Disclaimer: i don't own the characters of KHR!!
Deep inside this lovely smile, a lonely heart bleeds..
"When doe it started bleeding?" , a question that keeps on repeating…
Words for words I hear, but only this phrase is real….
… "it started bleeding, when you started loving him..."
She is walking with a smile
Like nothing's wrong and she's fine
Waving to everyone as he passes by….
Haru Miura is as alluring as ever as she walks past me and Decimo. She greeted us all full of vigor. She talks if it is just a normal day to chat with friends. If you look at her, she looks so stupid smiling so cheerfully and using it to make others feel happy.
She can deceive all of them but not me. I know she I hurting. I know that she is hurting because today is Decimo's wedding to that Turf head's little sister, Kyoko Sasagawa.
But for me, she looks stupid.
Because I know her,
I have known her ever since the day I realized that I care for her.
And I know deep inside that lovely smile her heart shatters.
She looks so stupid to force herself to smile in front of everyone. She is stupid to compel herself whenever Decimo's around and act so reckless in front of me, always hanging her tongue like a child. She is stupid when she calls me stupid when I try to kill that annoying cow.
And she is stupid when she called me stupid when I told her that Decimo does not love her, telling me that I don't know how much she loves Decimo. But after all that I saw her cry. She is crying because she is hurting.
"When does it started hurting like this?" that's the question she keeps on asking me.
That question that I cannot answer, the question that irritates me the most.
The only question that all I can answer is, "I don't know."
I saw her made her way outside the hall. I followed her. I followed her silently until she reached the Garden. Then she sat at a bench full of blooming roses beside it. After a couple of minutes, she lowered her head and I hear small sobs. She is crying again.
I couldn't jut ignore her so I sat next to her. I looked at her for a second and thought," stupid woman, crying again just because of Decimo." Then I sighed. I sat there beside her, silently watching her and waiting for her to feel better. But when I tried to smoke, he tensed up, snatched the cigarette and threw it away saying, "You stupid don't smoke around me!" then started to cry again.
"I don't know when I started being horrible, Gokudera-san! I feel stupid for being like this." I heard her say between her sobs. All I could do is stare at her, that's because for all through these years only now she realized that she's stupid.
I tried to look through myself,
Searching for the right words to answer her question.
I tried asking the same question to others,
But they keep on saying the same thing.
But as I reflect all of it to myself,
The only phrase that I cane up with is…..
Because of the silence, all the words that he said earlier kept on repeating inside my head. I tried asking myself tupid things that I never thought I will be asking myself. As I look at the stars, I remembered my mother. Then instantly, I remembered the word"love".
I feel so stupid because of her.
"Maybe I know the problem." I told her.
She looked puzzled then she said, "Then tell me the problem."
I sighed. Stupid
"You started acting stupid and horrible when you started caring for Decimo, despite the fact that he can't return your feelings the same way like yours." Then I looked at her.
She sucked in some air, for her not to cry but it failed. I watched her cry and cry, because she knows to herself that what I said is true.
It started tormenting you when you started loving him……
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