All the Right Reasons

Title: All the Right Reasons

Author: MissyMiss452 (inxluvxwithxalec)

Rating: PG-13

Genre: Romance, Angst

Status: WIP

Summary: Sequel to "Not Ready to Make Nice" (written by me), A new girl comes into the picture after Max's death, will Alec learn to love again?

Disclaimer: I don't own Dark Angel (sigh), any of the characters, and all that good stuff, the plot is the only thing I own. No profit is being made from this fiction.

Alec forced his feet one in front of another, it was not his idea to come here, it was Mel, she had told him he should come and visit Max. Since all Alec did over the past year was sit on the Space Needle. This was the last place he wanted to be. Painful memories washed over him like the waves on the beach, as he walked solemnly down the road. Alec pictured Max in his arms for the first time, that had been seven years ago, that was when he had finally won her heart. They had been so happy that year, laughing and joking with their friends and 'family', then it was manticore who took all that away, Alec saw Max as she laid limp on the forest ground the day she died, the day he had died with her in a way, Alec had barely said a word over that last two years, he was too confused to speak. Alec thought to him self that he would never learn to love again, he couldn't love again, or maybe he just didn't want to love again. Alec was afraid that maybe if he fell in love, she would end up just like Max, which would be more than even a soldier could take on.

When Alec entered the cemetery, he wanted to turn back so badly and go back to his apartment and pours himself a glass of scotch, he couldn't face, and he never would be able to. Alec would still blame himself for what had happened that day, he could forgive himself. But part of him, something inside of him longed to see her again, whatever it was it kept his feet moving toward her spot, the spot Alec had memorized from looking at it so much from the Space Needle. Alec could feel the pain inching inside of him getting ready to attack.

Alec gingerly touched Max's headstone, he instantly remember the day she left him, the day he would never forget no matter how hard he had tried, the memory was clear as crystal.

Flashback

"Max! No you can't do this to me Max." Alec screamed. He couldn't let her go; she was the only one he could ever love; now she was just going to leave him?

"Live Alec, live for me, Live for us…" Death was overcoming Max fast she could feel it eat her away. "I love y-you." Max managed to breath out her final words to Alec, the words that would last for eternity. Alec collapsed onto Max's body; he felt her heart beat one last time. Alec wasn't ready to let her go; he hadn't loved her enough yet. The X7 soldiers were closing in on them now; Alec had so much anger in him that he felt as though he could take on a whole army. Alec stood up and crept behind a tree and quietly walked toward the soldiers, one came out from behind him and shot Alec in the right arm, he didn't even notice, he turned around and snapped the gun from the soldier's hands. Alec knocked out all of the soldiers in the woods that day, something that normally would have been impossible for an X5, but with Alec's emotions, he was unstoppable. Alec picked up Max's body and headed out the woods.

End of Flashback

Alec fingered were his scar had been from the bullet, that was all that remain of that day. He set the flowers he had brought on the grave carefully, and stepped back. There was so much to tell her, so much to say, yet when Alec opened his mouth there were no words. Instead Alec just stood there in silence and paid his respects.

"Feeling better yet?" Mel asked a very depressed Alec. It was so sad to see him like this, a couple of years ago when she had just met him, before she had left, Alec was as carefree as a butterfly, never worried about anything. Alec was all about fun and games, tricks and treats. Now a days Alec is full of sorrow, he hardly says a word to anyone, and barely enough energy in him to walk. It was as if Max was the heart of his life, the heart of his happiness, without her nothing fitted into place for him. It was Mel that told Alec he should go and visit Max and maybe shed some sorrow off, but it didn't work as well as she would've liked.

"You know I will be here if you need to talk... about anything." Mel assured Alec, she was always going to be here for him, through the thick and thin she was going to be a solid friend, maybe more, if he would lighten up. Mel sighed defeted that yet she stilled hadn't got alec to speak a full sentence to her, stood up, and left Alec's apartment. She quitely closed the door behind her, and flew down the flight of stairs.

Alec sat still on the couch, think of nothing, but feeling a whole lot more."Live for me Alec, live for us..." Max's words were comming back to haunt him, he wasn't sure what she ment, whether he was suppose to move on, or not. Alec didn't think he could move on again, loving again was impossible. Alec would feel like he had betrayed her, had betrayed them.

Darkness inched into the small apartment, Alec stood up and headed for his bathroom. He showered in the stillness of the night, letting the hot water wash away his pain. Alec could smell her scent in the shower, he could still remember every detail of her, something he would never forget. Tears were finding their way to Alec's eyes, but he tried to fight them off, but they kept comming. Alec turned the shower off and just stood there, letting the tears pour out, tears he had been holding in for two years, were finally free, but Alec wasn't yet. He would never be free of pain, loss, and sorrow.

Alec laid on his bed, and thought of all the mistakes he had made, of all the faults that had caused her to leave. Alec didn't know where he got the sudden inspiration from, but something inside of him told him, that Max wouldn't of wanted this. She would have wanted Alec to isolate himself from the world, suddenly 'live for us ' made sense, but that would be a hard turn to make, but Alec agreed to try, he would try to put himself out there again, to go back to a somewhat normal life, leaving his pain behind, but not the memories.

Deep in thought Alec was interupted by a knock on his door.

"Alec? Are you there Alec?" Came the voice, " can I come in?"

A/N: Thanks for reading my fiction! Please review! I am trying my hand at a different style of writing, tell me what you think! I am trying to make the chapters longer but that's not working for me, so i'm sticking with short ones.