DISCLAIMER- I do NOT own Twilight. This story is from my messed up little head and is in NO way affiliated with Stephenie Meyer and her written work.
-Sometimes I think best if left in the memory/ It's better kept inside than left for good/ Lookin' back each time they tried to tell me/ Well something's gotta go wrong/ Coz I'm feelin' way too damn good.- "Feelin' Way Too Damn Good" - Nickelback
It felt exactly like the first time as he ran his hand down my bare back. He kissed my neck and I was having trouble remembering to breathe. He's always had a talent for leaving me breathless, even if it was unintentional. The dazzling smile, and love shining in his eyes sent my heart into overdrive while his hand wandered farther south. His lips found mine and I sighed in relief, it had been too long since I had had the pleasure of feeling his stone lips on my own pliable ones. He murmured his love for me and layed me down in the grass. His skin sparkling the rarest of diamonds as he hovered above me. Looking deep into my eyes his lips parted to say something.
"Bella, darlin', I like to move it move it. I like to move it move it..."
What the fuck? That's not his voice. Why is he dancing all of a sudden?
"What the hell are you doing?" I was beyond confused, this wasnt how it was supposed to happen.
"All girls all over the world original King Julian pon ya case man!" As he was dancing the sparkle of his skin started to fade.
"Noooooo auntie Awiiiiice. I wanna hear da woboting part." What in the world was that? Where did that voice come from?
The gorgeously naked man in front of me then raised his arms and said "Look, I am roboting."
SMACK!
"Ouuuuuch!" I yelled and rolled over in an attempt to ecape my attacker only to find myself being reacquainted with the rug by my bed.
I stood up slowly while rubbing my left arm that had been slammed into the ground and trying to ignore the pain on my cheek where I had been smacked.
"Mama, you otay?" Ginevieve my two and half year old daughter asked me.
"Mama's fine baby, where's Noah?"
I climbed back into the bed and pulled her onto my lap and running my fingers through her blonde curls.
She leaned her head back to look at me, her eyes the strangest mix of grey and topaz still looked sleepy.
"I dunno mama, I sleeping. Mama owie?" She asked and rubbed what I'm sure was my red cheek.
"No, baby, mama doesnt have an owie. How about we go find Noah and go make some pancakes for breakfast?"
"YAAAAYYY!! Pancakes!" She took off like a bat out of hell headed towards the kitchen.
I chuckled and rose from the bed. That little girl is insane. I threw on a sweater and padded my way through the hallway towards the living room across from the kitchen.
"Really Rose? Are you serious?" I giggled at the beautiful blonde vampire who, for once, was wearing sweats and sitting cross legged on the living room floor.
"Hush up you! Do you see what your son is doing? There is no way I am letting him destroy another outfit." She huffed, then smiled lovingly at Noah, Ginny's twin brother.
"I see how it is then huh? You wear my clothes when you know you're going to get dirty. How is that fair?" I questioned laughing.
"It's not like you care what clothes you wear Bells." Alice announced as she came in from the backyard.
"Nice, you know what? I think I'm going to go in the kitchen and make breakfast with my daughter. At least she doesnt pick on me. You guys suck!" I blew a raspberry at them and chuckled on my way into the kitchen.
"Momma! I wanna help too!" Noah yelled and ran up to me latching on to my left leg.
"Okay baby, come on." I picked him up and rested him on my right hip. "Oh dear little man, you're getting big. Momma won't be able to carry you for much longer." I tickled him with my free hand which sent him into a fit of giggles. He fussed back and forth causing his wavy blonde hair to tickle my nose.
"Achoooooooo!" I sneezed loudly and set him down on the kitchen counter.
I looked at my daughter and sighed in exasperation.
"ALICE CULLEN! GET YOUR PIXIE BEHIND IN HERE RIGHT THIS MINUTE!" I shouted, not that I needed to.
In a flash she appeared at my side. I sat down on a stool by the island in the middle of the kitchen while Alice picked Noah up and walked over towards me.
"Ginny, sweetie, come here." My baby-girl slowly made her way toward me and when she was within arms reach I pulled her onto my lap and began dusting the flour out of her hair.
"Alice why does she have flour all over her?" I glared and the spikey-haired little sprite.
"She wanted to make pancakes and you were taking to long."
"I was barely two minutes."
"She was impatient."
"I'm so sure Ali." I laughed, "She has always been a calm child, you know that. She takes after her fa-" I couldn't even finish my sentence. It hurt to think about everything that went down with their father.
Alice noticed the change in my mood and took it upon herself to make breakfast.
Half an hour later, Rose, Alice, Noah, Ginny were getting ready to go to the park. The day was overcast as it often was in Seattle.
