It had crossed her mind, time and time again. Knowing that love was never in the cards. That each drag she took from a cigarette was one day less she had to live. Each drink of alcohol was a piece of her lost to the liquid. And each prick of the needle, or burn in her throat or nose was just another day that she knew life could end tomorrow. And yet she continued each day as if there was a full year ahead of her. Until the thoughts began, the thoughts that maybe she could just end it painlessly and call it quits. To say that life had given up her on, and not her giving up on life. What if. It was all she could think about.

Until people's faces crossed her mind. Scrolling down her phone list she started from the top. Blair, the ex-queen of Constance who was now sitting on her mighty pedestal at Columbia. Enjoying the view from there. Chuck, almost like a brother to her and yet she knew how much he could just stare and worry about her lately. Knowing she wasn't going home at Rufus' times. Dan, her biological big brother who loved her to death and lately knew noting about what was going on. Eric, not exactly biological but he was her best friend in the entire world at the moment. No matter how much shit she threw on to him he found a way to forgive her. Then there was Lilly and Rufus, the people who had been dedicating either her entire life or just the past few months to caring for her. And yet her father knew noting about her drug habit anymore, he had watched over her like an eagle but he let each thing slip the moment she stepped into that elevator at midnight to escape the home. Serena was someone who didn't care anymore, the girl had given up after Jenny had tried to steal Nate. And Vanessa, madly in love with her brother and yet they hadn't talked in ages. The only person who had no spot on her list, was Nate. Serena's boyfriend, and all that but he deserved no place on the contact list. She had no reason.

Gossip Girl was her final contact that she enjoyed. And with that she pressed the digits for Damien, and he announced he was on his way. With that she dressed into a piece of lingerie that she had snuck from Serena ages ago. Combing through her blond hair and redoing her make-up she heard a knock on the door. Damien. There weren't even words spoken, as they leaped towards each other. And before she knew it the piece of clothing was on the ground, the air was brushing against her skin. And then the sheets.

At seventeen, Jennifer Humphrey was no longer the pure child that everyone treated her like. She had just become a woman. And once the deed was done, she felt that hole in her stomach again and then smiled to Damien. Maybe one more time. But they needed something to add that flare to it.

Pills, made the world go round. At least in their world. And with that the picture flew, Jenny handed over her phone to Damien and he snapped a shot of her with the bottle of alcohol. Handful of pills in her hands, and as she swallowed them both he snapped the shot. A wild smile on her face, and her brain swirled. Taking the phone back as he left the room she attached it to a text message and typed. It didn't take long, but Jenny wasn't there to read it. Her mind was spacing out.

Hello Hello Upper East Siders. Enjoying your spring break? I know one wild child who is. Anyone wanna tell Little J--Oops. I mean you think of her as little J but let me hint you out, she's not so little anymore. But guess J's enjoying her time. Mixing two dangerous things aren't you J?
xoxo Gossip Girl.

"Don't know why your complaining Dan. Gossip girl is such shit now a days." Laughing it off she pressed her lips to Dan's.

"Very true, I mean almost everyone I know besides Serena, Nate, Blair, and Chuck have unsubscribed. It's such bullshit."

"Amen to that!"

"Now where were we?" Wiggling his eyebrows he unhooked the clasp to her bra and pressed his lips against her neck.

"Blair?" Entering the apartment he looked around, no one. Strange. She must be out with Serena. With that his phone vibrated in his pocket. Giving out a deep sigh when he saw the name in bold letters across the screen reading 'Gossip Girl' he flipped the phone open. But the picture was fuzzy, bad lighting, and yet he could distinctly see the blue and red capsules, and the blond hair. Reading into it he saw the letter and turned to think of Jenny.

"Shit." With that he leaped into the elevator and punched the only person he knew might care.

"Hello?"

"Nathaniel. Meet me at the Humphrey Van der Woodsen residence. Now."

"Jenny?" Watching her lay there, he touched her shoulder. And under that touch her entire body tensed up. "Fuck."

Eyes rolled to the back of her head, her face sweating and her entire body tense. The slam of a door screamed in her head as she let out a loud scream. Her body went slack for that moment and the vomit escaped her mouth and onto the bed sheets. Eyes catching the trace of blood she screamed as loud as she could, but failed to and only gave silence. Head snapped back as she closed her eyes. It was all a dream, it had to be. This was to much of a nightmare.

Blood slipped from her nose, and one cough delivered a small amount of blood. Tears there until she couldn't control herself. The seizure took over, and it only lasted for ages it seemed.

"Why are we here?" Glaring to Chuck, he had a set of simple jeans on. Hair still wet after seeming to get out of a shower. Blue eyes stared directly into Chuck's. And a neatly pressed black long sleeve sweater clinging to his torso.

"Do you have a subscription to Gossip Girl still?"

"Yes, but I don't have my phone. Serena broke it."

"Well read." Thrusting the phone to Nate the boy just stared at it, they were half way there in the elevator and that was when Nate just stared at Chuck.

