Written for SterekWeek2015's Day 4 prompt - Crayons. Sorry for posting a day late.
When Derek was little, a box of crayons only came in eight colors. Brown, Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue, Purple, Black. As he got older, packs got bigger and bigger, and suddenly there were rainbows within rainbows, but by then he had outgrown crayons.
Brown was the color of tree bark and see-saws and sometimes skin color. Brown was chocolate ice cream and the color of the hair on the little brat who broke the crayons when Derek was helping out at the daycare center for toddlers when he was ten. He remembered being really mad at that two-year-old, and only the supervisor convinced him to stop before he started shouting.
"Sometimes people break things without meaning to," she said. "He doesn't know any better. He's just a toddler. And even if he did break it on purpose, just look. He's still using it. Some people play with things differently than we do, but that doesn't make them wrong."
She promised to buy more crayons, and Derek was appeased. Although he disapproved of breaking crayons for no reason, he continued to watch after the brown haired toddler. Two days later, the little boy tripped and fell and started to work up a good cry, and the supervisor's consoling words did nothing to ease it. But Derek just brought him the new brown crayon and helped him break it in half, and his tears dissolved into giggles instantly. And that's when Derek realized, at ten years old, that people cope with life in very different ways.
Red was the color of apples and flowers and hastily drawn mouths. Red was the color of the hoodie of the kid who ran Derek over with his bike when Derek was thirteen. It was such a vibrant color, that it was all Derek could focus on, splayed out on the pavement as he was. He wanted to be mad, but maybe he had a concussion, because mostly he was just dazed.
The poor kid had a scraped knee, much worse than any wound Derek noticed on himself, but he was up and apologizing to Derek before the older kid could even sit up right. Red was the blood that started to show through the new rip on the kid's jeans, and red was his bike, and Derek must have had a concussion because that was all he could focus on, really.
Even though Derek had been the one bowled over, he took responsibility for patching the kid up, and once Derek was on his feet again, they walked the short driveway up to Derek's family home and found a bandage for the poor kid's knee.
As he walked the kid to the door to get his bike, Derek saw his mother pull up in the driveway, and suddenly the kid seemed nervous. He made Derek promise to apologize to his mom for him, for crashing into her son, and then he took off running with his bike, leaving Derek very confused.
As his mom came out and stood by him, both watching the red bike and hoodie far down the street, Derek thought the kid was very strange. But his mom recognized the boy immediately and said she thought it was good that Derek had played with him – and he didn't correct her assumption. That boy was lonely, his mom said. That boy lost his mother earlier that year.
And then Derek was standing alone in the yard again, torn between continuing his basketball practice and just lying in the grass. People dealt with loss, he thought, in interesting ways. He wanted to find that kid and let him know that just because he'd lost his mom didn't mean other moms would dislike him. But then what good would that do? That kid wasn't going to change just because Derek told him to.
Orange was the color of carrots and cool sneakers and cats and the accent to warm cocoa eyes that belonged to the poor 5th grader that had hopped up on a car and set off the alarm. The car wasn't Derek's, but it was his uncle's, and that was worse.
"I didn't even hurt it," the middle schooler insisted and offered to wipe the whole hood down to remove any kind of butt mark, but Derek's uncle Peter was even more angry at the offer.
Tired from school and already sick of his uncle's antics, Derek stepped between the kid and Peter. "Just let it go, Uncle Peter. I have homework to do. Take me home."
But Peter refused. He was determined to stay around until the stupid brat's parents showed up to pick him up from school so he could give them a piece of his mind. The kid didn't even look ashamed of what had happened. Mostly he just looked annoyed now, and the sun really highlighted the colors in his young eyes.
"Sorry. Hey, I'm Derek. My uncle is an idiot. I promise you did nothing wrong," he said, offering his hand to shake.
The kid took it and shook it firmly. "Well yeah, I know that. But now my dad is gonna like ground me or something. And I'm supposed to be hanging out with Scott tonight."
And Derek missed the days when missing a hang out time was the worst punishment his parents could give him, the most stressful thing he could think of. No, now he was thinking of graduation, about college, about a job, a career. And he had homework for calculus in his backpack. But for a moment he just took a seat on the sidewalk by the put-out ten-year-old and nudged him in the shoulder.
"Come on. I think Scott will forgive you," he said. "Besides, I bet your dad doesn't even ground you."
