Angel Eyes ...

Okay people First of all this idea came to me when i was listening to the song : Angel eyes from ace of base who i think are great artists . It's about Haruka and Michiru ( Wow you didn't guess that didn't you ! ) Anyway it's about how One of them finally breaks the protecting wall between them . It's also kind of based on my own love life . I hope you enjoy and please don't forget to review me ...this story will have three chapters and ofcourse you couldnt quess this yourself : This is chapter one !

Chapter 1 : Stop thinking and take action

I watch her as she talks to me . I wish i could hear what she was saying but somehow i can't . It's kind of confusing , I mean it doesn't happen everyday that you fall in love with your best friend and if you do i'd bet you the chance of falling for another girl is very rare in that case . I know she's a lesbian there's no doubting that . I mean look at the way she dresses , wearing boys clothing , talking as a boy and even look like one . En even though i'm not straight and even though she looks like a guy i'm falling for her . And when i say falling for her i mean it as in a : I wanna be with you forever way . And not some simple school crush . Sometimes i wonder if she likes me the way i like her. Maybe to her i'm just a friend , a partner . There days i fear i'd lose her . Not only in the battles we fight i'm afraid of losing her but i'm also afraid of losing her to another girl.

'' Michiru are you even listening ? '' She asked me annoyed .

I just nod looking down at my feet . When would i tell Her how i really feel about her ? When would i break those protecting walls ? And would she be able to understand my feelings ? Was this wrong ? I know i shouldn't feel about her in this way but i do and i can not control my feelings so I'm sorry . I'm sorry Haruka .

'' Are you okay , Michi ? You are acting strangly ?'' She now asks me .

Here she goes again . Michi . I love that name but only when it comes out of her mouth . I wish i could just tell her everything that was on my mind but i know i can't . She wouldn't understand . She doesn't care for me in that way . It was her who made me make that damn promise . Well i've got news for you Haruka . I won't , I can't sacrifice you for this mission .

'' Yeah ...just tired .'' I answered blunt not daring to look up to her . Afraid that she would see through my lies . Afraid she would see what's in my heart . The same heart she broke .

'' If you say so Michiru , I worry about you sometimes .''

Ha ! You really worry about me Haruka ? Why don't you show me how much you actually care about me . Show me instead of always pushing me away . Are you scared of me ? Are you afraid to let me get too close ? Or is it because you're only with me because of this mission we call destiny or fate . Call it however you like .

'' Okay ...'' I blurted out in some strange way . She said she worried about me and i say 'Okay' ? I must sound stupid now , well go ahead Haruka laugh at me ! Make fun of me , be mad ! Do whatever you please .

'' Okay ?'' She repeats smiling at me . Even though i wasn't looking at her i knew she was smiling . She's always smiling when i say something i regret later . I feel her eyes on me but i just can't find the courage to look up . What's wrong with me ? I never had any problems with looking into her eyes before , why bother now ?

'' Michi , something's on your mind , care to tell me ?'' Haruka asked me placing her hand on my shoulder causing me to look up .

Care to tell you ? I would tell you the world Haruka . But i won't tell you this not when your friendship is at risk . I know you'd turn me down and still want to be friends with me but i couldn't do that . I won't be able to stay near you knowing you don't return my feelings . Damn why is life so hard , Maybe Haruka isn't the real one with confession problems , Maybe i'm the one with them .

'' I was just thinking .'' I answer looking her into her green eyes which shone ever so bright as always . My ray of hope . I didn't relly lie to her did i ? I was thinking . I just didn't say about what i was thinking .

'' About what ? ''

My gaze falls back to that ever so cold floor beneath us . That was when i realised where we were . This was Haruka's house . Why did i came here in the first place ? Wait what did Haruka just ask ? Dammit now i'm not even listening to her , screw my chances .

'' What ?'' I asked embarresed .

'' What were you thinking about ? '' She repeats . My gaze falls on her eyes again . She looked somehow afraid . It was rare to see that emotion on Haruka's face but it was there . I didn't understand what it did on her face and in her eyes but my mind were on other things . What should i answer ? Wow i'm asking many many questions .

'' You ...'' I finally said not knowing why i did it .

'' Me ? ''

I only nod . Man i must look stupid to her now , please change the subject Ruka , please ch...wait ? Ruka ? Where did that come from ? Damn here i go again with all those questions i don't know the answer of .

'' Well what kind of thoughts ? Dirty ones or sweet ones or maybe ...'' But i watch her in total shock and she shuts her mouth .

Dirty thoughts ? I wasn't even come to that part . I know we flirted ...alot . But never ever did she say something like that . Did it mean something or is she torturing me because she knows how i feel about her .

'' Haruka ...Why would you say something like that ? Do you hate me or something ? '' I ask suprising myself by my harshness . I see in her eyes she's kind of hurt . Maybe she misunderstood why i asked her .'' I mean about the dirty thoughts .'' I fastly added .

Her smile softened and she bent down to whisper in my ear . My first impulse was to pull away bacause i thought she was trying to kiss me . Yeah i know i'm strange , first wishing her to love me and now wanting to pull away . But i'm only human . We have our impulses , our reflects , our ways of doing things and get them done .

'' I think you know exactly what i meant .'' She whispered into my ear making me sudder . Her lips were so close . Should i try ? Take the risk . Am i taking her words too serious or did she mean to say what i think she meant ?

When i didn't say anything or do anything she assumed i was mad at her and wanted to pull back . Would i let her pull back ? Would i stop her ? No ! no more times for questions , it was time i took action , It was time i took fate or destiny into my own hands . No more waiting . I pulled her back down to me softly and before even one of us knew what we were doing we were kissing . First it was innocent , then it bacame more passionate and i could feel my heart race . Were we doing wrong ? Would god punish us ? But when i realised our position again i forgot all those questions . The only thing that was there was Haruka . Now i knew all those love songs were right . Love is devoted to those who see , that the last dance you dance with the truth . And i'm sure my last dance would be with Haruka . After awhile we needed air desperatly and we parted again never leaving eachothers arms .

'' Michi ...'' Was all she could say because again i pushed my lips against hers . I wouldn't let her talk . I knew that words would ruin this moment . This time she pushed me back . I guess there was something on her ming which couldn't wait . But waht would she say ? Would i lose her already , i didn't even had the chance to make her mine .

R&R Well i said the most things already so i just have to say : Review ! And if you wanna know what is going to happen now it's a very important thing to review ...And don't blame me because it's short because most of you already know writting short chapters are my speciality ...!And sorry for the spelling errors ...to0