WARNING- BREAKING DAWN SPOILERS!!

Hey! I'm Damsel, and this is my first fanfiction. I totally loved this part in Breaking Dawn, which is the agreement Edward and Jake made to try to get Bella to have a kid with Jake instead of keeping the vampire child. So I was pretty pissed when they didn't… it was, like, my dream to have Jake and Bella together. I love you too, Edward, haha. So this picks up from the beginning-ish of their conversation, sparing the details. It shows what would have happened if Bella hadn't refused…

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I do not own anything- Stephenie Meyer does. God, she's awesome!

"Bella, listen to me." I scowled; I hated giving the bloodsucker a one-up, helping him, but it was the only way I could think of to make her listen to me. Taking her fragile face in mine, I lifted it up and held her gaze intently.

"You are destroying Edward. Even if you survive this, which I seriously doubt, he will be scarred." Bella swallowed and shifted uncomfortably under my hands. For once, she didn't have anything to say.

"He's gonna look at the…the thing, and see it as a monster." I wasn't sure how much truth that statement had, but I didn't really care. Let her think what she wanted to.

"No, that's not true." She frowned, but she looked nervous, as if she hadn't thought about that. Probably hadn't.

"How do you know? I saw him today, Bells. Do you have any idea how much willpower it's taking him not to crumple to your feet and beg mercilessly? He's metaphorically dying." I swallowed a sick lump in my throat. "He… when he talked to me, he let the pretense down. He went insane."

Bella bit her lip. "That bad?"

I nodded dispassionately. "Clutching at his face, screaming, everything. He's a mess, and you're causing it by letting that thing live inside of you."

She cringed, automatically reaching for her bloated stomach. Lines of worry etched between her eyebrows, and she was silent for awhile. I held my breath, hoping that this was the moment of hesitation I needed to save her.

"Is the monster really more important to you than Edward?" I murmured, internally feeling sick. God, this was disgusting. I didn't give a crap about the leech, but it was really the only thing that came to my uncreative mind.

She shook her head morosely. "Edward is very important to me, Jake. But this… my baby. I have to keep it alive." She stroked her stomach, and I resisted the urge to rip her hand away from it.



"You can't have both," I muttered. "Edward's going to loose it one if these days, I'm positive. If you keep this up. " I swallowed. Sick, this is sick. "You can always just have another baby. There is a lot healthier ways to have one."

She looked like she'd been slapped. "Jake! Don't be stupid! Edward wouldn't try having another one again, not after this!"

I smiled, smug. "Exactly. See how much this is hurting him? He won't do it again, he doesn't like this right now, and your in danger of loosing him, yourself, and possibly the kid."

Bella frowned. "You're not making any sense, Jake. You just said that I could have another one."

That wiped the smile off of my face. Damn, so close to the subject. But… I had to try.

"Bella." I sighed. "You want to be a mom, right?"

Her frowned loosened up, and she smiled just a bit, though her eyes were still confused. "Yeah, I do. Edward wants one too, he said so himself."

"But he doesn't want this baby, right?"

She stared straight ahead, not meeting my eyes. I took it as a confirmation that she already knew that fact.

"So…" I started, my heartbeats suddenly increasing. It was so hard to get the words out of my mouth.

"So what, Jake?"

Ugh. "Have a kid with me."

I swallowed what felt like a rock in my throat. Her mouth popped open, and I hurried to fill her with the logic before she could really think it over. "I don't have to be the father; it could be yours and Edward's kid. It would be a lot healthier for you and the baby, and Edward was the one who suggested it in the first place. Anything, Bells. He'll do anything as long as you give up this baby." She was still silent, and I hurried on with whatever came to my twisted mind.

"And it doesn't have to be"-I searched for the right words-"pleasurable. We can just get it over with, and you can raise it as your kid, with him. I honestly don't care. Just…don't keep this one, Bells. It's destroying a lot more people than you think." I went down the extensive list. "The doc, Alice, all of the Cullen's, Seth, Charlie, Renee… and you know the obvious. Edward, and me." I smiled halfheartedly.

She stared at a small point above my head for what seemed like eternity, while my heart hammered out a staggering beat.

"Jake…" she sighed, caressing her battered stomach. "I… I'm not…sure. I didn't expect that one out of your mouth." She met my eyes slowly. "And it's not just any baby, it's this one that I want."



My lip twitched as I fought off a scowl. "And yet you aren't able to get it through your thick head that it is this baby, not any baby, but this one that is killing everyone!!" I snapped, letting my temper go a bit. Already, my hands trembled slightly against her skin.

Bella's eyes clouded over, and moisture appeared in them. Great, I was making the pregnant woman cry.

