Disclaimer: I don't own FMA. Also don't own "You Got Mail" just mentioned it really.

Warning: very very AU, think like our world definitely. Also the characters may be slightly OOC. Sorry if it's a bit cliché too. Hopefully, it all makes sense.

Contains: AlxOC, WinryxAl onsided, and of course features mostly WinryxEd

Length: There will be exactly five chapters to this fic all around this length

Wants and Dreams

"To be your friend was all I ever wanted; to be your lover was all I ever dreamed." –Unknown

"Winry, I'm getting married!"

My heart stopped. He didn't just say that, did he?

"Winry are you alright, you look a bit pale," Al added as he put his hand to my forehead.

I jumped at the contact. My face was surely burning. Stammering, I tried to cover up my shock, "I'm fine Al, everything's fine. That's really great!" Everything was not fine, I was not okay and this was a complete disaster.

"Oh good," Al sighed, "I was afraid you would freak out like brother did."

I forced a smile to my face. "Naw that's just Ed for you always freaking out over the smallest of things," I might have laughed at my joke teasing Ed's height if my head wasn't going crazy at the moment.

"So who's the unlucky girl," I strained myself to ask as my heart felt as if it was being ripped in two. I clenched the napkin in my lap under the table trying to remain calm.

"That's a good one Winry," Al said chuckling lightly. "It's hard to believe that Ella and I have been going out for two years now. Last night I asked her to marry me this summer after we graduate university and she said yes. Right now I'm the happiest man alive!" he yelled standing up in the middle of the restaurant and shouting at the top of his lungs.

I couldn't help but smile halfheartedly at him. Yelling so loud to attract attention from the surrounding tables in the restaurant when normally Al was quite calm. There was no doubt that he was in love.

And it hurt. It hurt me more than I thought it would.

Realizing what he had just done, Al sat down sheepishly. "Sorry bout that. Anyway, I'm just so happy right now Winry. I had been so nervous asking Ella, had the ring for ages, but when she said yes…"

I blocked out the rest.

Yes, I loved Al.

I always had, so the last thing I really needed to hear about was how happy he was gonna be once he married Ella and how great she was for him. Still, I sat there like a good friend, which was all I would ever be now, and pretended to listen as he rambled on about how damn perfect his life was gonna be.

"Bye Winry!" he shouted waving to me as he walked to his car with a huge grin still on his face.

"Bye Al!" I yelled back hoping he wouldn't hear my voice crack slightly.

I turned away trying to hold back the tears.

Ten steps to my car and I could let loose.

I think I always knew that this was gonna happen.

Nine steps.

I had known Al pretty much my entire life when I met him and his twin brother back in first grade.

Eight steps.

Al was always the gentleman even at a young age. A bit naïve but otherwise perfect, as opposed to his barely older twin brother Ed who was a hothead, blunt, cocky, too smart for his own good, short (he managed to get taller in 8th grade), and the only redeeming quality about him was his determination.

Seven steps. I sped up. The tears were coming.

Six steps.

I had sworn to myself even only being six years old that I would marry Al someday. The only downside really was that Ed would be my brother-in-law but I could deal I was sure.

Five steps.

Luckily for me, my parents were good friends with the Elric brothers, so when they started hanging out a lot more I was sure that I would be able to make Al fall for me.

Four steps.

Too bad things don't ever go according to my plan.

Three steps.

By the time we were eight, Al saw me as a little sister. Sister.

Two steps.

I've never been as upset as the day he told me that, well, excluding today. I'm pretty sure that this is much worse. Much much worse.

One step.

Girls had always flocked over him and Ed as they were well, "hot". Okay, I admit that Ed's just about as hot as Al, but Al was always the perfect one. Guess just not perfect for me.

Damn it, my eyes watering up really doesn't help me find my key to my car door. I stumbled with my keys. If I would just calm down this probably wouldn't take as long.

When he found Ella, I saw it immediately. They were perfect for each other, there was no denying it. She was good, pure, sweet, never lost her temper, little naïve but matched Al that way, a bit clingy but once again he liked that.

Found the stupid key and unlocked the door.

I think I knew the moment that they started going out that it was over. Still I sometimes found myself hoping that Ella would turn out to be a bitch and break Al's heart or something and he would come running to me. I felt terrible with such thoughts and hated myself for it, but I was in love, still am. And I can't get out.

I got in the car finally.

All hell broke loose as I couldn't hold it in anymore.

I pulled up to my apartment complex. Tears still stung in my eyes and my head and throat hurt from crying so much. Still, neither could compare to my heart.

Putting my car into park I hugged myself immediately trying to keep from crying anymore. It was a losing battle I figured I should try and stop at least until I was in my apartment.

Walking up the stairs I felt exhausted. I just wanted to curl up in my bed and cry myself to sleep. To forget this pain for a while, that would be great.

Getting to my front door though, I realized my plan wasn't exactly going to happen. Well, not yet.

