Prologue
Disclaimer- I had a really good one, sarcastic and everything...but then I forgot it. Oh well, I don't own. Stephenie Meyer does.
I kind of felt bad for Jasper.
Though both he and Alice had gone missing, it was Alice that everyone showered with hugs, Alice that myself ranted to, because I had missed her so much. It was Alice's name that had been murmured over and over by dozens of vampires as she and Jasper made their appearance on the battle grounds of our fateful encounter with the Volturi.
Of course he was missed.
Renesmee even hugged him when she got her first chance.
But still. Charisma only goes so far.
Just thinking about this reminded me of J. Jenks, of whom was literally scared out of his wits by Jasper. Despite being a vampire, I couldn't imagine what Jasper could have done to scare that man so much.
Then again, in the right lighting, we all looked pretty creepy.
When I was so happy like this, it made me realize things like Jasper's exclusion.
I mean I had everything I've ever wanted. I had Edward, I had Renesmee, I had Jacob, I even had Charlie, and we were all safe. No Volturi to annhilate us, no Victoria chasing after me, nothing to harm us.
It made me analyze every part of my life, searching out any imperfections, without even meaning to.
On the top of the imperfection list, the outstanding number of werewolves. Six twelve and thirteen year old children, added to Sam's pack, their lives ruined at such a young age. All due to the 70 or so vampires I had drawn into Forks.
I had apologized fervently to all of the wolves already, over and over.
But that was as much as I could do in that situation. Time couldn't be reversed, as far as I knew. I hadn't yet met a vampire that could mess with time. So until then, what's done is done, however regretfully.
Another imperfection I could not miss. Renee. She knew Charlie got to see me. Charlie knew about what I was a little, so it wouldn't startle him as much that I wasn't changing. But eventually Renne would want to see me, and she would notice not only that I had changed from when I was human, but that I wasn't changing appearance anymore. And she'd havae a good guess of what was going on, or vaguely anyway. She's perceptive that way.
But that was in the future. I'd deal with it then.
Then, of course, Jasper. Not to think of him as an imperfection, he just wasn't as IN the family as everyone else was. Even Rosalie.
It bothered me, sort of. And I realized that maybe this was something I could do something about.
I swore to spend more time with Jasper, bond a bit more with my new brother.
With my radiant mood, it should be easy.
After all, Edward said "You know how Jasper is- he can't resist a good emotional climate. You're so happy all the time, love, he gravitates toward you without thinking."
Let's see how true that is.