I'm so broken. I don't know what I've done to end up this way, feeling this way. The guy I loved, the guy I thought I'd marry, walked out of my life. We started as a long distance thing but I began wanting more. He just danced around the situation, saying he wanted more. 'More' never came. Just pain, hopeless thoughts, and feelings of worthlessness. Everything he had said turned out to be a lie. I'm not sure whether I should feel sad or if I should be happy.

I spent too much time getting to know him in every aspect. At this point, I knew him like the back of my hand.

But it doesn't matter. He tossed me aside like last week's leftovers.

No one has ever broken me the way he has and I'd been broken numerous times. But this was the sat straw. I'm such a heaping mess, no one will want me. How do I put myself back together?

How do I go on? I don't know where to start. I don't know how to start healing.

-Flashback-

We anticipated talking in the phone.

Will you be up later?

Yesssss. Why?

I'm gonna call you (:

I'm doing my happy dance.

Okay. Let me know when you're ready.

My phone rang 20 minutes later.

"Hello." I answer. I was slightly nervous. What were we going to talk about? Are we gonna out of things to say? What if I sound too 'manly'? Will he find the sound of my laughter annoying? I just loved this man. He was everything I've ever dreamed of and I didn't want to mess anything up.

"Hey," he replied. I didn't know what to say, so I started fidgeting with my fingers. "How was your day?" He said it ever so casually. He sounded like this was a part of our daily routine.

"It was good. How was yours" I reply. And from there our conversation flowed so naturally. It was so much more natural than many of my other choked out, awkward conversations with others. I never felt weird or pressured. We cracked jokes, made up our own, silly little inside jokes. It had been a good talk that I hadn't had in a while. We just instantly bonded.

As our night conversation was heading toward the end he said it.

"I love you, Bella"

"I love you, Jake." As soon as I heard those words, I started to fly. My heart beat was faster and I could feel a slight blush creep on my face. I thought it never end.

-End Flashback-

Boy, I so wrong.