back Ziva. I'd give anything to have you back. But heaven's got a brand new angel and earth's got one more broken heart. I'm so sorry Ziva. I should have saved you. I should have, done, something, anything. If you were here now, you'd tell me off for babbling. Then again, if you were here, I wouldn't be writing this letter. I should have said this to you in person when I had the chance and oh God didn't you give me enough of them? Don't leave me baby please. I don't know how to do this without you. I can't go on with life without you Zi because you were my life. I love you Ziva David, and always will. Sleep tight angel. Be peaceful.
Forever yours,
Tony.
Vance,
I quit. This job isn't worth it without her.
Formally yours,
Anthony 'Tony' DiNozzo, Former Special Agent.
The NCIS team walked in, on the second day after Ziva's death, to find plain white envelopes on all of their desks. Another white envelope leant against a marble stone, both sodden from heartbroken tears. While the world discovered that he wasn't coming back, Tony stood in front of another grave, asking one last favour as a tear slipped down his cheek.
"Look after her until I can hold her, Jen."