I love it when I don't have anything to do, cause then I start to write out of boredom and this happens lol

Inspired on cold-crescent-moon's fanfiction "Fragile" (which is totally awesome I suggest you read it ) which is also GerxJap

I write a lot of blablablabla if you know what I mean :/ but apparently not enough, since I could write endless sentences and it still looks small for a chapter XD

And as always, I do not own Hetalia or it's characters... sadly...

The small japanese boy sat silently reading his manga at the library, occasionally looking at the door as if waiting for someone. Even though it was a library and it was always supposed to be this quiet... it still surprised him, for the WW Academy was always such a ruckus.

"Kikuu~~!", said a brunette boy otherwise known as Feliciano. He dragged along a tall blonde man with blue eyes. "Sorry we took so long, Ludwig took me out for some gelato!~", he said while hugging the man, Ludwig.

"That's alright", Kiku forced a smile, putting away his manga.

The couple sat down on the chairs in front, Feliciano still not letting go of his lover's arm. As Kiku watched, dying of envy inside. For a long time he had been feeling things towards Ludwig... things he wished he could express. Feliciano was better for Ludwig... they had known each other longer, and Kiku was very much aware on how much the italian loved the german in front of him, he could never come between such thing.

If Ludwig is happy then I'm happy... Kiku would think to himself watching the lovers, even though it hurt him so much inside. Feliciano would often whisper sweet things to Ludwig, and kiss his cheek from time to time, always with a smile. Kiku knew he could never be like that... his shyness would not allow him, however it just came so naturally to Feliciano, maybe that was one of the many reasons that Ludwig was better off with the italian.

After an evening of tutoring, and awkward silences from Kiku's part, he stood up and bowed his head slightly.

"I will see you both tomorrow", he said softly, and made his way out of the library.

Always so automatic... that's how he sounded whenever he spoke, so monotone. It's no wonder everyone liked Feliciano much more. Kiku had even been so careful to not even look at Ludwig in the eyes... that action may have given the thought of Kiku being cold towards people, but that wasn't the case, he was afraid of turning red within an instant of gazing upon those blue eyes. It was very rare to see any expression from him, but whenever Ludwig was close he felt different, even more bashful than he already was, and that shell of calmness around him would just brake down, making him ever so nervous... but of course he couldn't let that show.

"No... ", he said to himself, making a sudden stop. "I have to stop thinking about him. "He shook his head, shutting his eyes tightly.

At that moment he felt a hand touch his shoulder, he jumped in surprised letting out a small squeak.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you", said Alfred, class president.

Kiku turned his head looking at the american. "D-Don't worry about it... "

"Are you alright? You seemed a bit... weird."

"I'm fine", Kiku replied ever so monotone once he got his composure back together.

"Oh... ok..". Alfred fidgeted and looked down, Kiku clearly noticed there was something wrong with Alfred.

"Are you alright?", he asked the blushed american.

"Well... there was... something I wanted to ask you... ", he kept fidgeting.

Kiku tilted his head to the side. "Yes?"

"Um...", he continued. "W-Would you... g-go out with me?"

Kiku's brown eyes shot wide open, he couldn't help it. Alfred just stood awkwardly wanting to magically disappear if only. His gaze fixed on the floor, not wanting to make eye contact with Kiku.

"This is my chance... to forget about him", Kiku mumbled to himself.

"Hm? What was that?", Alfred looked up instinctively.

Kiku just nodded.

"Huh? Does this mean...?", said the surprised american.

"Yes Alfred... I would like to go out with you."

A smile plastered across Alfred's face, he didn't care, right now he was the happiest man on earth.

"Alright! Tomorrow around his hour, meet me in the school backyard!", he said waving as he walked away with a huge smile.

Kiku shyly waved, smiling faintly and returned to walking towards his dorm.

It's not that Kiku was using Alfred to forget about Ludwig... he liked Alfred, in fact, if Ludwig had never existed he may had those feelings towards Alfred instead. But it was quite hard to forget about Ludwig when this other blonde haired, blue eyed student had asked him out, and he had said yes to top it off. But... he had to think about his own happiness... Ludwig was living his life with Feliciano, he couldn't just let that stop him from ever being happy... besides, If Ludwig is happy then I'm happy.

Probably second chapter coming soon.. idk... depends on how bored I am. I also have to update my other fic e-e;;

If there are any mistakes feel free to correct me.