Disclaimer - Obviously nothing belongs to me. Characters are owned by the lovely Stephenie Meyer and the song belongs to Lifehouse.
Note - I was listening to this song and thought that it would fit Bella during New Moon. This is set about 6 months after Edward leaves. Not the best but I thought I'd post it anyway.
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How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head
Six months.
It's been six months since that cold September night.
Six months since my whole world was turned upside down.
And six months since Sam Uley found me alone in that dark, cold forest.
Yet I barely remember the past four months of this storm that still doesn't seem to want to clear. Still, some days I feel like I won't make it, that this personal hell for me will never fade.
If I could just see you
Everything will be alright
If I'd see you
The storminess will turn to light
And I know that the only thing that can save me is you. You are the only one who could make these dark clouds that threaten to swallow me whole go and bring the light back into my life.
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright
And everything will be alright
I would do anything just to see you again. Anything just to know you're there to catch me when I fall, like you've done so many times before. Everything would be perfect if I could just hold onto you and get lost in those beautiful topaz eyes that always seem to take my breath away.
I know you didn't
Bring me out here to drown
So why am I 10 feet under and upside down?
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface
I know you did this for me, for my safety. But I'd rather be in constant danger with you here than drown in this pain, this loneliness any longer. Can't you see? Without you I'm barely surviving, going through the motions just to get through another day. Is this the life you wanted for me? There is no life without you, just a soulless existence. The very thing you didn't want for me.
If I could just see you
Everything will be alright
If I see you
The storminess will turn to light
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright
Please, where ever you are, come back to me. Make me whole again and just hold me, tell me everything will be alright. Edward, I love you. Please come home...
And I will walk on water
You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright
I know everything is alright
Everything's alright...