A/N: Hey y'all, since my other two stories have reached the last chapter, I needed to start something new. I'm still working on TSVS and House of Secrets so don't worry. This story is a little upside down but I hope you like it. ENJOY
all reviews are welcomed, that way I can tell if I should continue or not.
The mornings of the twenty-two year old Sebastian always start the same. If he wasn't woken up by the sound of the two teenagers fighting over the bathroom than he'll know something's wrong. At the beginning he tried to sort it out and have them talk, he even made a schedule. But after a while it kind of got old since nothing worked, and it became his personal alarm. It's better than a real alarm because he always gets used to the tone and doesn't wake up. But this fight never gets old because there are always new swear words being exchanged and a lot of banging. He can't go wrong with banging.
"Alois get your butt out of there, now! I can't get ready in twenty minutes!" It was the yelling of the fifteen year old Ciel. He was facing away from Sebastian's door and his own. He was short compare to the college student but very stubborn, to even things out. It's very hard for him to be anything less than serious and Sebastian came to live with that. Because in the other hand he was very shy. A quality that is rarely found anywhere.
Sebastian walked to the bathroom door and stood beside the boy. Ciel noticed him and looked less angry. He was about to open his mouth and say good morning but was interrupted with the bathroom door opening in his face. A blonde, a little taller than Ciel, walked out in front of the two males and sighed as he closed the door behind him. He turned to Ciel "Banging doesn't help much...it only annoys the shit out of Sebastian." He smiled playfully and looked to the older male "Morning."
Sebastian walked past the two teenagers and opened the bathroom door "Sorry Ciel, but I have an early class." He closed the door before the boy with the sapphires can say a word, leaving him with the same angry expression. "I'm going to be late!" He exclaimed. He turned to the blonde "Alois! This is all your fault. You're like a girl in the shower! Do you really need that much time?" He wasn't looking for an answer.
Alois smiled and wrapped his arms around the short boy's shoulders "Yes...I do." He answered and pushed himself off "If you want to shower than wake up early." He suggested as he walked to his room next to the bathroom. Ciel did try waking up early few times but he always finds Alois in the bathroom. If he wanted to shower before Alois than he can try waking up at five in the morning.
The water was heard running again and the boy sighed, he knew he was going to be late for sure and he would go without shower except for the fact that he had to release himself last night and Sebastian helped. He needed this shower. Ciel knocked the bathroom door again "At least let me get my toothbrush." He kept his tone blank so he doesn't end up yelling at Sebastian as well.
After a minute the bathroom door opened slightly and Sebastian's head peaked out, his hair was wet and there was some soap on his neck. "Why don't you just take a shower with me?" He asked with a smirk, his scarlets gazing at the boy. There was nothing wrong with his suggestion but it was the way he asked that made it sound more dirty than it is.
Ciel took a step back and tried his best not to blush "I rather not shower at all." He huffed and walked away to the kitchen. Since he didn't have an excuse for saying no, he did the usual and ran. The more distance there was between them, the less nervous he'll feel. The older male faked a frown "So mean." He said in louder voice as he closed the door again.
When everyone finished their breakfast after showering, they all scattered to their rooms to get their bags an jacket. Sebastian was the first to the leave the table and walk to the couch in the living room where his bag was. Then he headed to his room to get his jacket. Ciel watched him as he rushed to place his plate in the sink and ran to his bedroom to get his things as well. He started wearing his jacket "Can you drive me today?" He asked while walking out of his room.
Sebastian was already standing by the door and ready "Alois can drive you. I'm late." He said as he gave Alois a look to see if he was fine with it. He fixed his collar and pulled out his gloves from his pocket.
The seventeen year old blonde nodded "Ya..." He looked at Ciel "I always drive you." He sated with a little confusion. He wrapped his purple scarf around his neck and waited with widened eyes to encourage the boy.
"But he's going to the library first to borrow a book that he was supposed to read a week ago. I'll be late if I go with him." He was looking straight at the college student and ignoring the blonde. Ciel rushed in wearing his scarf and gloves while walking to the door.
Alois picked up his bag from the floor and wore it over his shoulder "It's alright to be late every once and a while. You're record is too spotless." He waited by the table, converting his looks from Sebastian to Ciel.
Ciel walked towards the front door faster "So I'm taking advise from the guy who has to be late at least once a week. No thank you." He stood in front of Sebastian with a soft expression "Please." His hands met and his fingers tangled together in a praying manner.
