Finn and Quinn are back together.
Finn and Quinn are back together.
This is all that´s been on my mind since today at 3:30 when i found out that Finn and Quinn started dating again.
The tears on my eyes never get dry.
The headache in my head only gets worst by the second.
I know what i did and i know that i am an horrible person, but did i deserved this?
I feel that i don´t even have an heart anymore.
He was broken too many times and now i think he didn´t survided.
Suddenly flashbacks of today´s glee rehearsel flow into my mind again
Flashback
I came into the choir room late.
The fisrt thing i see is Sam with tears in his eyes screaming at Finn and Quinn.
I want to help him, cause since me and Finn broke up, me and Sam got a lot closer.
So close actually that now he´s my best friend.
What happened?,
even two days ago at lunch he was telling me that he was so happy that he had me as a friend and he told me that he and Quinn were great.
Why is Sam screaming at Finn?
Then i hear it.
-You!- he shouts pointing at Quinn- everybody said that you were a bitch and a cheater but i thought that i could trust you and that i should give you a chance.
I was wrong and they were right!
-And you- he screams now pointing to Finn- you are an hipocryte, you blame rachel so much for cheating on you with puck, yet you help Quinn do exactly the same thing to me.
At least Rachel had a reason!You were being an idiot to her, she was going to was to forgive you for every single one of your mistakes, but she saw you checking out Santana in the hallway!
Seein Finn´s surprised look, he added:
-Yeah right? you though that she hadn´t seen that, but she did!
And you know what Finn?
You didn´t deserved what rachel did to you.
You deserved a LOT worst!
So yes, Rachel had all the right in the world to do what she did to you, but Quinn didn´t had the right to do this to me!
I gave you everything Quinn!- he shouts now at her.- and you didn´t deserved any of it.
-Finn i knew that since yours and Rachel´s break up , i knew that you were being a bigger jerk than the usual.
But i thought we were friends.
Obvisouly i was WRONG.
-You two can go to hell!- he screams.
-We´re done , if you had any doubts!- He says screaming at Quinn.
The he turns his back to them and he sees me.
And so does everyone else in the room.
-Ray- Sam starts but i ignore him, not because i´m mad at him but because i am focused on Finn and Quinn.
-You two are back together ?- i ask my eyes focused on finn´s face while i walk towards them until i am i standing up in front of them.
-You don´t have anything to do with it manhands!
-Shut Quinn- Sam screams
and santana shouts:
-Barbie, lay off my girl! God save you if you mess with her cause i ´ll totally go all lima heights on you plastic ,fake ass!
Yeah, me and Santana are really good friends now, long story.
-So?- i ask.
-Yes, we´re back together - Quinn says firmly with a icy green eyes looking straight at my face.
-Why?
-Because- finn starts talking directly to me from the first time since i came into the room.
-How you could do this to me?
How could you do this to Sam?He was your friend and you betrayed him.
And you betrayed me.-i say tears starting to fall from my eyes.
-Listen Rach..-he starts.
-Don´t call me that!- i scream.
-Okay, rachel...
i interrup him again.
-No , i don´t wanna hear it!
And then i turn my back on him and start running towards the girls bathroom, releasing a strangled sob,ignoring Sam and Santana´s voices calling my name.
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Sam´s pov:
Today at lunch Santana told me that Quinn was cheating on me with Finn and she said that if i went with her to the auditorium she would prove me that she was right.
I didn´t believe but in the end i agreed going with her just so she would shut up.
Turns out, that i was wrong and she was right.
Now i am in the choir room screaming at Finn and Quinn.I still can´t believe that this is happening.
Yes finn is an hypocrite so i made sure to tell him that between all the screaming.
I am so focused on the fight, that i didn´t even noticed that Rachel was on the door for at least the last 5 minutes listening.
When i notice her, she is frozen on the spot obviously shocked, her mouth is slightly open and tears are falling from her beautiful eyes.
-Ray..- i say, she ignores me though i know that it´s because of how hurt and shocked she is.
Oh god she heard everything i said.
While i was so hung up on my broken i heart i never remembered that fuinn reunion was going to break Rachel´s already fragil heart.
Next thing i know she is storming out of the room, releasing a sob that shocks everyone,while ignoring mine and Santana´s call backs.
Poor Rachel.
