Hey guys
i know valentines day is over but well i worte this story a while ago and forgot to put it up... so here it is :)
Valentines day, what a joke … its basically a day that big businesses use as an excuse to sell pointless things for expensive prices, yet not matter how much it try and explain to myself that its nothing but a public propaganda, which only fools believe in, Its stupid really but … I want to believe in it, because if you believe in Valentines day then you want to believe that your going to have a valentine and that basically means that you think your loved ... I can't help but want to have that feeling… , I want to be an idiot, a fool who believes that someone loves me… I want to feel loved.
But for some reason life likes to mock me, in my whole 4000 years I've never had a valentine… because I worked so hard at either accepting my duty to help destroy Soshu or if I ignored it all and pretended it didn't exist … I pushed everyone else away from me.
I am a freak who no matter how much someone tried to get close to me I'd always see their flaws, their insecurities, I'd push them to their limits hoping in vain that one day I'd find that one person who would look into my soul and see mine, my flaws, my mistakes and insecurities and accept me despite them.
In shin Makoku there's no such thing as valentines day, but on earth there is and no matter who I was or who I was with, I used to always say I hated Valentines day and I'd deny that it existed wishing that… the special person I was with saw thought my pretenses, longing for them to see what I really wanted. Not even José saw that side of Christine but he was one of the closest by far.
This year Valentines Day wasn't going to be any different, I've given up on finding that special someone, nobody compares to Shinou. No don't go there, your not thinking about him of all people today of all days. This year I was going to hide in shin Makoku for Valentines Day since it didn't exist there I could forget about it … until … well maybe I should start at the beginning…
ok so tell me what you thing ... each chapter is going to be pretty short but that means i will update sooner
so please review and tell me what u think
thanks guys
Jade