"She screwed her own life, why bother telling me?"

"You know why."

At that precise moment the elevator came to the floor, the music was loud as they both covered their ears Chuck and Nate began to search the apartment. Turning off the music was their first goal, and up next was Jenny. But it happened to be they found her first. In that instance of seeing blood on her precious face, Chuck had dialed 911 already and was talking as calmly as possible to them.

"Where are the boys?" Blair pouted to Serena as they sat patiently in the restaurant. They should have both been there.

"No idea. Call Chuck."

Dialing the phone, it went straight to voice mail. "Strange, went straight to voice mail. His phone never does that."

"Check Gossip Girl, see if he's been reported." Raising an eyebrow to her friend the blond had the same pout on her face.

"Okay." With that she logged on and at that moment there had been a status posted not long ago. A new one that no one had seen. Blair was the first viewer but soon enough, all of the Upper East Side would know the truth about Jennifer Humphrey. All Blair could do was slid the phone to her friend.

Hello again Upper East Siders. Well from my point of view I see an ambulance, and several police cars in front of the building where the Humphrey Van der Woodsen family resides. But what's this I see exiting the building? C holding J's hand as she's rushed away, and N diving into his limo and following after. Guess we have two nights in shining armoni. xoxo Gossip Girl.

Beeping of machines, first sounds that he heard when he woke-up. Blinking carefully he stared over at the blond who lay next to him. The moment she turned in his sleep he managed to get it in his mind that it had been eight months. That the machines had been gone that long, that he wasn't sleeping in the hospital watching over the other blond in his life. But here it was Serena who lay next to him.

He had to see her, it had been eight months. She was getting out soon. But when she did, everyone would be watching over her. He wanted to know her before people talked. Before people judged.

"I'm here to see Jennifer Humphrey." Hands against the desk he waited patiently as the woman flipped through a list.

"Relation to the patient?"

Hearing her be called a patient, was weird. It sent a chill down his spine as he nodded. "Family friend." He was sick of lying. He wasn't going to say he was family, but he was a friend.

"Name?"

"Nathaniel Archibald."

"First time visitor?"

"Yes."

"Read this list, and tell me if you understand all the rules."

Nodding he took the paper and began to skim. He only read the first rule several times to make it seem as if he read it all. Handing it back she nodded, the frown still on her face.

"Okay. Her room is 514A. There are signs on pretty much every wall with directions, but if your a genius go down there," Pointing down a hallway to her left, "Take two lefts, and then another right until you come to a hallway with orange tiles on the floor. If you don't remember that then follow the signs. And you read the rules, so remember not to talk to any other patients."

Nodding like a puppet he took off down the hallway. Moans, screaming, yelling, arguments, loud television speakers, music, everything was echoing down the hallways. But then he finished his journey, although it seemed like such a short walk. Staring at the number on the door it had been decorated. Underneath it there was a small sign that read Jenny's name, in yellow letters.

A woman met him moments later with a key, unlocking the door she smiled. "She's a good girl, very young, and very creative." Another smile and she tapped her watch. "If you see anymore of us in these nurse coats then feel free to stop us so we can lock up."

"Why do you lock her up?"

"She may be getting released soon, yet it doesn't stop her from trying." The questioning look on Nate's face made it easy that he didn't understand. "To escape. She's a flighty one. Fast runner too. But she hasn't tried in a few weeks, guess she understands now."

"So where's Nate?" Staring to her friend she took a sip of the tea.

"No idea, I've tried calling him but it rings and then goes to voice mail." Twisting her mouth she shrugged.

"Did you know Humphrey gets out soon?"

"Why are you telling me?" Brow bunching together and her eyes changing the mood she glared at Blair.

"Just saying, Nate's the one who found her. He probably cares."

"Chuck found her too, if Chuck hadn't of told Nate then Nate would never be in this."

"I was just saying Serena!"

"Just drop it?"

"Bottom end, maybe Nate is finally visiting her."

"Why would he do that when she's getting out?"

"Because the recent gossip is Humphrey's not sticking around. If you know what I mean."

"In all honesty, I don't care. If that picture hadn't gotten to Gossip Girl then Chuck wouldn't have known and she'd just be gone. Not meaning to sound terrible, but Jenny's miserable. She wants to put herself out of misery. So why should we stop her?"

Blair was taken back by what Serena said, and just sipped her tea.

Upper East Siders. News flash. Who is this spotted with J? Guess someone got out early boys and girl. Oh. Before I forget, someone's out for revenge. Guess trying to steal a boyfriend wasn't the best J. If you ever think about going bye-bye, I know one person who won't be running to the rescue. Sorry S, but looks like you don't enjoy J's company. xoxo Gossip Girl.

Author Notes: Feel free to comment guys. (: If you can't tell I ship Nate and Jenny. Get use to it. Hopefully I can have another chapter up soon, and another one chapter story. So I hope you guys comment and review. If I get bad reviews, whatever. I do this for my own amusement. Hope you enjoy. Also send me any suggestions you guys. I'm open to it all.