Caspian touched me today.
Not just held my hand or caressed my face, mind you. He…felt my breast. We became heated while kissing, and it just kind of happened. Though, it might not have occured had it not been for what he said to me.
As he kissed my mouth, then down my neck, I felt his hands travel to my undergarments.
Then he asked.
"Do you want me to?" He didn't ask, "Can I?". He asked what I wanted. He cared about what I wanted. Possibly what I needed. I thought about it for a second. How it would feel to have his hands on me in that way. Sliding his fingers across my chest. My nipples. I blushed at the thought. I closed my eyes, and slid my arms around his neck.
"Yes. I want you to."
I felt him smile beneath my lips. "What's so funny?"
"You just made a logical decision about something emotional."
"Not this time. It feels…..right."
"You're learning, huh?" He inquired, as his quick fingers unlaced my stays.
My breath quickened as I felt his fingers brush across my breasts. "You could say that."
He sobered for a moment. "Susan, are you sure?"
I closed my eyes again. "Yes. I'm quite sure." I felt his hands slide back onto my breasts, almost tentatively at first. He began to kiss me again, slowly moving down my neck. I twitched at a sudden extra sensation. He was kissing my breasts! I blushed at the feeling of teeth at my nipples. It was like nothing I've ever felt before. I was embarrassed about the sounds he was making me emit.
He opened his eyes. "What is the matter?"
"I'm embarrassed."
"Why? About what I'm doing? I can stop if you want."
"No…I'm embarrassed for what you make me feel."
He stopped. "Never be ashamed of your feelings. You make me feel the same way."
"And what way is that?"
"I feel…love for you. All the time. Everything in the world reminds me of you, Susan. Why do you think I wanted you to stay?"
"I don't know…companionship?"
He laughed, a rich, happy sound. "Yes, but not in the way you were thinking of, I'm sure."
"We've crossed a line now. Haven't we?" I said.
"Yes, I think so." He conceded.
"So where does this leave us?"
"Wherever you want," he replied, as he began to touch me again.
This time, however, I wasn't embarrassed.