Hello everyone this is me grim-neji64 bringing you my first fic its based on my life so my friends are under alias' and they know which ones they are. Oh and in this fic neji and Hinata are NOT related and neither are Sasuke or Itachi but that might change.

Rated M for a reason yaoi(boyxboy), smut in future chapters, angst later on, and other items along with it. Enjoy! Ja ne!

Note: I am writing this fic for myself so it doesn't matter whether you want to leave a review or not I will continue writing.

Fourteen years he endured it fourteen out of his sixteen years of being alone, teased, ostracized, and being beaten down among other things. Personally, he was glad he was going to high school finally and far from his home as well where he can start over and hopefully make new friends. He also wanted something he wanted since sixth grade but he didn't know until the summer of his junior year. He honestly didn't want to fall in love again not after what had happened when his class found out he liked Matsuri and all of her friends teased him for it. No, he didn't want it he just wanted to make his sister Temari and his brother Kankuro proud of him for his hard work yet no matter what they always had something critical to say whether it was is appearance or his grades. To be honest he was sick of it, of the criticisms and of the whispers he heard.

It was mid-August the dog days of summer and thank god that Gaara was in the house with the A/C on full blast he honestly couldn't stand hot weather it made him irritable. He was thinking back on this school year and how it was finally over when his mind kept flickering to a certain person that waved to him as he went home on a nice, sunny May day. He couldn't get his mind off of the smile, every time he thought of his smile Gaara couldn't help but smile. Nejis smile was so nice and so sexy he couldn't keep his mind off of him the image just filled him with joy and made Gaara feel so safe as if nothing could go wrong. A couple of days after the thought popped into his mind he was in shock, "I… I'm… gay…"

Well it certainly explained why when girls tried to flirt with him he would turn them down in a second. But it raised two more pressuring questions, "Does he feel the same way to me? How will I tell my siblings that I like guys?"

Yes those were very pressuring questions that invaded him the rest of the summer and that wouldn't leave him alone at all. The next couple of weeks were a blur to him as he got ready to go back for his most important year in high school his junior year. He arrived there an hour early so he wandered around the park across the street for a bit. He went back to the school after twenty minutes and waited. It wasn't long before he saw his close friend Ten-Ten get out of her father's car and walk down to the school steps. When she got closer they both wave at each other and talked about their summers. Soon after he saw her boyfriend Lee and he kissed Ten-Ten. It wasn't long before he saw another close friend of his Hinata walking with Shikamaru and he noticed that the both of them were blushing hard. He decided to let them tell what was going on and it wasn't long before he saw Kiba his other gay friend walk to him.

He asked Lee and Shikamaru if he could talk to their friends and they said sure. They walked to the park and he told them that he was gay. They all at first said ''WHAT?'' but they accepted it after all the girls were bisexual and Kiba was gay. He asked Kiba to stay behind a bit and he told Kiba how he found out. The ironic thing was that Kiba knew ever since Gaara first walked in the school that he was gay. This came as a surprise to Gaara because at that time he liked Hinata but was too scared of her now current ex-boyfriend. But now things had changed and many things were different in the space of two years. Gaara had grown both inside and outside and so had everyone else some more so than others. He wanted to tell Neji right away but he was scared to so after he had gotten home he went on to MyFace and sent him a message telling him he was gay and he wanted to talk to him. Neji soon sent a message back a day later and they arranged the date. Neji said don't ditch and Gaara said I will not.

It wasn't long before Friday the 18th came. The time that Gaara had waited left him really nervous since he didn't know how to put the words in correctly. Then it wasn't long before they came out at 2:15. Gaara went by the swings yet he didn't see Neji. He heard his name and Gaara turned around and saw Neji and Gaara blushed with embarrassment not because he was facing the wrong way but because he had two of his friends with him. It also turns out that they were also waiting for their friend to get out as well. When the friend came Gaara recognized her as a girl from his grade and said hi. It wasn't long before Gaara asked the girls to give him a minute alone with Neji and Neji agreed. The girls went off in a direction and left the two of them alone. After a short ten seconds of uncomfortable silence, Gaara finally stammered out, "N-Ne-Neji there's s-something I-I have t-to t-te-tell you. I…I really l-like you a lot a-and I was w-wo-wondering if y-you like m-me the s-sa-same way."

At first Neji was stunned that Gaara the silent broody and possibly psycho kid was first gay and second had a crush on him. After a short moment Neji said, "Gaara, even though we are friends I don't like you the same way and I don't think it will work out so let's just stay friends. Besides, I already have a boyfriend and I don't want to ruin it between me and him."

Even though Gaara was listening he heard something different the only part he heard was the fact that Neji already had a boyfriend. When Gaara heard that part his heart sank "So, he already has a boyfriend… how much longer will I be cursed like this?"

Neji then invited Gaara to join his friends and Gaara agreed not because he wanted to be with him a bit longer but because he was lost in his melancholy thoughts and he wanted to take his time going home today so he can fix his face to mask his sadness and disappointment. They all walked to the library and met Nejis boyfriend who Gaara thought he's nice. He went home alone with his heart full of disappointment and sadness though he didn't show it to Temari or Kankuro.

Wow, sad prologue huh? Poor Gaara already has to deal with so much in the love department and the years just starting :(. I hope that it gets better soon.

Reminder: I am writing this fic for myself so if you want to review then go ahead if not your decision and I need a beta reader so I will ask for a couple (just in case one isn't available when I need them) just PM me and yea

Until another day,

Grim-neji64