Always

Disclaimer: None of this belongs to me, just the plot, the characters all belong to her greatness that is JKR and the song lyrics belong to the ever infamous Jon Bon Jovi.

This fic is dedicated to Coronfrim Crelumin, who was first to review my last Bon Jovi songfic, so I thought that I'd do you another as you liked it so much… (ps: Bed of Roses is in the making…)

The pain hasn't gone, nor has it lessened, its just invisible. How could she hurt me so? Why do I still love her after all these years? Its been too long, I've almost given up hope, I'm beginning to fail, my life and courage is failing me. I don't have the courage to fight, my sole reason for living has gone, left me, abandoned in the world. All I can do is try and carry on with my life, but I can't. My courage to protect myself in battle has diminished, what is the point in staying alive?

This Romeo is bleeding

But you can't see his blood

Its nothing but some feelings

That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left me

Now I'm drowning in the flood

You see I've always been a fighter

But without you I just give up

I was never good enough for you, never romantic, never smart enough. Why did we think that it was going to work in the first place? I can't change who I am, maybe we just weren't ment to be, perhaps you are better off with someone else. Maybe its for the best…

Now I can't sing a love song

Like the way its meant to be

Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore

But baby, that's just me

I love you though, that's not about to change, I can't forget about you, I spend every waking moment thinking about you, I can't just leave you behind, like you did to me. I'll love you forever, even if you don't love me back - I'll still love you until the end of time…

And I will love you, baby - Always

And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

I'll be there till the stars don't shine

Till the heavens burst and

The words don't rhyme

And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind

And I'll love you - Always

The memories of you in my head seem to be from a different lifetime, when we spent time together, when we were happy. I'd give anything to be in that world again, to reassure myself that you did love me once, even if you don't now. I'm sorry I was so stupid, I just want you back. I'm not perfect, unlike you.

Now your pictures that you left behind

Are just memories of a different life

Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry

One that made you have to say goodbye

What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair

To touch your lips, to hold you near

When you say your prayers try to understand

I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

Good luck with your new life, your new fiancée, your new love, I'm sorry I'm not going to be at your wedding, I don't think I could watch him saying the words that mean so much to me too.

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near

When he says the words you've been needing to hear

I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine

To say to you till the end of time

'Mione, we've been through so much together, school, exams, the war. I would do anything for you, belch slugs, get detention, give up my life. If only I could tell you how I feel, would you understand? I doubt it, you don't deserve me, you know it, I'll just sink into the background and let you get on with your life.

If you told me to cry for you

I could

If you told me to die for you

I would

Take a look at my face

There's no price I won't pay

To say these words to you

If we could give it one last go, please understand, I love you 'Mione, I don't wanna lose you for good. It's not going to work though - you're not planning on leaving him, that's for sure…

Well, there ain't no luck

In these loaded dice

But baby if you give me just one more try

We can pack up our old dreams

And our old lives

We'll find a place where the sun still shines

I'll love you forever, even if you reject me in front of everyone, even if you hate me, I'll love you, because you are the best thing that ever happened to me. I'll never forget you, because you are my world, my love, my life, and I can't live without you. I can't face this anymore, I'll be waiting for you in the next world, maybe it will ease the pain…