"My dad grounds for everything… I just usually don't listen," the kid admitted. Then he smiled. "And maybe Scott can come to my house instead."
"That's the spirit," Derek agreed just as a police cruiser pulled up to the pick-up area.
"Oh, hey mister!" the kid called to Peter. "My dad's here."
Maybe Peter had planned to scold the kid's parents, but scold a police officer? Peter jerked up at attention and snapped at Derek, ordering him into the car. No, forget about the stupid kid, just get in the car. So Derek waved goodbye to the now confused but also triumphant 5th grader and got into his uncle's Toyota.
As they drove away, Derek wondered how that meeting would get blown up by a ten-year-old's mind when he told his friends. And he wondered what part he would get dealt. He also wondered about those creamy looking eyes and hoped he saw some like that again, because they were really beautiful eyes… But that just made him feel awkward, because those were the eyes of a child.
Yellow was the sun and the stars and a sunflower and a taxi. Yellow was the shirt that Derek covered in coffee when he ran into someone at the mall – the shirt that wasn't his. He'd been in a hurry to meet his girlfriend and was bringing her coffee, and really the high school kid was just in the wrong place at the wrong time, but now his yellow shirt was not so yellow, and okay, yeah, Derek felt bad about that.
"Dude!" the kid exclaimed as soon as he'd gotten over the shock of being wet and probably a little burnt. "Seriously?"
"I'm sorry. I-," but what could he say? It was an accident? I didn't see you there? I was in a hurry? He could already hear the sarcastic 'No, really?' he'd undoubtedly receive as a reply.
"Hang on. Are you Cora's brother?" the teen asked, shaking out his shirt by pulling it away from his chest.
"Yeah. Do you know her?" Derek asked. His sister was a junior, so maybe they went to school together? That could be good or bad.
"I know she's a firecracker. And I also know she'll probably kill you if I tell her about this," the teen said, and he was probably right. Embarrassing Cora at school was like a death sentence.
After that statement it was pretty much a given that Derek had to make amends, so despite Derek being late, they walked into the nearest department store to find the yellow-shirted male a new shirt. It should have been an easy in-and-out exchange, but they disagreed on which shirts looked nice and which were overpriced.
They spent two hours in the store, trying on shirts to prove each other wrong, and by the end, Derek had two shirts for himself along with the one for the teen, when they checked out. No longer in yellow, which was honestly a blessing as far as Derek was concerned, the teen departed on a cheerful note, and Derek walked calmly back to his own car.
Only once he was there did his check his phone and find twelve texts from his girlfriend asking where he was and, well shit. The last three were a definitive essay on how the relationship was over if he couldn't spend his time with her, and how she hoped he liked his new side girl.
Not that Derek had a side girl. He didn't have a side boy either. It was just some kid he met at the mall… although it had probably been the most fun he'd had at a mall in years. And it was then that Derek realized something that should have been obvious much sooner. He'd just spent an amusing and fun two hours at a mall with some guy… and he didn't even know the guy's name.
Green was grass and trees and the Hulk and the color of the shoes of the guy sleeping in the hospital chairs. His head was bent at an odd angle off the end of the row and his shoes were in the farthest chair down from that, and Derek just wanted to sit down.
But they were nice shoes, at least. There was no dirt caked on the bottom, no horrible wear in the tread, and the white of the soles was so clean that they might have been brand new. In sharpie marker on the side of each shoe was a sharp S.S. Derek was still staring at the letters, intently wondering why feet needed their own chair, when a nurse stopped beside him and smiled.
"Oh, don't worry. You can just push him out of the way. He won't mind," she said. When Derek didn't look convinced, she scoffed but smiled at the same time and walked over to the chairs.
Without ceremony, she shoved the green shoes out of the chair, and the young man's whole body moved with the force of it. He jerked awake and grabbed the arms of the chair that he ended up in, looking wildly around for which jerk had woken him.
"Ms. McCall," he said with astonishment when he took full notice of the nurse. "Come on."
"Don't 'Ms. McCall' me, young man. You were taking up all the seats, and some people need to sit down," she said and motioned with a nod of her head toward Derek. Then she turned and strolled away down the hall.
The young man shifted as though he could make more room for Derek, although he'd already vacated three seats by sitting up. "Oh, dude. I'm sorry. You should have just kicked me."
