My almost black eyes burned with tears that would never fall. It's like the vision was stuck on repeat, taunting me, not letting me forget what could have happened that day. I hardly talked to anyone since we had returned home. I shopped mostly, played with Renesmee, anything to keep my mind from it.

I couldn't even look at my family without thinking about it! I couldn't get away from it. I had blocked my mind from Edward around the house but I knew it was pointless with Jasper. I was broke away from my thoughts when I heard Renesmee running up the stairs and coming into the room.

"Aunt Alice?" her voice rang confused seeing me laying in the bed, on my back, staring at the ceiling. "Yes?" I answered, sitting up. She came to me usually if Jacob was busy. She sat on the edge of the bed without the usual smile on her face. "Aunt Alice, why are you mad at everybody?" she asked innocently, "Mad? I'm not mad, who said that?" I asked, Did everyone think I was mad at them? "Uncle Jasper says you ignore him and Daddy thinks you want to leave us, you won't leave us will you Aunt Alice?" she pleaded in a quiet mouse-like voice. Jasper thinks I don't want him anymore? My family is convinced I don't want to see them again? I felt a pang of guilt hit me hard, it's all my fault.

I picked Nessie up and sat her in my lap, "No, I'll never leave you guys, ever" I told her, she turned to me with a serious look on her face, "Promise?" she asked, "I promise." I picked her up and hugged her. I love Nessie, I don't know what I would do without her, she always made me smile and always made me feel better, just like Jasper.

"Cross your heart" she commanded, I quickly did as I was told, she grinned and hopped off the bed. "Good I gotta go tell everyone you're not leaving" 'Oh crap' I thought, "No!" I yelled accidentally, "I mean no, I'll do that" she gave me a weird look, "Okay, can I tell Jake though?" she loved Jake just a little too much for an 8-year-old capacity. "Sure" I said, "Okay" she said quickly skipping back down stairs, when a vision hit me.

Jasper was going to leave.

I panicked and quickly rushing downstairs almost right into Rosalie, "Where's Jasper?" I asked gripping her shoulders.

"Uh, hunting he said" she told me, I didn't give any explanation I just ran.

I have to apologize. To Everyone.

The question was: How?