I Got My Life Back Chapter 1, a private fanfic

Thank you for the awesome reviews and stuff for my first Private story, Blood is thicker than water.

I decided, whilst I'm having myself a short break from MV stories, so that people actually review, that I shall write this idea that I have had for a short time. It may not make sense, but it has been in my head for ages. So enjoy.

The wonderful Kate Brian owns everything, unfortunately not me

Noelle's POV:

"Noelle, help me!"

I wake up with a start, sweat rolling off my body in a disgusting way, and look over at the clock. 3:30am… I have another four hours before I need to get up, but there is absolutely no chance that I can get back to sleep with this image rolling through my head.

Thomas, chained to the pole, a bag over his head. He knew that I was there; he wanted me to help him from there. It may have been over a year ago now, but I still cannot get that out of my head. I could have saved him, but I didn't. I deigned to leave him there, thinking that it was the right thing to do for Reed, and look what happened; he died. He died because I was stupid and thought that I could trust my best friend to do something for someone… I thought Ariana was a good person, someone who could be relied upon… I never imagined that she would have it in her to go back there and kill him; I truly thought that it was one of his drug dude people who he owed money that had killed him.

I never thought it would be Ariana.

So for the past year, I have been locked in this country, this house pretty much, and been unable to do anything. I haven't been able to go away with my family to St Barts nor see with Kiran nor Taylor since we all went our separate ways; true we have spoken on the phone and stuff but when you're used to seeing them every fricking second of the day, it is pretty hard.

I look around the room of my hotel, my bags fully packed in anticipation for going home. The trial ended a week ago and I was cleared of everything, whilst Ariana was charged with his murder and sent down on 'insanity terms'. This meant that for the past week I have been partying and doing everything my luxurious lifestyle has been so generous to allow me for my entire life…

But it hasn't been enough.

She has always been there for me, I realise… since I met her at the beginning of her Sophomore year, she has been the best person in the entire crowd: Reed was, is, strong and independent, not scared to have her own opinion. She's a pretty great lacrosse and footy player as well; not that I would ever tell her that to her face!

I've missed her greatly since I was put on house arrest and whatever else has gone on in the past year. All I have wanted to do was pick up the phone and call her – but would she answer? From what I've heard, she got in with Cheyenne and London and all the other Billings Girls and left me behind, tarnishing me with the same brush as Ariana. I hope that that isn't the case. After all, I'm going back to be with her, to be the proper friend I ought to have been before.

I hope that she realises that I'm her best friend, that I wouldn't do anything to hurt her. I hope she realises that.

"Noelle, help me!"

It echoes through me once again but I manage to push it down. That part of my life is over; I have already lived enough regret for Thomas Pearson… I will not live anymore.

My life starts again today.

It's the day that I return to Easton. It is the day that I manage to cancel out the past year and focus on my future… I don't know what I'm going to do yet, but I will do something worthwhile. I may not have been the one to kill him, but I am partially responsible for his death. Therefore whatever I do, I am doing it for two people; he may have been a drug dealer and waste of space but he was a human being and had a chance to change.

I will be the great Noelle Lange. I will succeed and take the world by storm. Starting today… the day I get my life back.

So, what did you think?

I hope you liked it!

Please review!

I asked this before, but I'm going to ask it again… anybody who has read the Morganville Vampires (please don't tell me I'm the only one who reads both series!) do you think that Noelle is at all similar to Amelie?

Vicky xx