Frowning at the suggestion, Derek turned and took a seat in the one that had been home to the shoes. He didn't speak and the other guy didn't start up a discussion either, and it wasn't so much awkward as it was mildly uncomfortable. Sure there was the sound of nurses milling about and wheels on tile in the distance, but in general it was quiet.
After another minute, the other guy couldn't take it. He'd been drumming his hands on the arms of the chairs but it wasn't enough. He turned to Derek and asked, "So who are you here to see?"
"My sister," Derek said.
"Oh man. Is it serious? I hope she's okay." And he sounded sincere, so Derek accepted the common term of condolence.
"She broke her arm at school today. They're doing x-rays and giving her a cast. She'll be fine. I just couldn't stand in there anymore," Derek explained. Or maybe the explanation left something to be desired. Either way, he was done.
There was a comment of "Oh, good." And then they were back in silence. Silence for a blissful thirty seconds before the guy came out with a very curious, "So your Cora's brother?"
Now he had Derek's full attention. Before he was partly wondering how he could scold Cora for being so stupid and reckless in her last year of high school, or maybe how he could use it for teasing material later, whichever presented as the better long-term option, but now his mind was just on the strange guy sleeping in the hospital chairs.
"Sorry. Didn't mean to sound like a creeper. But that's who I'm here to see too. I didn't sleep well last night, so I guess I passed out on the chairs, but yeah, I'm here to see Cora. We went to school together until I graduated last year," the guy said. Then he grinned. "Now I'm in college, which is like way harder than high school in terms of school work… at least most of the time. But I came back to watch the game tonight and man, Cora was killing it! You know, until she broke her arm."
Well at least he seemed like a nice creeper.
"I'm Derek," Derek said and offered his hand.
The young man took it and looked like he wanted to laugh. "Yeah, I know. I mean, I thought I knew, but I just had to double check. We've actually met before." At Derek's curious frown, he did laugh. "You dumped coffee on me at the mall like a year ago. We had a good time finding me a replacement."
The yellow shirt kid! No wonder the guy had looked so familiar. And how odd was it that a year ago Derek had thought 'kid' and now he thought 'guy'. It was only one year! Really, he should have recognized him as soon as he'd opened his eyes. They were beautiful eyes, with just a hint of…
The mall wasn't the first time they'd met, was it? Derek tried not to frown too hard as he attempted to remember if he'd ever seen those eyes before the mall trip a year ago. No distinct memory formed, but he was sure he'd seen eyes like them before, if not those eyes specifically.
"Did we not have a good time?" the guy asked in response to Derek's deepening frown. "Or do you not remember?"
Derek's mind jerked back to the present and he shook his head. "Sorry. I was just thinking. Of course I remember. It was… fun, actually. Sorry again for that."
"No problem. I was kind of over that shirt anyway. Yellow's not really my color." Then he laughed. "Which I'm pretty sure I started saying after you told me that day at the mall."
He looked good when he smiled. Better when he laughed. And Derek found himself admiring his teeth and his eyes and the moles on his cheek, and then he scolded himself for considering flirting with someone in the waiting room of a hospital, especially someone so much younger than him. Eight years, give or take.
A moment later, the young man noticed a baseball game on the waiting room television and then they were discussing their favorite teams – they both liked the Mets, although Derek was far less passionate about the sport. And then they spiraled out into other sports, and then movies about sports, and then just their favorite movies, and then Cora was there, tapping her foot and glaring at her brother for making her wait to go home.
Derek apologized for bothering the young man, who reminded Derek he'd been there to see Cora too, but Cora claimed she'd barely ever spoken two words to the other teen so she didn't know why he'd come to see her. Derek was curious for a moment too, but then he turned on his new friend.
"You knew we were related," he said.
"Okay, okay. You caught me." The other male flailed a little but did not look ashamed. "I was sort of hoping to bump into you again and this seemed like a good bet."
"WOW there are so many better ways of flirting," Cora said and rolled her eyes. "God, just exchange phone numbers and position preferences and let's get out of here already."
They assumed she was joking about the position preferences, but they did exchange numbers. Derek gave his number first and got a text in order to save the other's number, and that's when he realized –
"Hey, what's your name anyway?" Derek asked, embarrassed for now having spent over three hours entertained by the other male and not knowing the answer.
But the young man did not look offended. He grinned broadly. "Stiles," he said. "Stilinski."
And that was how Derek Hale got his first date in a year.
