Have you ever felt like you don't belong? Well that's how I feel every day. When I wake up i'm afraid to leave my bed. Knowing my father could hurt me if he wanted, or just the fact that he insults me every day. My father is an Alcoholic and smoker. 2 years ago on my birthday While i was in school I heard an Ambulance. I though our neighbor must have went through one of her episodes where she has a heart attack. So I just left it alone. After 9th period I got home and saw the Ambulance was in my drive way. I ran up to it crying and the sheriff gave me a hug telling me everything was fine. They let me in and I saw my father. The paramedics said he had a seizure. I jumped out after a while after i was told to get my mom. My mom, Aunt and I went to my aunts house. They left me there all night. until they came back late. So you could say i didn't have a birthday. It was never made up to me. My moms a smoker too. And guess what. I have asthma! They smoke in the house, not caring about me. I couldn't find my inhaler one time so I went to find my mom. she was more worried about her cigarettes than me. She yelled at me "Shut up! I must find them! Where the Hell Did they go!"

Yep that's my life. I just wish school would come back. But there's one thing... We don't have any money. Only my mom works. School starts in 2 days and I don't have any new clothes or supplies! But yeah. Well Enough about that.

*End of thoughts*

I slowly got up out of my old bed Wishing I could stay but it's 11:36 am. I groaned and went to my closet and grabbed a pair of old shorts, and a shirt. I walked into my bathroom and began to run a nice bath. I walk out into the hall way hoping my mom hasn't left for work yet. I walk in the living room and See both my parents smoking. My mom finished her smoke and got up. She didn't even say bye before she left. My dad turned the TV to those shitty old TV shows that were in black and white. I went into the kitchen and grabbed a cup from the cabinet and turn the water on cold.

Trent: What are you doing in the kitchen?

Me: I'm just getting some water...

Trent: Well why don't you do the dishes.

That was more of a statement that a question.

Me: I usually do them Mondays and Thursdays.

Trent: well i don't care. They're dirty and need to be done.

Me: Okay well can I take my bath first?

Trent: What are you 3? Baths are for babies. Now start the dishes.

Me: Then I'll go empty the tub, before I start.

With that I walked out of the kitchen and into my bathroom. I emptied the water and walked into the Kitchen and began washing 3 weeks worth of dishes that had moldy food on them.

*4 Hours Later*

I finished dishes and walked into my room. I laid down on my bed. I was sitting here for about 25 minutes until i rolled over to look at my clock. 5:36 pm read the clock. I groaned and pulled my small laptop out from under my bed I turned it on and logged in. I opened Google chrome and pulled up Facebook.

I saw that My little Nephew Xzavier Lee Weber was given to my brother. Long story short Baby momma Was a little messed up in the Head. DRUGGIE! Ugh. Well For all you people who say a disabled 29 year old man with A.D.D can't have custody of his child you can go blow that up your ASSES! My brother is one of the most amazing people you will EVER meet. He tries so hard every day. Not only for my or our brother but for his son, and his Fiance.

As for my other brother he's a little goofy. He's 24. He's very intelligent. He has finished school to be a computer tech. And i'm very proud of him.

I scrolled through facebook and didn't find anything. Oh well. I closed my laptop and walked into the Living room looks like the ass holes sleeping. I walked outside and sat down on a patio chair enjoying the warm Minnesota breeze. Yep I live in Minnesota. Around St. Paul. But yeah. I've always wanted to Move to California. Where It DOESN'T SNOW! Most of the time. but yeah It's nice and Fun around here when you have someone to hang out with but it's whatever.

I got up and walked in the house. I went into my room again. I pulled the covers back and laid down... This 13 year old girl needs a break...

TA DA! So How'd You like it?

******CHARACTER LIST HERE! ******

Loren's 29 year old brother: Joesph H Weber. *Joey for short*

Loren's 24 year old brother: Jeremy D Weber. *Sometimes Jer for short*

Loren: Loren Tate * Her brothers had her change it to their moms madin name*

Loren's Mom: Nora McCall

Loren's Dad: Trent McCall

Loren's GodSon / Nephew: Xzavier Lee Weber * Calls Him Bug*

Joey's Fiance/ Wife: Cassondra * Cassie or Cass for short*

Jeremy's Girlfriend: Nadia

Cassie's Sister: Kayla