She had not wanted it to end like this. Him just being gone without so much as a 'goodbye' and her having to deal with this fucked up world all by herself. She wanted him to be there and help her fight Anna. She wanted him to hold her, when she needed to be held.

But he was long gone. All his stuff, his computers, his sexy black shirts, his guns, all gone. He hadn't even left a note for her.

All she had left of him were memories. More bad ones than happy ones, but still, she wanted him at her side.

He had always been the most dangerous person in the group, mostly because he was unpredictable and didn't really care for anything but himself. But they had needed him, his expertise, his strength and after all they could not let him be on Anna's side. That would have been their death.

She remembered the first time she met him and how her heart had skipped a beat, just from looking at him. She had always had a thing for strong, confident men and Hobbes was the strongest, most confident man she had ever met. But she hated him for everything he had ever done. She hated him for being who he was, a terrorist, and she hated him even more, because he didn't seem to care if what he did was wrong.

Somehow she still hated him for all these things, but the one thing that she hated most was that he had left her alone in the middle of this fight.

She didn't love him or anything, she just needed him around. He was the one person who could really keep her grounded if necessary, who could help her make difficult decisions, if she didn't feel strong enough to do that. He was the only person who could make her forget the whole damn world for an hour or two, by taking her breath away with his kisses and making her come in his arms.

Hovans~Hovans~Hovans~Hovans~Hovans~Hovans

He had never been so angry at himself. How could he leave her alone with all this shit? How could he just run away from his responsibilities?

He should have stayed with her until this war was over, until Anna was defeated, until Erica had her son back. Of course there was a time, when this could have been considered normal Hobbes behavior, but after being part of this team he knew he had grown. He knew he could have done much better than this, but running seemed to be the only way to be helpful, after all he had done wrong.

How could he have killed her ex-husband? How could he not tell her? How could he do anything for the lizards?

He should have told Erica what this was all about. He should have told her about his wife and how the lizards threatened her life.

His wife. The first woman he had ever loved. The only woman he had ever loved. She had left him a few weeks before the V's arrived, but he still loved her with all his heart. She had never accepted his 'profession' and she made him promise to start a new life with her, get married, have kids. But somehow that was really hard on him. He never really liked people who tried to change him and he loved his way of life, but something about her made him want to try and get better.

In the end, trying was not enough, at least for her. She left him, without a note, without a goodbye.

Erica was nothing like her. The only thing both women had in common was the hatred for his lifestyle, if you can call it that. His wife, Sarah, was a redhead. She was thin, but healthy and sport just wasn't her thing. Erica wasn't normally his type. He would never have thought a blonde would get his attention that fast. She was strong, but still emotional in some ways, although she was pretty good at hiding her feelings most of the time. Sarah had always been very emotional and she never tried to hide that from anybody. She also needed to call her friends all the time and talk to them for hours until everything was said. He would never pick Erica for such a type.

Sometimes he didn't even know why he was attracted to the blonde FBI-Agent. It was much more difficult to give her a compliment and she didn't seem even the slightest bit fascinated by his strength. But somehow he knew she was a lot like him. She was strong, independent, scarred. She understood him in ways Sarah would never be able to, although both women didn't know much about his life. But Erica knew what it meant to have secrets and she knew why someone would want to keep many things to themselves. She didn't want him to know everything either.

After all, he knew he didn't love Erica and he knew she didn't love him, but they needed each other and he would forever hate himself for leaving her.

But the lizards threatened Sarah's life and he knew he would do anything to keep her alive, so before he could hurt Erica even more, he decided to go and find Sarah. Only he could keep her safe and he was sure Erica would win this fight, with or without him.

TBC...

A/N: My first V-Fanfic. I'm German, so I need a beta for this. I know my English isn't perfect. Anyways, I would love some reviews :D!