Blue was the sky and water, the ocean, and little bug cars, and the color of the salvia flowers in Stiles' hand when he showed up at Derek's loft a week later. The flower meant 'Thinking of You', but Derek didn't know if Stiles was aware of that or just thought they were simple enough to not be seen as too strange or embarrassing to bring on a first date.
They planned to go to a movie first, but had quickly realized there was no movie in theaters that either of them wanted to see, plus Stiles said a movie date was too basic and cliché. So Stiles came to Derek's loft, and they played Call of Duty and Halo and passed out on the couch together, and when they woke up the next morning, Stiles was so embarrassed that he tripped over the table and fell backwards onto the hardwood, and then they had to go to the hospital because he'd sprained his wrist.
"God, I'm sorry," he said as the nurse was wrapping his wrist. "This is a shitty end to a first date."
"Well technically," the nurse said with a smile, "a date isn't over until you part ways. So this date is still going."
Stiles looked impressed and then glanced at Derek, who said, "Well she's right."
And that was how they ended up leaving the hospital and going to Arbys for an early lunch. With his wrist bound, Stiles ended up dropping half his sandwich out the other side of it but together they managed to push it all back together and then Derek started feeding him curly fries and they laughed a lot. When Derek drove Stiles home in the other's blue Jeep, he wondered if blue was Stiles' favorite color. He walked Stiles to the door and Stiles apologized for Derek having to walk home, but Derek liked walking, plus he could always call his sister or take a bus.
They kissed softly, neither wanting to rush it and mess it up the first time. But then Stiles grabbed hold of Derek with his good hand and kissed him harder.
"Dude, I have been waiting to do that for so long. You have no idea," he rushed out after.
When Stiles went inside, Derek walked backwards to the street so he could watch the door as long as possible. Then he slipped his hands in his pockets and walked the whole way home, because it felt nice out and he felt nice inside. He'd never felt that way after his first date or first kiss with anyone else.
Purple was violets and grapes and Barney the dinosaur and the color that was taking over Stiles' face when he collapsed outside of Derek's door when he was twenty and supposed to be graduating from college the next morning.
Derek found him when he came to investigate the sound of something hitting his door. He brought him inside and laid him in the bed and gently started to remove the jacket he was wearing. Stiles winced but tried to help Derek when it came time to take the shirt off. His chest was the same brilliant shade of bruising as his face, possibly worse, and Derek glared at the color.
"What happened?" he demanded. "Who did this?"
"I didn't know them," Stiles grunted and then tensed as speaking hurt the bruise on his face. When the pain eased, he said, "They came at me when I left the store."
"They mugged you? They did this much damage for some milk and eggs?" Derek didn't buy it. He left to grab some ice packs, some pain medication, and a glass of water. When he came back, he got Stiles to take the medicine before he gently pressed him into the mattress, keeping his head high on the pillow, and set the ice packs on the bruising. "Why you?"
"Because I'm gay," Stiles grunted, and now he was glaring at the wall behind Derek. "They said so. I tried to… but there were too many of them."
Derek shushed him softly and gently massaged around the bruising, avoiding areas that seemed to cause Stiles more pain. It meant a lot to Derek that Stiles had come to him after the beating, even if he should have gone to the hospital. They hadn't seen each other in over a month – Stiles was too busy with school and Derek too busy with work. And even before that, their relationship was mostly text messages and Skype calls. To finally see Stiles in person but beaten by homophobic jerks… it was not the reunion he'd been hoping for.
They laid in bed together, Stiles wincing whenever he tried to breathe too deeply and Derek shifting the ice packs every twenty minutes so he wouldn't damage Stiles more. Stiles asked Derek to distract him from the fact that he was going to be purple and sore when he walked in the morning, so Derek pretended they were having one of their long Skype calls and told Stiles about his stupid coworkers and the clients they helped. He told him about a new video game coming out, Detroit, and how much he was looking forward to it and why, and partway through that he found Stiles had fallen asleep, his head leaning heavily on Derek's shoulder.
There was no reason Derek wanted to get up at that point, except maybe to brush his teeth, but he could skip that in lieu of Stiles' comfort. And it was nice, just lying beside each other. But he still wanted to find the bastards who'd purpled Stiles' fair skin and break their fingers.
In the morning, Derek woke Stiles up to get ready for graduation. He drove Stiles home and Laura Hale was there to meet them, surprising Stiles. But he quickly understood. Laura Hale was a make-up artist. The purple was actually worse than the night before, but that could be the brightness of the day making it stand out more. Stiles insisted the ice packs had helped and the bruising didn't hurt as much, but Derek doubted the sincerity of the words. Stiles was known for hiding pain.