Glee Glee Glee
When i finally reach the girls bathroom i lock the door.
I sit on the floor with my head in my hands while crying uncontrollably.
I am so desesperate!
I don´t feel happyness or excitment anymore.
I only feel pain all the time.
-Rachel?-i hear santana ask.
I hear her opening the door and then locking it again.
She must be walking towards me cause i can her her footsteps getting closer.
-Oh Berry! You need to calm the fuck down.
Finally i look up to her,flinching slightly cause of her rude vocabulary.I can see the worry written in her eyes and i want to tell her that i am fine.
But lying to her isn´t going to change how i feel so i keep quiet.
-Is Sam okay?-I finally ask, knowing that my best friend must be so, so hurt.
He was betrayed after all.
-No, but he will be when his best friend decides to come out of the girls bathroom.
I mean Trouthy Mouth is really worried about you, but he can´t come into the girls bathroom, though he tried, but i stopped him, telling him that i was going to check on you.
-It just hurts so bad!-I shout sobbing.
She kneels on the floor staying eye level with me.
-Look Ray, do you remember the day we became friends?Really close friends.
-Of course i do- i say trying to make a small smile at the memory.
-I came out of the closet that day .I told to all the glee club that i was gay.
-I know i remember it like it was yesterday- i answer.- the glee club was shocked and some of them reacted relly badly to the news- i add.
-Some of them? Actually i think they all reacted pretty bad except you and Brittany but she already knew so..-she says correcting me.
-You stormed out of the room crying and hid yourself in the girls bathroom.
-Sounds like a dejá vu no?-she asked referring to my storm out.i knew that it was supposed to be a joke but i didn´t laughed or smiled.
-Anyway, remember that you came after me and gave me a beautiful speech?
-Yeah! i told you that if people didn´t accept you, they were the ones that lost and that if Brittany didn´t loved you back then she was an idiot and you should move on cause you are perfect just the way you are even when you´re a bitch!
-Don´t you think that maybe you should follow you own advice? And if people don´t love you then you should send them to hell, cause you´re perfect just the way you are, even when you´re annoying- she says repeating the last phrase from the speech that i gave her.
-But everybody leaves me San!I don´t have nothing left!
-That´s not true. You have Sam and kurt and blaine and you have me.
And you´ll never ever lose us.
Suddenly i felt slightly better.
Maybe i was going to be okay after all.
-Thanks san, you mean a lot to me- i say hugging her.
-You´re welcome i mean your best friend is a guy, i think you need a best girlfriend so here i am, doing my job.- she says smiling
I answer with a small smile of my own.
Suddenly, someone knocks on the door, sam i guess.
-Can i come in?- he asks.
-Sure come in!- i shout.
He enters , and san stands up, well my work here is done! - she exclaims on the way out.
-Thanks for taking care of my best friend- sam says to her.
-No problem ,i didn´t did it for you, i did it for her, cause she´s my bestie too.- she answers him- Take care Berry, i´ll see you soon.- she says to me blowing me a kiss.
I pretend to catch it. She smiles to me one more time and then she leaves.
-Well i´m going home now, i mean i´m definatly not going to glee at least today.- i say standing up.
-Ok i´ll drive you home but don´t you wanna talk about what happened today?
-Right now i don´t maybe later.
Now please take me home.
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During the car ride i didn´t talk and neither did he.
We´re not even mad, i mean we are but not with each other. Finally he reaches my house.
I open the car door and quickly get out.
-Ray!-He says stoping me on the tracks.
-Yeah?
-Your my best friend forever, never forget that okay?- he asks
-I know, you are my bestie too, always.
-Maybe i´ll come over later, is that okay?
-Sure- i say-Bye Sam!
-Bye doll!
I open the door of my house and sam´s car pulls out of the driveway. i go to the kitchen and read the letter that my dads wrote for me telling me that they will be on a business trip for a month.
I sigh.
End of the flashback
I get an idea.
Something that the old me would say it is completly unacceptable but i´m desesperate.
I need something that will make pain go away at least for a while.
I start searching it and finally i found it on my desk.
I sit on the bed with the razor i found, on my hand.
I make a cut on my upper arm.
God it hurts like hell but does it feel good?
Oh yeah!
I make on more cut and another and another.
-Rachel?-I hear Sam´s voice scream- What the hell are you doing?
Oh shit!
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