He left me. I'm not sure why. But all I know is that I am never making the same mistake. Because that's all he really was. Just a mistake and I was fooled into believing it was love because I thought it was the perfect fairytale. This invincible Prince Charming helping a clumsy human damsel in distress. I can remember the day perfectly.
Flashback
"Bella, we're leaving." Edward said. His face an emotionless mask.
"When? How am I going to break this to Charlie? Should I go and pa- -" I cut off when I realized.
"By we… you mean-"
"My family and I." His response was curt and his face showed signs of annoyance.
"Why? No, you can't do this. If this is about the party I swear it was nothi-" He cut me off glaring.
"It's not about the party. I just don't want you anymore. You're just a silly little human and I want nothing more to do with you." He kept glaring and my breaths were coming out in short gasps.
"You.. don't.. want.. me?" I knew it came out as more of a question but I had always figured that when he told me he didn't want me it would be when I'm a vampire. I didn't think it would be because he already got sick of me.
"Yes. Now, if you don't mind. I've got to go. Places to be, women to screw." He smirked and left.
End flashback.
I knew what he meant by women. Vampires he could actually have sex with.
It hurt in the beginning. But now? Now I'm just angry. He took my family away from me! He led me to believe that I was worthless. Now, I just want to find him and kick his fucking sparkling arse. But, I'll just continue here until I can find a way to get back at him.
I miss my family. Alice; little energizer bunny on crack. Emmett; the big brother I never had and may never have again. Jasper; caring from afar but I knew that he loved me as a sister. Rosalie; she never told me her story but I know it was one of the reasons she never spoke much to me. Carlisle and Esme; the two parents I wish I had. I loved my true parents but I always felt that they were the children and I was the single mother that had to look out for them.
I never stopped missing them but Edward, I could care less what happened to him. It might seem irrational but I have gotten over him completely. I look back at all of our times spent together and I notice all the exasperated looks I missed because I was too caught up in him. I can't believe I let myself lose it and throw my heart on the line with out checking to see if it was safe.
I know that I should totally forget anything to do with them but I can't, and for now, I'm just going to sleep and go to school tomorrow. I feel like something kinda big is going to happen tomorrow.