Sebastian sighed "I'm sorry, kitten." He leaned down and gave the boy a kiss on the cheek before running off the door with his bag on his shoulder.
Alois walked behind the boy slowly and smiled "Little kitty is stuck with me." He teased and held the younger by his waist from behind. His hands trapping him and his chest pressed against the small back of the younger teenager "It's alright. He didn't forget your birthday." He stated in a soft voice, his chin rating on Ciel's shoulder.
Ciel looked away "I didn't say that." He placed his hands over the ones wrapping around his waist to let the blonde know that he needed to go. He was never comfortable with Alois touching him so intimately, not unless there were all being intimate. The blonde made it a habit and Ciel found himself unable to address the issue since it will only make it awkward. Be saved himself the embarrassment by just being uncomfortable enough to send vibes that tell Alois to back off. They don't always work but it's all he's willing to do.
"But you're thinking it. Isn't that why you wanted to ride with him?" It was silent for a minute which made Alois feel a little bad for saying it so bluntly. He didn't need to point out the obvious, especially regarding Sebastian probably forgetting Ciel's birthday. He quickly went back to his smiling self and kissed Ciel's cheek "Happy birthday." He said cheerfully while letting go of the boy's waist and pulled back to get his bag and car keys.
Sebastian was panting when he took a seat in the far end of the class and as far away from the teacher as possible. He was about seven minutes late and in this class it pretty much means the same as not showing up. Sebastian knew that it would be for the best to let the teacher think he didn't show up at all because by the end of the class he can think of a good excuse. But if the teacher finds out he's late than he'll point him out to the entire class and ask for an explanation then no matter how convincing his excuse is, he'll be asked to leave. But this way he can still see the lecture and learn and worry about Mr. Spears' punishment for not showing up. He tried to take off his jacket and gloves as quietly as possible to avoid any unwanted attention.
"Smooth dude." A hushed voice called from next to Sebastian. The male turned quickly to see who the voice belonged to and he found the twenty two year old Claude Faustus. He shared most of the classes with Claude from the beginning of the year because both males decided to get their PhD in international business. Since then they found themselves getting along more and more and the end result was Claude introducing Sebastian to Alois. Claude used to babysit Alois because they've been neighbors since the blonde was born. Claude also helped Alois discover his sexuality but it backfired because Alois choose Sebastian and didn't even notice that Claude had been into him since he hit puberty. Claude didn't hold grudges and moved on, found himself few boyfriends but nothing worked out. Then he met Ciel, a boy who tutored Alois, though he was two years younger than the blonde, Claude found himself enjoying the teenager's company and especially his maturity. Again, Claude introduced Ciel to Sebastian and suggested a double date and everything went well for about two weeks. Next thing Claude knew was being hit in the face by rejection and what seemed to be a confession to Sebastian. So Claude didn't lose one, but two, potential boyfriends to his best friend and somehow managed to let go because he knows how deep his friendship with Sebastian is. He didn't want to end it because of boys.
Sebastian sunk deeper in the chair and kept his eyes on the board as he opened his notebook "Shut it." He hissed without looking at his friend.
Claude fixed his glasses, still keeping his voice down "Why so late?" He asked as he followed the other male's movement with his eyes.
Sebastian glanced at him quickly "Ciel needed a ride and I had to convince him to go with Alois. Not sure that it will end well but if I took him to school I'd be half an hour late." He explained, running his hand through his hair and writing something down after Mr. Spears.
Claude leaned to the side to make sure the other male heard him "This is what you get for having two boyfriends." Claude shook his head slightly and gave the other a small judgy look. He couldn't help but smile then rest his cheek on his hand. "Do you really need two boyfriends? Isn't one just enough? Ciel seems like your type. They say opposites attract, you an Alois are practically the same. But you and Ciel are exact opposites." He continued like he's talking about the weather as he picked up his pen and tapped the desk lightly.
Sebastian sighed and a small smirk appeared on his face "This is about Alois again. You're still trying to steal him? It's not my decision. I try to keep both of them happy but if one decides to leave than there's only so much I can do. If you want him then you should be talking to him and not me." He took more notes and glanced at the other male without much expression.
Claude fixed his glasses "Already tried that, I don't understand what he sees in you. But he's so fucking into you it's annoying." He said the last sentence in a quieter voice to make sure no one heard him.
Sebastian looked up and titled his head a little, one of his scary looks appeared on his face with a small smile that just made him look more intimidating "How about trying to get your own boyfriend instead of stealing other people's." He asked as politely as possible, realizing that Claude would understand how angry he is without having to show it.
