Summary: Edward and Bella are both world renowned Neurosurgeons at Seattle Children's Hospital and have became best friends over the last ten years of working together. The two know everything there is about each other and the sexual tension between them is unmistakable. Bella would gladly act on it except there's one problem.... Edwards married with four beautiful children. What happens when Edward and Bella give in to desire one night after a hard case?

Disclaimer: I own nothing. Stephanie Meyer owns everything EXCEPT Jenna, Bailey, Elizabeth, Kylie, and Annie. They are mine mine mine mine!!!

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"We always long for the forbidden things, and desire what is denied us." - Joni Mitchell

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"See you later Swan." Edward wraps his lean arms around me like he does every time we leave. "Try and get some sleep you look like shit." I laugh wrapping my arms around Edwards waist.

"Thanks Eddy." I feel him tense under my arms.

"I hate that name." He mentions as he walks me to my car.

"I know, that's why I use it." I give him my best smart ass look. "And spending fourteen hours with you in surgery can make anyone look like shit."

"I'm hurt Bells." Edward places his hand over his chest in mock hurt. I shrug.

"It happens. You know you don't have to walk me to my car every night." Edwards smile leaves his beautiful face the minute I'm done with my sentence.

"Of course I do Bella. I don't know what I would do if anything ever happened to you." My heart tugs at his words. He loves you like a sister. That's it Bella.

"Well I'm going to leave now. Are you on call?" I ask trying to avoid the sentimental conversation.

"Aren't I always?" He asks flashing his perfect crooked grin.

"Same here." I glance at my watch. 8:20 a.m. "What time do you have to be back up here Cullen?"

"Noon." He rolls his eyes. "You?"

"Same. I'm going to go home and try to sleep for a few hours. See you soon. Tell Tanya and the kids I said "hi"." I ignore the knot that tightens in my stomach when I say Tanya's name.

"Will do." Edward turns away from me to walk to his car then suddenly turns back. "Oh before I forget, Tanya wants you to come over tonight for dinner. You know how she hates thinking of you eating alone every night." I smile.

"Yes I know. Seven like always?"

"You know it." I wave hitting the unlock button on my key chain and sliding into my car heading home.

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Edwards perfect body was gliding over mine as he thrust into me over and over again pushing me towards the point of perfect bliss when a high pitched shrill cut through my haze. What the h-. I stumble out of bed reaching for my jeans pulling the small black piece of plastic that is my pager from the pocket. 911. I quickly pull my jeans on grabbing my keys and running out my door.

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I was changing into my scrubs in the locker room when Edward burst in already working on his jeans letting them drop halfway to his locker. I couldn't help but sneak a glance at his muscular legs my dream flooding back causing a familiar ache between my legs. Focus Bella. I pull my scrub top on piling my hair on top of my head and grabbing my lucky scrub cap. Edward hands me a pair of booties as we make our way out of the room towards the O.R. Jasper, our pediatric anesthesiologist, intercepts us in the hallway.

"What'd we got?" Edward asks.

"Something no one here has ever seen, that's for sure. Two year old boy with a oligodendroglioma. Alice thought both of you would want to be here for it." Edward and I both nod heading in to wash up.

"I've only seen this kind of tumor in middle aged adults. And I've only actually seen one in ten years." I look through the glass at the boy laying on the operating table, Jasper moving around getting prepared. He looked so fragile. His small body under the harsh over head light that was reflecting off of his smooth head. I was about to cut this two year old boys head open. I look over at Edward.

"I've never seen one except in a case study during Med School." He glances at me, worry etched into his brow.

"This is going to be difficult." I say simply rinsing off my arms pushing through the door with my back and holding up my arms for the nurse to prepare me. I'm the first to get suited which means I get to pick the music. I look over at Angela, the head operating nurse. "Debussy's Cinq Poémes de Baudelaire." I watch Edward roll his eyes. "Hey!" He looks up at me innocently. "Your nurse should work faster. Then we would be listening to Clair de Lune." I can tell by the way his eyes crinkle that he's smiling. The go to hell look Lauren gave me when I made the comment about her not being fast enough did not go unnoticed. Stupid Bitch. "Alright everyone. Deep breath." I pick up the scalpel watching the light shine off of it. I look at the little boys angelic face. His whole life ahead of him. I was going to make sure he would enjoy that life. I look up at Jasper waiting for his nod. "Okay. Lets go." I lower the scalpel preparing myself to hold this little boys life in my hands.

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I remove my blood stained gown and gloves tossing them into the hazmat can along with Edwards pulling my mask down.

"Your turn to talk to the family." Edward reminds me.

"At least I get to inform them of a success this time." Edward nods heading toward the operating board. I walk through the double doors separating the hall from the waiting room. I recognize the family immediately.

"Mr. and Mrs. Jones?" The both stand up walking towards me. "Andrew made it through surgery with little complication. The nurses are taking him into recovery now and you should be able to see him in about twenty minutes but he wont wake up for another forty five." Mrs. Jones lets out a relieved sigh pulling me into a hug. After the endless thank you's I make my way back. I see spiky black hair peaking up from behind the nurses station. "Alice, you and Jasper aren't having sex back there again, are you?" The little pixie jumps up from behind the desk.

