Hi! Ill make this note short so you could read the this is just a short fanfic which is set before epilogue and before the "you love me? Real or not real?" thing. Any ways this is my FIRST FICTION So sorry if it sucks. I just got the idea when I got out of the shower. Okay thanks!

Its been 2 years after prims death. I sigh. I don't really talk to anyone, I lost the only person who understands me. Well theres gale (the filthy bastard), but I feel like im not ready to talk to him yet. Haymitch stops by when hes sober. most of the time he just stumbles to the wrong house. I don't really bother him because he has geese to feed. I don't want to talk to him while the geese are just there. They just remind me of prims duck tail and they look at me with cold eyes and orange beaks.i shudder. Peetas recovering from his flashbacks but I haven't talked to him since. He stops by most of the time and I just ignore him.

All I do is lay on the couch and stare at the ceiling and imagine colors swirling there. I giggle sometimes and follow the colors with my fingers. Dr. Aure-uhm whats his name said I have a mental brake down. screw him,im not the one whos purple and only has half of my hair on my head. (a/n: I don't really picture him like that but hello guys, MENTAL BREAKDOWN remember? :D) Greasy sae cooks for me. She brings her granddaughter with her and I let her play with Buttercup. besides those 2 I have no other visitors ( well like I said peeta stops by but all we do is share awkward silences and stares until he leaves.) Well today I woke up on the carpet with buttercups tail on my nose. What a great way to start the morning. I pushthe filthy cat away and it gives me a hiss. He doesn't normally hiss anymore. only on occasions like this. I find pancakes and some bread on the table. Looks like peetas baking more often now. I see a note from greasy sae.

Katniss,

Made you pancakes , got impatient so I left.

Oh and peeta wanted you to have the bread, he said he needs to tell something.

It seemed pretty important.

Sae.

I wonder what it could be, I eat the breakfast and decided not to go to peetas. its pretty far away.I open the tv and all its showing is black and white static stuff. I find it very amusing. Someone Opens door. Im sure its haymitch cause he dosent bother knocking and I don't bother to lock the door.

It was haymitch. "What?" I yell. "Well its good to see you sweetheart." He replied with a touch of sarcasm. "What?" I yell again louder this time. He takes a swig of his bottle and sat down on the chair. "Sweetheart, what your about to hear may break you." He begins. "Im already broken, what elsecan break me?"I ask him. "Peetas Getting married." He says going straight-to-the-point. Hes right. It did break me. "what?" I ask in disbelief I try my best to mask my pain. We just stare at each other. My heart hurts and I cant express how I feel. Then I realize something, Haymitch might be kidding. The old drunk could right? Wait am I actually caring about this? I mean do I really have this kind of feelings for peeta? "are you sure?" I ask him. More silence. "you should talk to him" he says.

The he leaves. I stood up. I felt like I don't have any legs.I quietly shuffle out through the door not caring about locking the door, or how I look. After what seems like forever I arrive at peetas house. (which was 3 houses away. It was pretty far though.) I think maybe im not yet ready to see peeta. I was just about to leave when he opens the door and throws water at me. It was only a small amount It was dark. He probably was painting. His eyes grew wide with shock and he said "KATNISS! im so sorry!" he said . I was just about to say it was no big deal when he pulled me inside (a.n: heh you peetaphiles with get this line ;) )

And gestured me to sit. I don't object. I was pretty tired. His place was covered with paintings of bread.

"freak" I whisper. "what?" he asked with a towel in his hand.

" nice place."

"uhm thanks. Listen im sorry about the water thing I didn't see you." He says handing me the towel.

I wipe myself. Im still abit damp but I don't mind.

"so why did you stop by?" he asks. "Not that I mind you stopping by though." He adds.

"Sae told me you wanted to tell me something. It seemed pretty important. And Haymitch said I really need to talk to you. So whats it about?" I say.

"oh,right." he says.

"uhm. Katniss, im getting married."

I purse my lips. The drunk hag wasn't lying. I felt even more broken inside.

"um, congratiolations" I say in a whisper loud enough for the both of us to hear.

"so who is it?" I ask. "Delly." He says. I purse my lips again."well you've been friends since you practically born, I guess this wasn't a surprise." I say my voice low. "im happy that you've found someone who loves you back." I say again silent."you love her right?" I ask.

silence.

"katniss I want you to be there" he says obviously trying to change the subject. (oh these lines of the story was inspired by "Togetherwecanfly" her story is called SPEAK NOW. Its really nice! )

I stand up and leave I was about to close the door when I turn around and say "congratiolations peeta. I hope you two will be happy together." I shut the door and I ran. I was crying. why peeta? I thought you loved me not her.i think to myself. I don't stop running. I realize im in the woods. I can spot the lake already. I walk to this lake and stare at my reflection.

My eyes are red and tears kept on spilling.

I Go inside the little cement shack. Why am I over reacting? I should be happy for Peeta. happy that hes moved on and accepted that this is the sacrifices we make to have a better future. But I think I do really love the boy with the bread. I start crying again I scream and throw sticks at the wall. It was nighttime when I finished. I just curled on the floor with my hair stuck on my cheeks cause of the tears. I finally fell asleep. I wasent a nightmare though.

I dreamt of prim waking me up and she started to talk to me.

"prim!"I yell and hug her tight. Like I will never let her go.

"hey katniss." Shes says. I missed her voice. I was crying again.

"its okay" she says while im still in her arms.

"I Just miss you so much. I have nobody. Now peetas getting married"I sob on her blouse.

Another pair of arms encircle me. Then another. I was shocked and I looked up and I saw

Rue and Finnick. Ive never been so happy by seeing these two faces.

I give rue a big hug and finnick too.

"Rue! Finnick! I missed you guys so much!" I yell hugging them both. "yeah everyone misses the sexy beast." Said finnick. I laugh. "I missed you so much katniss! Im glad you won!" says Rue.

"Listen,katniss we know peetas going to get married. And we know that you love him." Says finnick whos gone serious. Prim and Rue nod there heads in union. "well hes in love with someone else." I say tears threatening to spill again. "I don't think hes in love with Delly. Maybe he just needed someone in his life. Or mabe he thinks delly really loves him. Knowing maybe he dosent want her heart to break when he says that he still loves you,I mean if I were peeta I would have done that." Says prim again sounding old and smart. "you should tell him that you still love him." Says rue. "but ill just interfere with him and delly." I say. "Well if he really loves you hed cancel the wedding. Or you could use the more dramatic option and wait until the last minute when the pastor as who wants to object." Says finnick. "whats a pastor?" I ask. "Katniss, being dead means you know a lot of things. But not peoples feelings. We know that there doing the capitol wedding things."says rue. "oh."I say. I think about it. Me interfering with there lives? I cant just do that. Suddenly the world starts to fade and I wake up.

I Miss them. I begin to sob again. It didn't feel like a dream.

Maybe I should listen to there advice.