Claude sighed "You're way too cocky. You're so sure than they're both head over heels for you that you'd ask me to talk to Alois about leaving you." He stated without any expression which only showed Sebastian that he was as angry as him.
Sebastian smiled and his tone just became smug "What can I say? I'm just that good." He looked at the board and ignored the student completely.
Sebastian threw his bag on the kitchen counter and closed the door behind him with a loud bang. It was Wednesday so he finished classes early, he has some time to himself before Alois and Ciel come back. And then he has another class after two hours of their return. He had full intentions on skipping and having Claude take notes so he can copy them later. It was Ciel's birthday and it wasn't a weekend. There was a limit to what they can do but he was still planning on doing something. He wasn't thinking of something big like a party and inviting people because that wasn't Ciel's scene. He had no idea what to do and the only thing he could think about was how much Ciel loved his cooking and especially his sweets. The boy had a sweet tooth and having an experienced baker as a boyfriend helped.
Sebastian spent the free time he had before the teenagers got home looking online for new recipes to cook or new deserts since the boy was open to trying out anything. He didn't find anything special, it was a birthday and a normal meal wouldn't suffice. Before he knew it he heard the door open and the two teenagers arguing loudly about something as they stood by the door. He quickly closed the laptop and left his room to peak at the living room and see Alois laughing while Ciel's face was as red as always. He knew that the blonde must have said something too dirty for Ciel's taste. He walked out of his room with a smile "How was school?" He asked, directing his question to both males. He made his way to the couch where Alois was sitting and sat next to him, keeping his eyes on the flushed and frowny Ciel who was standing in front of Alois.
"Ciel was late for the first time today and the teacher didn't even bother to report it because Ciel is everyone's favorite." He was grinning so wide that his smile reached his ears.
Sebastian watched the boy's reaction carefully. And he didn't seem to care; the older figured that it must be something else that's having him look so pouty. He reached his hand to the boy "Come here, beautiful." He pulled his hand and sat him down in his lap "What's got you so down?" He asked with a smile, wrapping his arms around the small frame of the boy's waist.
Ciel crossed his arms and looked away. It was harder to resist when he was so close to Sebastian, his smell, his gaze, and his touch were just too much for him. He knew that if he didn't calm his heart beat then he'll end up having trouble breathing again. The best way he knew of was to avoid eye contact. Refusing to answer or look at either males, he kept the frown on his face and his face was red with anger. Alois chuckled "Some dudes saw the hickeys on his neck and teased him about having a girlfriend and having sex with her." He answered, not able to contain his grin like a proud father.
Sebastian glanced at the blonde than at Ciel "What's wrong with that?" He asked, trying to sound as understanding as possible. With Ciel he can never be too careful.
Ciel huffed "Wha-eveything! Everything is wrong! I don't need the whole school knowing I'm having sex." He suddenly wasn't yelling anymore and his voice slowly faded "They'll think I'm a slut or something...It's just too embarrassing." He stated as he looked into Sebastian's crimsons with racing heart and sweaty palms.
Sebastian nodded once "Alright. I get it. You just need tour privacy, nothing wrong with that." He took the boy's side like he always does in these situation. The boy gets embarrassed too quickly and he learned the hard way that he should just go with it so Ciel doesn't get angry.
"This is all your fault." Ciel didn't have anything else to say. He wanted to be mad at someone and Sebastian too understanding so it made it hard to feel that way. So he just got angry anyway to let it out. It was rare when Ciel got angry because Sebastian doesn't let him reach that state.
Sebastian leaned back "Me?" He looked a little confused, still not wanting to push it and wanting to seem understanding.
"You left these marks! W-why do you have to do things like that?" He didn't want to get into details because he was blushing just by remembering the last time they did it. He looked away again and griped Sebastian's shirt with one hand. He could feel the older's staring at the side of his face and he became too aware of the fact that he's sitting on Sebastian's lap. His legs were tensing and his stomach was turning.
Sebastian's hands ran up and down the boy's waist, noticing the sudden change. He realized that that they exceeded the time they usually spent touching each other and the boy was getting nervous "Well, if you really want to place blame then it's your fault. Your body is just too perfect, it's flawless. You have no idea how tempting it is to just leave bites all over." He wasn't even one bit ashamed to admit it out loud. For a second he forgot that this is one of Ciel's bottoms and there's a slight chance he'll be angry.
