Not an native english speaker so there are probably some errors here and there. I don't know if my interpretation of Gus is right I am just contributing to the fandom.
Disclaimer: I don't own TFiOS.
I am on the roller coaster that only goes up, my friend.
The echo of his voice still ringing in my ears every time I close my eyes. And tonight, I remember that particular sentence. It's a little sad to think that he's wrong. I want to remember him as the flawless Gus. But, I know he's not perfect. He's just special.
I like to think that Augustus Waters was a naive young man, so confidence and a little bit full of himself. His view of the world was just so surprisingly shocking. His brain didn't work the way other people in his position did. He had went through more than the majority of adults ever experienced. But, his heart was still the heart of a child, albeit a very very smart child.
He said that sentence on their first meeting, and I knew he believed it with all his heart. I scoffed at the time, but as I got to know him more, I wondered if that's the truth. And then, as he faced his ultimate end, we both realized that he's on the same roller coaster as every human beings, both living and thus who had become history. It had a long way up and the sudden fast jerk on the way down.
But, isn't the way down is what we're looking for when riding a roller coaster? The rush of adrenalin, the buzzing excitement in our ears, the feel of wind in our faces, our hair swept back, sometimes -for thus who have a very long hair-hitting other people behind them.
It's scary but exciting.
And that's how Gus chose to see it. He snapped, of course, just like everybody else will in the same situation. He's not special in that way, he's a normal boy who had normal feelings but doomed to live in the Republic of Cancervania at an age so young. But, he's special in our heart, the few of us who's lucky enough to know him as a whole-not his whole body, of course,- his mind, his heart and his soul. Looking at him in the gas station that night was heart wrenching but there's just people who had to be strong when others collapse and break. And that's what I did. That's what Gus taught me.
It's good, I had told my self, he's just at his lowest, breaking point right now, but after that, he'll know how strong he is and stand back on his feet. Well, he rarely stood on his feet any more, but he got up and he did smile again. And that's all that matter.
Sometimes, thus naive optimistic people will do wonders when you crush them. Augustus water had been on his way up on his roller coaster as long as he could, and, just like the rest of us, he was on his way down. He's scared and so he snapped. But then, he just enjoy the ride.