"Look, Bells…" I started, defeated. "You don't have to. Forget-"

"No Jake," she cut in, her voice trembling. "It's not that. I'm crying because… because I really do want a child!" And then she proceeded to cry in my hands.

I stared at her, completely and utterly shocked. This was definitely not the reaction I had expected. Oh, god, why couldn't I comfort her right now?

Because she was seriously thinking about it.

And she was crying because she really, really wanted a kid. Edward wanted one, too, but like I gave a crap. Logic was against her. She wanted a kid, she wanted to have a kid…

And I would giver her that. I would give her what she wanted.

But he must be listening. I wouldn't gloat, I wouldn't think about what I was going to do with her until I was far, far away. But it was so hard not to… how long had I wanted this for?

Her small sob broke through my contemplation, and I pulled her head carefully against my chest. I wasn't used to her feeling so breakable, and it made me shiver a bit. She was colder than usual.

Bloodsucker Edward, I know you're listening. Come here, and tell her it's okay. I think she feels guilty about this.

Of course he was there in a second; no doubt he had been lurking behind the closed door. He rushed to her side, and took her away from me. The abruptness might have perturbed me if I wasn't floating on cloud nine at the moment.

He stroked her pale face, and murmured soothing words. "Bella, honey, shh. It's okay. I'm fine really," he laughed, his voice just dripping with the highest level of relief. "It's okay, you don't need to feel any guilt."

Bleh. This love fest was sickening. But soon the love fest would turn the tables… I smirked in spite of myself.

I saw him cringe slightly in reaction to my thoughts, but he otherwise ignored it. How could he say that he didn't want this when he was the one to have suggested it? Hypocrite would be plastered to his head with big ol' neon letters. I laughed quietly.



Bella quieted after a moment, and she sniffed into his shirt. He wiped away the excess tears, and smiled consolingly at her. "This is wonderful, Bella. We can have a child, but now it won't hurt you. It won't hurt anyone."

She lifted her head. "Poor baby…"

Edward's face fell a bit. He knew that she meant. "Your baby won't feel a thing, Bella. It will be over, painless. Carlisle will make sure," he vowed. "I'll make sure you won't feel a thing, either."

Bella sighed, and struggled to sit up. He put his hands under her, and carefully sat her up, propping her on pillows.

I got up form my position on the floor, anxious to get out, but needing to know the details.

Edward looked up at me, reading my thoughts. "I'm not sure yet," he admitted. "When it's over, and she's in a stable condition, we'll let you know." His voice was reverent with gratitude. I nodded nonchalantly in return, pretending not to be to anxious, but really doing an explosive victory dance inside my head. He pretended not to see that.

"I'll be going then," I muttered, and turned to get the door. I was out of the bloodsucker's house, finally getting some air, but of course he was following me.

"Jacob, wait." He came up in front of me, blocking my exit off of their porch. I sighed impatiently, needing to get away.

"What, Edward?" I grumbled. Oh hell with the etiquette. "I mean Bloodsucker."

He grimaced, but smoothed out his face easily. "I know you wanted to make a quick escape, but I have to thank you properly." His sincerity rang out in every syllable, but I didn't want to acknowledge it, so I ignored it.

"Jacob, you have saved Bella, and I could go on for hours about how grateful I am-"

"-Don't waste your breath-"

"-but I'll spare you that and just say this." He took a deep breath."Thank you, Jacob Black. I know it's not… a truly large burden to do this, and I would be disgusted otherwise, but how could I be? You've helped her, and there's nothing more I would ever ask of you than that." He smiled, pure happiness breaking out on his face. "I am utterly grateful, and I'd like to let you know that anything, anything you need of me or my family, don't hesitate for a moment to ask."

I shifted awkwardly on my feet. "Er… don't hold your breath on that one. But yeah, no big deal." I implied an end to the conversation in my voice. He stepped aside, and let me by.

"We'll contact you when your services will be needed," he called out to me as I started off towards the woods, trembling slightly, ready to phase.



"Sure, sure." I rolled my eyes, but I waited, waited until he was out of sight, and then I stripped and let the shiver of heat roll through me, transforming my human body into animal form. And then I started to run as fast as my four limbs would take me.

I let myself run as far as I possibly could, whipping by the trees, not caring about time. My strong muscles would take me far, and I plan to run myself exhausted, so I wouldn't be able to think about that I'd just agreed to. But as I got farther and farther away from the Cullen's house, my thoughts caught up with me. So soon… I'd get what I've dreamed about, but never really believed it would come true.

What the hell had I just done? It was so sick, so utterly nasty what I was going to do within a matter of weeks.

But so, so amazing.

This had to be kept a secret. No one could know, not even Seth, who would be the most down with the situation.

I would tell them what they needed to know. I'd tell them that she pulled out of it, and she's giving up the baby.

But I sure as hell wouldn't tell them about the plan.

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