The boy's eyes widened and he pushed himself off but Sebastian held him tight. He lowered his head. There was another reaction that happens most of the time. It's the whole reason Sebastian talks dirty sometimes. Ciel just turns into a little shy kitten and try to hide himself as best as he can so no one can see how embarrassed he is. But Sebastian makes sure that there's no place to hide before he initiates these types of conversation to ensure that he'll see the reaction he wants. The adult leaned closer and brushed his lips against the boy's "Right now would be a perfect example of how tempting you can be." He smirked; he didn't wait to see how red Ciel will turn and looked at Alois "When are you planning on leaving?"
Alois took a deep breath "Thanks for trying to sound caring. You could've pretended." He tilted his head and glanced at Ciel "I'll be out of your hair in few minutes."
Ciel looked confused "Why are you leaving?" He asked while exchanging looks with both males. He couldn't be more glad that the conversation wasn't about him or his hickeys anymore.
"It's your birthday. Alois volunteered to leave the apartment so it's just you and me." Sebastian's smile was obvious more in his eyes. He made sure to look straight at the boy to see how he'll handle something like that. His scarlets were glowing with amusement an possessiveness.
Ciel only blushed deeper and gazed at the older male in disbelieve. He couldn't remember the last time he had some quality time with Sebastian alone. He's been dating Sebastian for few months now, and since they started dating Alois was part of the deal. Alois had known Sebastian a little earlier but only by few weeks. Since the two teenagers started sharing Sebastian, they've been doing just that, sharing him. Neither had alone time unless the other was handing out with some friends. It happened to both boys twice or three times but it was for a short while. Neither of them tried to ruin the other's relationship so far and the jealousy has been under control. The only time they really fight seriously is when Alois acts too vulgar. Which have decreased over time, now they just have small friendly arguments that keep them busy and keep them talking, like about their favorite sports teams or best band.
Alois stood up "You know I don't like watching. So unless you're including me, don't start until I leave." He teased with his eyes on Ciel. He only received angry eyes from the younger before he headed to the front door. Sebastian kissed Ciel's cheek and placed him on the couch then gestured him to wait. Ciel watched the older walk after the blonde and hold him by the waist. He turned Alois around and captured his lips with a kiss. Alois only had time for one reaction and it was to wrap his hands around the older's neck and kiss him back. Ciel looked away, not out of shyness but because no matter how many times he saw it, it would still hurt him a little. It never felt that way during sex simply because he's having too much of a good time to care. Alois was more experienced and when his skills are put together with Sebastian's, then Ciel just finds himself on cloud nine. Sex with Sebastian was prefect for him, but whenever the three of them did it, it was a different kind of perfect.
He's been feeling this way for a while, the pain of seeing Sebastian and Alois together. It should've faded by now but it's the opposite. He's getting more hurt with time. He can't hear them tell each other the small 'I love you' anymore. The nicknames Sebastian has for the blonde just make him want to throw himself under a bus. And watching them kiss is the worst. He knew what he signed up for when he agreed to do this, but he never knew how painful it could be. It wasn't jealousy as much as possessiveness. He wanted to believe that Sebastian was his alone but every time he's met with Alois' face, he's reminded that it might never happen. He wasn't sure anymore if it's worth the pain. It felt like having to break up with Sebastian every day. A relationship should feel the opposite of that, but he wasn't sure that this relationship follows the conventional rules.
Sebastian finally pulled back but kept the blonde locked by the waist "Thanks for doing this, babe." He said lightly in the teenager's ear. "I owe you one." He let go of his waist and watched him take a small breath to collect himself then nod with a smile "You can pay me back on my birthday." He turned the door knob then stopped to look back at Ciel "I didn't forget your gift." He stared loudly as he exited and closed the door behind him.
Ciel did his best to smile even though he knew that no matter what Alois' gift is, he'll still feel this way. It wasn't Alois' fault; he probably feels the same way towards Ciel. The only gift Ciel truly wanted is for Alois to disappear from his life, and just the thought of that made him ashamed of himself. How can he wish for happiness over someone else's misery? He was raised better than this, but his parents never taught him how to share the person he desired the most. He knew that if he spoke of this out loud it would turn into a huge fight and Sebastian would take Alois' side. He'd say that Alois is feeling the same way but he never addressed it so Ciel should've done the same and kept his mouth shut. He knew that if he spoke of it than he'll lose Sebastian, he'll be the one who has to walk away and he couldn't bare that.
He didn't know what hurts more, seeing Sebastian show the same love to another man right in front of him, or leaving Sebastian for good.