"Here to tease me about being in love with you brother again? To rub it in my face that he's gonna get married now and I should have given up years ago!" I said to Edward Elric as he stood up from where he had been sitting leaning against my door.

Obviously he was here to tease me for my crush as he had called it.

"Damn it Winry do you really think I would do that!" he yelled back at me. Short temper like I said.

"Yes! You've teased me about me liking Al forever, how the hell you found out I don't know but you've always said that it wouldn't happen between us. You always said me and Al wouldn't end up together. So go ahead and say it Ed!"

"Say what!" he asked looking truly confused at me. I knew better though. I knew that Ed had always wanted to say it. For every girl Al got together with ever he would give me the look.

"I told you so!" I whispered fiercely as tears fell down my face again. Great, this is just great. This definitely has to be the best day of my life. I looked down. I didn't want to talk to Ed anymore, especially crying like this. He would probably just tease me, that's all we ever seemed to do, tease and fight.

Strangely he didn't say anything as my sobs filled the air. Then oddly I felt something on my back and I was pulled forward into an embrace.

"Ed," I said a bit breathlessly and in disbelief. I guess that I got so caught up in our fights, rivalry, and teasing that I tended to forget that Ed had a soft spot as well.

"Winry, I only always teased you about this because I was afraid," he paused obviously trying to find the right words. This must have been important to him if he was trying so hard not to mess it up, normally he just spurts out the first thing that comes to mind.

"I was always so afraid that you were gonna get hurt like this one day."

My breath hitched. I didn't think, I just felt. I needed someone to hold on to. Someone to tell me that it was gonna be alright, even if it wasn't. As far as I could see, Ed had just volunteered to be that someone.

I pulled back just slightly in order to throw my arms around his neck tightly as I balled into his shoulder.

If Ed was surprised, he didn't seem to show it. No, he just held me tighter for a while before scooping me off my feet and carrying me into my apartment. I surprisingly didn't protest, I believe I was too exhausted to really do so.

I also have no idea how he got my key from my hands but I was glad he had. He understood that I didn't need to be falling apart like this in public.

I don't know where he put my purse but frankly I didn't really care at the moment. All I remember was him pulling me into his lap on my bed and letting me cry and scream out all my frustrations.

"I love him Ed! I really really love him. Always have. And I think I always will." I yelled, probably in his ear.

He didn't complain though, no he just held me close lending his ear to my grievances.

"And you know what's the worst thing about it. I can't hate Ella for this. She's great, I love her. I love her with Al. They love each other and are perfect for one another really. It just hurts so much Ed." I admitted hating myself for wanting any sort of relationship with Al when he and Ella were so meant to be.

"Shhhh, it's okay Winry," Ed whispered in my ear gentler than I could have ever imagined.

How long this lasted I don't know because eventually my sobs quieted and my body relaxed feeling the warmth of Ed all around me. I couldn't help but fall into a deep slumber, wanting to forget everything that had happened today.

I woke up still in my jeans and t-shirt feeling slightly uncomfortable. Something had happened I was sure, but my head felt foggy from still waking up and my throat kinda hurt distracting me slightly.

But it only took a couple of minutes for everything to come back to me. Al, marriage, crying,… Ed.

Ed!

I looked around frantically. Where was he! I ran around my small apartment trying to find him. There wasn't that many places for him to hide really and by no means was Ed small… anymore.

Going back to my bedroom afraid that somehow I had overlooked him and he was laughing at me at this very moment, I found it very dark and very deserted. Turning on light that Ed must have flipped off sometime last night after I fell asleep, a piece of paper caught my eye on the unused pillow next to mine.

Curiously, I walked over to my bed, unfolded, and began reading it.

Winry,

I figured you wouldn't want me around when you woke up so after you feel asleep I managed to tuck you in and went home after locking up. Don't worry about going to class today, I'll make sure that I get enough notes for the two of us since we share most our classes anyway. The ones we don't I'll find someone that I can get the notes for today from. Please feel better soon. I hate seeing you like that.

Ed

The last line looked as if he had erased and rewrote it several times and honestly I was surprised that he had left it on there actually. Ed, admitting that he… worried, about me.

I refolded the note carefully. Something told me that I was gonna want to remember this despite the negative feelings along with it.

Sighing I looked in a mirror. I looked terrible. Red eyes, mussed hair, mascara down my cheek. How Ed kept from teasing me I have no clue. I had given him so much material to mess with me for the rest of my life.

I really was gonna need to give him a second chance. Perhaps, I tucked a strand of my pure blonde hair behind my ear, he wasn't as bad as I had always assumed.

Now I wanted to eat. I hadn't since yesterday with Al at the restaurant. The memory hurt me, but at least I was able to keep from tearing up.

Bagel and cream cheese sounded good.

Ten minutes later. "GAH! Where are all the stupid knives!"

I quickly began gathering my notes I had just taken. I had to get out of there ASAP. Not going to class yesterday on Ed's orders had to be one of the stupidest things I had ever done, because next thing I knew it was nine o'clock at night and I had suddenly remembered that I had a test the next day in calculus. So now I had to do as much last minute studying as possible.

