"But I love you."
Melissa put her warm hand on my cheek. "I love you, too, Jackson."
"No. I mean I really, really love you."
When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
"I'm sorry, Jackson."
"I care about you so much."
"I know."
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so f***ing special
"You're all I've got, Mel."
"I'm sorry."
"I need you."
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the h*** am I doin' here
I don't belong here
"Why are you doing this, baby?"
"Jackson…"
"What? Did I do something wrong?" When she didn't speak, I continued. "Tell me, baby. And I'll change."
I don't care if it hurts
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
"There's someone else."
My heart sank. My voice was barely audible. "What?"
"I'm seeing someone else."
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so f***ing special
I wish I was special
"But you told me you loved me."
"I do…as a friend…a really good friend."
"You've been lying to me all this time?"
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the h*** am I doin' here
I don't belong here
Ohhh
Ohhh
"I'm sorry, Jackson. I gotta go." She stood and rushed for the door, heading toward the man waiting outside in the Lamborghini.
I broke out of my trance. "Mel, wait."
She's running out again
She's running out
She run
Run
Run
Run
Run
She turned back to me.
I stood and headed for her. "If you…" I sighed. "If you really…like this guy…then I'm happy for you…both of you."
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so f***ing special
I wish I was special
"Thanks, Jackson." She pushed herself onto her toes and gently brushed my cheek with her soft lips. With that, she walked out the door.
I stood there, unable to move. I watched as she stepped into the Lamborghini and reached over to give the other man a kiss.
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the h*** am I doin' here
I don't belong here
No one knew me like Melissa did…not even me.
And she's gone now.
I'm lost. Where am I supposed to go now?
A single tear fell down my cheek as I imagined every day without Melissa.
I don't belong here
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