Not falling apart:
Danced all night, sleep all day
Careless with my heart again
Fearless when it comes to playing games
I woke up with the memories of the dance still fresh in my mind. And the picture of Ginny in that dress still gives me butterflies. I wish I could relive it all but I know I will never again.
You don't cry and you don't care
Afraid to have a love affair
Is that your ghost or are you really there?
You don't care about me, you care about Harry. And I was too naïve to notice. Through out the whole ball, you weren't really there to have fun with me, but to just be there for Harry.
Now I can't walk and I can't talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now I'm stuck living out that night again
I'm not falling apart
I sit up on my bed and put my feet on the floor. They are still sore from last night. Last night… how that night turned so bad… I close my eyes, in hopes, that the images of that night will leave me, like she had-
No!
I won't think about what happen…
Wither on a sunny day
Time slows down, I'd wish you stayed
Pass me by in crowed dark hallways
Slowly I get off my bed and to the bathroom and get ready for the day. Once I was clean and dressed I went down to the great hall without waking any of my roommates.
Walking down to the great hall, I pass a window to see the bright sun light. I look out to see the beautiful scenery, how I wish it was gloomy so it can match my mood. I stare out the window what seem like hours and I can't help but think, Ginny would have liked this view. It's as beautiful as she was at the dance…
No! Stop thinking about the dance, Neville!
I look away from the window, slowly walk the lightly brighten hall and daydream: about the memories of this hallway and Ginny in my arms…
Try my hardest not to scream
I find my heart growing weak
So leave your reasons on the bathroom sink
I stop and with sudden anger I hit the wall with all the force I could muster. The pain numbs my aching heart, and let my forehead rest on the wall. I slowly crumble to the floor. What should I do, without you?
Now I can't walk, I can't talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now I'm stuck, living out that night again
I'm not falling apart
I sit there and fight the memories of you and that night…
I want to scream, curse, and laugh at my insanity because the thought of you has my world falling down with every breath… And I can't help but tear my heart into more pieces, just to see you again.
But I don't want to fall apart…
I heard you say you need me
Now what the problem? I can't see
You destroyed me, I won't fall apart again
I'm not falling apart
"Neville, please take me to the ball!" you smile at me. I thought you wanted to really be with me, but now I know that was a lie. You hurt me for your chance at something more important to you…
No I won't think about it anymore!!! I can't take it!!
I can't… I just can't…
Take what you wanted
And I will be just fine
You will be better off alone at night
Have my heart because it is too much of a burden to keep it. I will live without it… You don't need me… You seem better that way…
Waiting and Falling
Constantly calling out you name
Will it ever change?
The ball was near it end and Ginny was nowhere in sight, I look for you to find…you and Harry snogging… "Ginny?" you turn with sadness in your eyes. "Neville, uh…" I put my hand up. "No, need to explain." I say with sadness and turn to leave.
Now I can't walk, I can't talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now I'm stuck living out that night again
I'm not falling apart
You caught up with me, "Neville, I'm sorry I leaded you on. It just would never work out…"
"That's complete rubbish!"
"Neville! I'm sorry that I'm in love with Harry!"
"How can you be in love with Harry, when you told me you were in love with me?"
You look down with guilt.
"That was a lie, right?" I ask staring straight in your eyes.
"Neville-!"
"Save it." I said coldly before walking away.
UGH!! MEMORY, LEAVE ME ALONE!! STOP REPLAYING IN MY MIND!!
I heard you say you needed me
Now what's the problem? I can't see
You destroyed me, I won't fall apart again
I'm not falling apart…
I need a walk… I will be better after a walk…
I walk to the black lake, seeing the sun slowly rise up… the color of you hair stains the sky with yellows and orange…
I drop to my knees and break down and stare at the cursed sky to bring me so much pain…
Ginny… I'm falling apart with out you…
Thanks for reading and PLEASE REVIEW!!! XD and tell me what you think!! Sorry if Neville is emo… I felt a little emo…
Until the next story!
~Lost2Love~