I gave my children each a hug and kiss and hugged my two best friends as they walked out the door.
I was now alone in the house with nothing to do. Living with two vampires meant no cleaning apparently. I was never a fan of vacuuming but it would be a welcome distraction at the moment.
I curled up on the couch, wrapped myself up in the blanket that had been hanging on the back of it and grabbed the remote, turning on the tv. Nothing but talk shows were on as I half-heartedly flipped through the channels. I was still flipping through the many channels when I heard a familiar song, and because I am a masochist I left it on the country music channel and tortured myself by listening to "She's Everything' By Brad Paisley. My mind drifted to the day he had played that song for me.
We were sitting in his room in the Cullen house. His room was beautiful, hunter green walls, bark brown curtains covering a bay window and a beautiful dark wood sleigh bed on which we were currently sitting. He had his back against the headboard and I was sitting between his legs as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
"What would you like to do darlin'? Anything you want." His deep southern drawl was creating many ideas of what I would like to do and causing my imagination to run wild. I was in the middle of invisioning quite the scene that included a cowboy hat and handcuffs when he gently shook me out of my thoughts.
"Calm down little girl. I can't be held accountable for my actions if you keep putting out those lust vibes like that." He smirked down at me and I couldn't resist kissing him.
"Then you need to get rid of that accent or stop talking altogether." I blushed and smiled against his lips.
He kissed me once more and raised his head.
"How 'bout we think of something a bit more rated PG, sugar?"
"Fine." I pouted, He ducked down and pulled my bottom lip in between his.
"How about I play for you darlin'? Would you like that?" He smiled that million-dollar smile and I melted.
"I'd love that baby." I kissed him quickly on the lips and hopped off the bed while managing not to trip and break my face. A miracle. I grabbed the guitar that was leaning against the dresser and brought it over to the bed and handed it to him.
I curled up against the headboard and cuddled a pillow in my lap. He got comfortable sitting cross legged in front of me and shot me a smile. I responded with an excited smile of my own, I loved it when he played for me.
And then he began singing:
"She's a yellow pair of running shoes
A holey pair of jeans
She looks great in cheap sunglasses
She looks great in anything
She's I want a piece of chocolate
Take me to a movie
She's I can't find a thing to wear
Now and then she's moody"
He smirked in my direction and I could feel myself turn red.
"She's a Saturn with a sunroof
With her brown hair a-blowing
She's a soft place to land
And a good feeling knowing
She's a warm conversation
That I wouldn't miss for nothing
She's a fighter when she's mad
And she's a lover when she's loving"
It was full-blown smile now that graced his God-like features. Being the mature woman that I was, I stuck my tongue out at him. He just laughed at me and continued with the song.
"And she's everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
I talk about her, I go on and on and on
'Cause she's everything to me"
I was fighting back tears as I gave him a watery smile.
"She's a Saturday out on the town
And a church girl on Sunday
She's a cross around her neck
And a cuss word 'cause its Monday
She's a bubble bath and candles
Baby come and kiss me
She's a one glass of wine
And she's feeling kinda tipsy
She's the giver I wish I could be
And the stealer of the covers
She's a picture in my wallet
and my unborn children's mother
She's the hand that I'm holding
When I'm on my knees and praying
She's the answer to my prayer
And she's the song that I'm playing
She's the voice I love to hear
Someday when I'm ninety
She's that wooden rocking chair
I want rocking right beside me
Everyday that passes
I only love her more
Yeah, she's the one
That I'd lay down my own life for
And she's everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She's everything to me
Yeah she's everything to me
Everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She's everything to me "
The last note faded into silence and as he set down the guitar I crawled into his lap and looked him in the eyes.
"I love you so much Jasper."
He smiled down at me and kissed my nose which I immediately scrunched up. He chuckled and ran a hand through my hair.
"I love you too Darlin'. Forever."
Forever. HAH! That was a crock of shit. I was in tears now. Thinking of him always reduced me to a blubbering mess. It was a struggle to keep it all inside when the twins were around but I didn't have anyone to hide from at the moment.
What did I do that would make him hate me so much? Didn't he realize that I loved him? He promised me forever and broke that promise in the blink of an eye and I still don't know why. All I kno is that after a little over 3 years has passed and I still love him with every shattered piece of my heart, and if it weren't for my children and my best friends, I don't know where I would be.
I just sat there and wallowed, waiting for my babies to come back.
I slowly drifted off to sleep, his name a whisper on my lips.
-Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby / I gave you everything, every part of me.- "Didn't You Know How Much I Loved You" - Kellie Pickler
So what did y'all think? Should I continue? Let me know. XD
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RAWR! (P.S. that means 'I Love You' in dinosaur)