A/N: I own nothing. Except Annika. There is no William here. This is a A/U… I know they are going to be apart for a little while but its Mulder & Scully… Its not going to last – they are going to be together before the end.
In The Dead Of Winter
Prologue: A Journal Entry
December 16, 2008 – Dana Scully's Journal
I sit here writing this journal as a form of therepy I believe. I wrie this to you Mulder knowing you will never see it. If you do happen to one day- for I believe this child will find you, just remember I don't truly blame you. The snow is falling silently to the ground & its cold – as cold as my empty heart. IT – the cancer came back, Mulder. This time there is no cure. I wont even try. I know where the truth lies & no matter how much I forgive you & Skinner – I cant go back there. I know I have robbed us all of the chance to heal together – I am truly sorry. I guess I don't even know why I am scared. Am I scared that this cold dark winter will get worse or am I more afraid of the light?
Dana who for the past 3 years has become Deanna Sutherland stops typing long enough to check on the sleeping child in her room. The 2 year old had mouned in her sleep. The red headed child barely spoke and when she did it was 1 or 2 words at a time. As a Doctor – at least in a past life – she silently mused, she knew she should be worried. As a mother she felt no connection – she couldn't. "Annika Faith, I know I fail you- but your going to have to find the truth on your own." She whispered to the sleeping girl. As if to answer her mother she mumbled "Trust." In her sleep. Wordlessly with a knock on the door she answered it. Marrisa walks in & places her things down. "things are quiet – have a good night, my child. I'll take good care of her." With a half hearted smile, Scully goes to the front desk to begin the night shift at Missy's Hotel.