A poem that came to mind suddenly last night. It's also a reflection of my mindset at the moment, so warning for any type of depressed thoughts. I always wondered what Duke was thinking or dreaming about during the time the railways closed before his rediscovery, so I thought this poem would suit his Grace. Hope you enjoy! :)
I feel so behind everyone else
Where did this all come from?
I've missed out on so much
I regret almost everything
Everyone has had their big moment but me
Everyone else is happy, but me
When is it my turn?
My kindness was taken advantage of
I worked oh so hard!
Yet I'm surrounded by all this evil
What have I done to deserve it?
I crave for the day when I can be on top
The day when I become a leader
The day when I get to be number one again
The day I get to say "All my hard work was worth it".
But right now it seems impossible
I feel cursed
I feel numb
I feel weak
I feel behind
I feel alone, in the bottomless pit that has befallen me.
The biggest moments of my life have been dashed
I can't enjoy my hobbies
I can't enjoy myself
All because of other people.
I want everything back.
I want to be that inspiration
I want to be the leader I never had
I want to suit his Grace again.
I want to use my fame for others, and not myself
I want to be the hero again
I want my time to come again
I want to be happy again.
But one day, I will be that leader
One day, I will be successful
One day I shall rule over the rails
One day, my blessings will be restored.
Even though it hurts for now
Although I'm sick of waiting
Although I'm sick of begging
One day, it will all be worth it
For my breakthrough is coming.
I can feel it
I can taste it
I can smell it
I can see it
However, I keep my faith
Perhaps what I long for is insignificant compared to what's in store for me
Our Lord works in mysterious ways
And so despite all the pain
I patiently await that day.