With his sister's help, Derek got Stiles dressed and presentable to walk, and the only proof of the bruising on his face was a slight swelling, but keeping his head elevated all night had decreased that too. He looked almost normal.
"Damn, I knew coming to you was the right move," Stiles said, examining himself in the mirror. "I love you so much right now, you have no idea."
"Well it's about time one of you said it," Laura said with a slight groan and finished putting up her cleaned brushes.
Both men blushed and glanced at each other, but neither commented on it. Two years they'd been together and they hadn't seriously said 'I love you' even once. They'd agreed very early on that those words were said too often by people who didn't really know what they wanted, who didn't really love the people they were talking about, and they wanted to make sure their relationship was going to last before saying something so serious and yet overused.
Stiles took Derek's hand in his as they walked to the car and squeezed. "No, but seriously," he said softly so Laura wouldn't hear. "You're the literal best. And I wasn't joking. I love you."
Derek squeezed his hand in return and then carefully kissed him as Laura got in the car. "I love you too," he said. "Now you have to go kill it at graduation."
And when Stiles walked across the stage, Derek was extremely proud – even with Laura reminding him it was only an Associates and not a Bachelors Degree. He just pushed her over in her chair and then continued to clap for his boyfriend.
Black was the color of the night sky and the asphalt roads of town and the bed frame that Stiles brought when they moved in together. Derek helped him move in to the loft, angling the mattress through the hallways and doorways until it made it into Derek's spare bedroom. Before then, the spare room had been mostly empty, but now it was a viable space for visitors.
Visitors only because obviously Stiles would not be using it.
Except he did. The first night at least. Because they hadn't even put the sheets on the mattress before the sight of it within Derek's walls had them finally rolling in the… non-existent sheets. How they'd held off for three years was amazing, honestly. But they'd said the 'I love you's, decided they were serious, moved in together, and now they had consummated the relationship too.
They fell asleep on the unmade bed, enjoying each other's physical closeness, and when they woke up, they finished unpacking Stiles' things. In one box, labeled 'keepsakes', Derek found photos of the Stilinski family, some notable school awards, and Stiles' diploma from a year ago. He also found a box of crayons. An eight color set.
Odd. But the weirdest part was that the brown crayon was broken. Derek had a flashback to a crying two-year-old and couldn't help but ask.
"Stiles," he said, carrying the box of crayons into the kitchen, where Stiles was sliding a lasagna into the oven to cook while they worked. "Why do you have crayons in your keepsake box? And why is the brown one broken?"
"Oh that. Yeah," Stiles began absently, setting the timer on the oven. "When I was an itty bitty toddler, I liked to break things. My mother used to say it made me feel strong because at school, even at two, a lot of kids avoided me and didn't want to make friends. I remember she told me my teacher once tried to pair me with this other kid and he just shoved me down and ran off." He paused there to laugh as though it was a funny subject.
"And the crayons?" Derek asked, his suspicion becoming more certain.
"Right. So in daycare, there was this older kid. And one day he got mad at me for like destroying an entire box of crayons, right? I was upset. I was crying. And then, to make me feel better, this kid just like… broke a brown crayon right in front of me. I thought it was funny at the time. Now, when I think back, I think little kid me took it as a sign that he forgave me and was telling me it was okay to break things from time to time." Stiles paused, eyes on the ceiling as he thought. "Come to think of it, I think I stopped breaking things after that. At least on purpose. I keep a set like the one I broke to remind myself that sometimes it's okay to break on your own or to break things."
Derek set the crayons down and crossed the kitchen to kiss his boyfriend, thoroughly. As soon as they parted, Stiles grinned stupidly at him.
"What was that for? It's just crayons," he said.
"I broke the brown crayon," Derek said, voice deep.
"What?"
"When I was ten, I broke the brown crayon to make some stupid toddler stop crying," Derek explained.
Realization dawned quickly on Stiles' face and then they kissed again. The world was small or fate was strange, but Derek thought he met Stiles when the younger was a junior in high school, and shortly after dating had discovered he'd met him sooner than even that, but now they knew they'd been bumping into each other since Stiles was only two.
It all started with a broken box of crayons two decades before, and here they were – together. Derek literally couldn't think of anything more perfect or telling than that.