"God no Bella!" Alice was the head Oncologist here and she was always so chipper although I don't know how when she dealt with children with terminal diseases all day. She always managed to put a smile on their face though. Alice and Edward are twins and their father, Doctor Carlisle Cullen, is the Chief of Medicine.

"I'm going to the on call room, 'okay?" Alice nods.

"If you see Jasper, tell him I'm looking for him please." I shake my head waving a hand at her. I push the door to the on call room open glancing down at my watch. 3:27 p.m. We just spent four hours in surgery. I start to look up when I run into something hard.

"Shit Swan." Edwards smell invades my senses as his arms encircle my waist trying to hold me steady.

"Edward, what the hell?" Edwards body shakes with laughter.

"It's not my fault you have no sense of balance and you weren't watching where you were going."

"You should have seen me."

"Bella only you can blame me for your mistakes." Edward lets go of me smiling, walking over to lay down on the bed.

"That's because I am amazing." I yawn stretching my limbs pulling off my mask.

"You still coming over for dinner?" He asks his voice laced with sleep.

"Mmmhhmmm." I mutter laying down.

"Mmk." And I was out.

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"Bella." Edward whispers in my ear.

"Mmm?"

"Bella." His voice is a little louder this time. "Bella!" I'm jolted out of my sleep.

"Edward. Wha-" I stop when I see the cocky grin across his face. Shit.

"You were talking again." I knew it.

"What did I say?" I ask closing my eyes willing the throbbing to stop.

"Hmm.... tight, hard, my name and table is all I got. Were you dreaming about surgery?"

"Yeah." I lie rolling over with my back facing him so he cant see the blush spreading over my face. I look down at my watch. 6:00 p.m. "Shit!" I sit up quickly in bed slamming my head into the metal frame above me. "Son of a-."

"Bella!" Edward rushes over to me. "Are you okay? You're bleeding." He presses his cool hand onto my throbbing forehead. Edward walks out returning quickly with a butterfly bandage. He places it over my wound.

"Good as new. Now where were you off to in such a hurry?" Edwards emerald eyes are ablaze with curiosity.

"Home." I state simply.

"Why?"

"To get ready for dinner. I'm not going in my scrubs or my ratty jeans." Edward rolls his eyes.

"You're turning into Alice. You don't need to dress up all pretty for us. I've seen you at the end of a forty eight hour shift remember?"

"This coming from the guy who looks like he just rolled out of bed everyday and doesn't own a brush." Alice interjects. Where the hell she came from, I have no idea.

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Standing on Edwards front porch I find myself wanting this. All of it. The husband, the children, the house with a white picket fence and the dog. I want the life that Tanya gets to enjoy everyday. Tanya Cullen was a good woman, an excellent wife and a wonderful mother. She had accused Edward of cheating on her with me once or twice but he was gone a lot, sometimes all night and day so I can understand where she came from. I take a deep breath straightening my blue long sleeve shirt and knock on the door. It flies open not three seconds later.

"Auntie Bella!" Kylie, Edward youngest, throws herself into my arms. I pick the bouncing four year old up. Kylie Isabella Cullen is a beautiful little girl with porcelain skin, red wild curls down to her waist and sparkling green eyes. She always loved to mention that she had my name to. The oldest Cullen child was Jenna Esme Cullen who was sixteen years old of nothing but attitude. She was going to give Edward a heart attack one day. Jenna is 5'10, with blonde shoulder length layers and bright blue eyes, she's and athlete and constantly had boys coming and going. Next was Bailey Kate Cullen, she's eleven and just starting to turn boy crazy, much to Edwards despise. She has red curly hair, like Kylie, and blue eyes. Then there is Elizabeth Grace Cullen. Elizabeth is the biggest daddy's girl, in the world. When Elizabeth was born there were major complications and Edward almost lost both Elizabeth and Tanya but after three weeks in the Neonatal ICU she was breathing hard on her arm and screaming at the top of her new found lungs. Elizabeth looked identical to Edward. She had his unruly copper hair, his expressive emerald eyes and his beautiful red lips that stood out from her powder white skin.

I carry Kylie into the kitchen where I am met with a glowing, six month pregnant Tanya.

"Bella Swan!" Tanya pulls me into a tight hug and I think I saw Edwards face light up just a little but I'm certain I was imagining that. I place my hand over Tanya's swollen belly feeling the baby move under my hand.

"If you two keep multiplying you can get your own TV show."

"That's what we're aiming for." Edward laughs pulling me into a hug. I sit Kylie down on the floor and she runs away, her red curls bouncing.

"Where's the rest of your clan?"

"Well, the three good children are in the den watching a movie and Jenna is upstairs on the phone hating me." Edward rolls his eyes in an exaggerated manner.

"What'd you do now?"

"I wouldn't let Tom or Cody or Ben or- what the hell his name Tanya?"

"Zach." Tanya says smiling as she cooks.

"I was close. Anyway I wouldn't let Zaaach come over. So now I am the anti Christ...again." I nod helping Tanya prepare dinner.

