Well this heart of mine
Has been hardened like a stone
It might take some time
To get back what is gone
I hated what losing you did to me. Every day I woke up and ached for the way we used to be. I had to be strong for our daughter, but I wasn't sure how. Nikki you were my heart and you ripped it away.
But I'm movin' on
And you don't haunt my dreams
Like you did before
When I would curse your name
I knew I had to move on, start going out and reenter the real world. It was hard at first seeing all the places we use to go together. But it slowly got better. I used to have dreams of you. Well one dream that played over and over again. You would be walking away from me, and I could never catch up. I'd wake up cursing you into the night only to wake Jenny sleeping next to me.
Well I heard the news
That you were back in town
Just passin' through
To claim your lost and found
My friends saw you yesterday coming out of the old record store on Forth. You had a box of stuff labeled Nikki's Junk. I know the box. I gave it to the rundown business when you left. I guess you only came back for a few Alanis Morrisettes and a broken cassette deck.
But I'm over you
And there ain't nothin' that
You could say or do
To take what you did back
You came by my house begging for forgiveness. You didn't realize that I moved on. You broke my heart and I had to fix it the best I could. You can plead and negotiate all you want, but it won't help.
Well you got nerve to waltz right in
And think what's mine is yours again
You asked to see Jenny. That will never happen. You lost the right to our daughter when you left us both.
Well I've been doin' fine without you
Forgettin' all the love we once knew
And girl I ain't the one who slammed that door
I've got a good life. It's not perfect, but it's mine. I've built a stable support system from my daughter without your help. I've put us in the past in order to survive. I'm not the one who left.
But now you say you've changed your thinkin'
But I ain't got a heart for breakin'
You say you're different now. You weren't ready before. You want to be in our lives. You want to be with me. But what you don't realize is that even if I wanted to I can't be with you.
So go and pick your bags up off my floor
Cuz love don't live here anymore
When you broke my heart I never fixed it. I can't love you, I just can't.