"Oof," I ran into someone hard enough for me to fall back on my butt. "Sorry," I said looking up at the one person in the world I really wasn't ready to see yet.

"Winry!" Al exclaimed smiling at me as he lent me a hand to help me up.

"A-Al" I said surprised, though really I shouldn't have been. After all, he was in my class. I took his accepted his help and got up dusting off my pants trying to avoid looking at the boy I had fallen so hard for so long ago.

"I was worried about you yesterday after what Ed told me," Al admitted to me.

"Oh, really," what the hell did Ed tell you.

"Yeah, I'm really happy that you feel so much better today."

"Yeah me too," I replied trying to be vague as possible.

"Well, I have to go meet Ella for lunch, oh and I think she wanted to have lunch with you next week sometime. Something about a girls' day out? I don't know," he said waving as he started walking away.

"Okay tell her just to call me," I said with an honest smile on my face. I've said before I liked Ella and I wasn't lying. Even if she was marrying the boy I loved, I wouldn't hold it against her.

"Hello Winry," someone's breath tickled in my ear.

Only one person would ever do that. "Ed!" I shouted turning around.

"Geez, you have to yell?" he asked rubbing his ear.

"What did you tell Al was wrong with me yesterday," I asked right away. I needed to know or else Al might suspect something.

"Straight to the point are we Winry?" he asked obviously trying to get on my nerves.

So I stomped on his foot. Now I may look petite with bright blue eyes, light blonde hair, a cute little nose (Or so I've been told), a kind face, and a well curvy but not too curvy body, but if you know me well, then you know that I pack a punch and a kick.

"Oww!" Ed shouted. Is he really surprised at my actions by now? I've been doing this to him since sixth grade.

If looks could kill, my glare would have hung Ed, electrocuted him, and then burned him to the ground before scattering his ashes in the wind.

Now Ed may like to tease me, but he is smart enough to know my limit. "He was asking me about the way you had acted when you were out to lunch, he thought something was off with you, so I told him your allergies were acting up and then yesterday were bad enough that you just had to stay in bed all day. That good?" he finished cockily.

Yeah, that was really good. Why was it that Ed had to be so damn smart all the time? I was about to yell at him again for being arrogant when I remembered what he had done for me that weekend and I bit my tongue.

"Yeah, that's fine," I admitted adverting my gaze away from him. I didn't need to feed his ego anymore than I had to.

"Winry-"

I didn't want to hear it. "I have to go study for a test in Calculus, bye Ed," I said walking away.

But then he was whispering in my ear. "Oh, that was canceled. Didn't I tell you?"

And with that he walked away as if he hadn't just thrown me on a rollercoaster. I only took a second to gather myself. "Ed you are such an ASS!"

"I want you to be my Maid of Honor!" Ella squealed.

I almost spit out my coke. "Excuse me," I said unbelievingly.

It had been a little over a week since Al had told me the grand old news, and now this too!

"Oh no, you don't want to, I'm sorry I asked. Really if you don't want to you don't have to. I don't mind. Me and Al just thought it would be good for our best two friends you and Ed to be the Maid of Honor and the Best Man. But I'm sure we could find someone-"

I knew I was gonna have to cut her off if I ever wanted to say anything again. Really sometimes Ella worried way too much. "Ella, it's not that. I was just surprised is all."

"So you'll do it," she asked smiling as me.

I had never seen her so happy in her life. How was I supposed to say no? And further more what excuse could I possibly give her for such an answer. 'I'm in love with your fiancé.' Yeah I'm sure that would go over really well.

"Of course I will be," I said smiling as if this wasn't painful in the least.

"Oh thank you so much Winry," she said tears starting to stream down her face. This always happened, the girl was just so emotionally happy all the time it seemed. "Sorry I'm just so-"

"Happy," I finished smiling at her. "Come over here and give me a hug Ella."

She didn't need to be told twice. As I hugged her hard as she thanked me over and over again, I couldn't help but realize, even if this wedding was going to break my heart, I was gonna make it the best damn wedding for Ella and Al's sake. After all, they deserved it the most of all the people I knew.

Ella pulled away. "Okay, we aren't planning on getting married for about a year just because it's hard to arrange these kinds of things very fast. Plus this way we can graduate before we have to worry about it at all, is that okay."

"Sounds perfect," I admitted just a tad sad but willing to push it to the back of my head for Ella's sake.

I knew I could deal. Or at least I hoped I could.

So originally this was supposed to all be a oneshot but then it was about 18000 words long so I decided to split it up into five chapters. (That's just the number it worked best to be split.)

This means that the entire fic is actually already written. Still, I probably will wait about a week between each post. So be on the lookout about this weekend for another post.

Also, if you are reading one of my other fics (FMHS, White Soul Alchemist, A Modern Day Fairytale) I'm sorry that I'm updating this before those other things. Trust me, this wasn't exactly planned. It just happened over the last week.

Hope you all enjoyed.

FFG