"Bella-" Tanya starts.

"No. I'm helping." She always tries to argue with me about helping her. Edward pours me a glass of wine while I wash the lettuce. Edward has an excellent taste in wine. I would come over every night if I could just to have a glass. I was just finishing the salad when I was banned out of the kitchen and into the den. Kylie, Elizabeth and Bailey were all seated on the couch opposite of the television.

"Bella!" They all yell as I walk in. Kylie moves away from Elizabeth.

"Sit here." She pats the cushion between them. I sit down looking at the TV.

"What movie is this?" There was a large panda jumping around on the screen.

"Kung Fu Panda!" Bailey scolds me. How was I suppose to know that? I don't spend my free time watching children's movies. Ha. Free time. This movie looked like it was going to be stupid anyway. Thirty minutes later I found myself laughing along with the children. This movie may be stupid but it was also hilarious. Out of my peripheral vision I catch sight of Edward, I look up at his gorgeous face and return his smile.

"Dinners ready. Girls go wash up and tell Jenna its time to come out of her hole." I stand up taking the last drink of my wine.

"Should I go wash my hands as well?" I ask jokingly.

"If you want, you can." He answers taking my glass from my hand as I follow him to the dining room.

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"Can't Bella stay a little longer?" Elizabeth and Kylie gave their best puppy dog eyes.

"It's bed time little ones." Tanya takes over, probably knowing that Edward was going to cave any minute now. "Go." The duo hesitates then run up the stairs. "Bella would you like to stay?" Tanya turns to me.

"I should really get going. It's late and I have imposed long enough. Thank you though." I smile heading towards the door.

"You could never be an imposition Bella." Tanya gives me a hug before making her way up the stairs slowly. Edward opens the door for me.

"See you later Bells." Edward wraps his arms around me and I wrap mine around his waist.

"Hopefully not until tomorrow Eddy", I laugh walking out the door.

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When you have no family its hard not to want some kind of bond with people. On nights like this it's the hardest. When I return from Edwards happy home knowing all I have to look forward is an empty apartment, glass of wine, a sixteen hour shift the next day and a dinner for one. My phone ringing pulls me out of my own thoughts. I glace at the screen on my cell phone. Rosalie. Rosalie Hale is the hospital's lawyer and she is a serious ball crusher. Rose was my closest friend and has been since we met in college. We knew everything there was about each other. She knew that I hated my family for leaving me and I knew she hated her family for trying to make her into a snobby rich bitch.

"Hello my dear." I smile hearing Rose's voice.

"Hi."

"Uh oh, what's wrong?"

"Nothing." I lie trying to make my voice sound lighter.

"You're lying. Are you thinking about Edward?"

"Yeah, I just got back from his house." I bite my lower lip.

"Bella." Rosalie lets out a sigh. "You know you can't do anything. Why do you do this to yourself?"

"I don't know Rose. It hurts so god damn much to see his perfect life and it doesn't include me." There was a pause.

"Have you ever thought about switching hospitals?" I close my eyes tight against the tears threatening to fall.

"Rose, you know I can't."

"Bella that was seven years ago. You couldn't save her." The tears fell on there own.

"I know." I whisper.

"You need to let it go. You were in surgery for twenty six hours. There was no more hope." I close my eyes seeing Annie's face.

"She was my sister Rose. I should have tried harder. She was only ten, she never even lived her life. It should have been me."

"Bella stop it!" I take a deep breath."

"I'm sorry. It's just.."

"Just what sweetie?"

"Thinking about all of this makes me wish I would have done things differently. I pushed myself to graduate high school a year early, then to finish college in three years, then med school, then my residency. Because of all this I ignored my family."

"Bella your family abandoned you long before you did. Your mother never gave a damn about you. Because you pushed your self so hard you were able to give Annie the best there was."

"I know Rose. I'm going to go to sleep. See you tomorrow?"

"Bella.."

"I'm fine. Promise."

"Alright. I love you and you call me if you need to talk some more."

"Love you to." I hit then end call button on my phone taking a deep breath. The hole in my chest that I kept so tightly closed up inside me was suddenly ripped open with the help of Rosalie's perfectly manicured nails. My mother was a raging alcoholic. She didn't care about anything except her booze and her men. When I was thirteen she went on a major binge and told me that she was ninety percent sure that I wasn't my dads child. That really didn't matter because Charlie left us when I was four. It was my senior year of high school when my mother told me she was pregnant again and twenty seven when I discovered that Annie had a brain tumor that was spreading to her spinal cord. In surgery I tried. Tried so damn hard to revive her. Edward had to pull me away from doing chest compressions. That was the last time I saw my mother until her own funeral. The last thing she said to me was that I was an ungrateful bitch. She slapped me then walked out of the hospital and out of my life. I later learned that when she died her blood alcohol level was three times the limit and she fell down in front of a subway.

I wipe the tears off my face. That was a long time ago. I have a decision to make now. Live the life I have grown to love over the years, or leave and start over somewhere new away from the images of Annie, Renee and Edward.

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A/N: Theres my first chapter. Let me know what you think. Hopefully Comedy or Tragedy will be updated soon! Spanks!