Ciel didn't notice Sebastian coming back until the couch sunk a little when the adult sat down. The boy smiled softly and shifted so his body would face Sebastian's. He was met with a soft smile as well, painted on the thin lips of the older male. He could tell that he was truly happy and somehow it made him feel more miserable. It was his birthday so he should be happy the most, but this wasn't perfect. This wasn't his life, it was temporary. Alois will come back and it will go back to the way it was. This scene was fake; it wasn't a favor what Alois did. It was another reminder of how much he owned Sebastian.
"Don't you have class in an hour or so?" Ciel didn't know why he asked but anything was better than staying locked up in his thoughts where there's no happy ending. He couldn't deal with Sebastian, not right now. He just needs to be alone, there's no way of sounding polite while saying that. Sebastian's obviously excited for spending some alone time with Ciel and throwing that to the wind would send the wrong message no matter the reason.
Sebastian nodded "Yes, but I'm not going. Claude can cover for me." He answered with the same smile, his fingers brushing against the boy's faintly red cheek when he placed a lock behind his ear.
Ciel felt like throwing up, he felt sickened, it was just unpleasant feeling. His heart was about to beat out of his chest and his stomach turned. This class was his way out. When Sebastian leaves he could go out then come home late and pretend he lost track of time. If Sebastian wasn't planning on going then he'll just reject him, whatever plans he had, sex was defiantly included, he knew he'll reject all of it and he'll be back to square one.
Sebastian waited patiently, the boy's face didn't show much color anymore and it was clear that something was wrong. Ciel quickly stood up, his fists clutched tightly, his teeth gritting and his eyes unfocused "I have to go." It was barely heard, he was telling himself more than Sebastian. Forcing his mind to muster up the courage to walk out of that door. Sebastian stood up carefully; he seemed guarded as he watched the teenager. "I can't be here right now." Ciel said a little louder, looking down and being dragged by his feet to pace to the front door. He could hear the footsteps of Sebastian but nothing more. He knew that the adult must be saying something, calling him, but he couldn't hear anything other than his heartbeat.
When he reached the door he made sure to open it quickly and slam it behind him to buy sometime. He knew Sebastian was going to follow him so his first thought was to run to the stairway instead of the elevator. His heart was beating so uncontrollably he felt like he just ran a marathon. He had that nervous feeling that upset his stomach and all he wanted was to be as far away from this building as possible. Even though his legs were numb he ran down the stairs, it was a five story building and he lived on the fifth floor. For some reason it felt like he was climbing up instead of going down. He thought of the possibility of finding Sebastian outside, looking for him. He would've used the elevator since it's fastest but he didn't care. He knew he can sneak his way through the crowd across the street since the music shop was always filled with people and the line was two blocks long. When he reached the front door he found no one in sight and it made him relax just a little bit. He didn't stop running, making his way outside then to the back ally, even though it scared him, it was a better short cut to where's going.
It hit him a while later. It was freezing and he was only wearing his jeans and hoodie. The snow was few inches high but that wasn't what bothered him the most. It was the blowing wind with the snowflakes flying in his face as he ran. He didn't want to stop now since he was close. He was in the suburbs but not the ones shown in movies. It wasn't bright and shiny, no body owned their house and the lawns aren't as green as it gets. Ciel felt his face burn with the coldness of the weather. His nose was red and he couldn't feel his toes or his fingers. His thighs were radiating burning heat but they hurt with every step he took. He cursed himself when he started slowing down. He could see the light green painted house. The curtains were open but it was impossible to see inside. He knew he won't be able to run anymore so he slowed down and crosses the street. His breath was so visible that it clouded his view. He was having trouble breathing; his asthma was always triggered by cold weather and excessive heart exhausting. He was in the middle of both and the only thing that could stop an attack was to reach that house.
His finger barely fisted so he can knock and it was painful to knock. He clutched his chest and took long deep breaths while waiting for the door to open. When the door knob turned, Ciel looked up and saw the tall, dark haired, yellow eyed male. His glasses were off and he was wearing sweat pants and a tank top. He stared at the boy with furrowed eyebrows. Be wasn't sure what to say and he wanted to know why is Ciel panting at his door step without the proper clothing.
Ciel took a deep breath, meeting the yellow eyes and swallowing hardly. His voice was cracked and he knew it before opening his mouth because a grunt died in his throat. He was still feeling painfully cold and couldn't bring himself to walk inside because he'll freeze if he had to wait for Claude to get over his shock. His damp hair bothered him and he pushed it off in an impatient manner. "I need to break up with Sebastian."