It looked
like the perfect day
In photos we were smiling
But something
was wrong in you
Inside you were suffering
Lungs were barely
moving
I wanted to comfort you
All these pictures were taken when I had left Bella. She seemed happy in the picture. A forced smile no doubt. I wanted to jump in the picture to comfort her. Only I could notice something was wrong with her. And maybe that stupid mongrel. Memoirs like these made me wish I had never left My Beautiful.
So I said,
Ahhh..
Oh you'll fix all my cracked broken bones
And replace
all my black poison blood'
Now
that I'm back, I always comfort Bella. I try so hard never to hurt
her. Physically and emotionally. Maybe her future is with me...as a
vampire. The teeth in my mouth clenched down at the
thoughts.
'Idiot.'
I scolded. 'Stop being so selfish.'
But
honestly my blood was broken. Horrible vampire blood.
She murdered
me with a smile
Strangled me with her eyes
I'm poisoned as she
passes by
The buildings around me shake
Like cheap plastic
wedding cake
I fell to the ground with you
Everytime she makes one little movement my breath gets caught in my throat. Even though I don't need to breath. Ugh! She should be considered illegal. My eyes always focus on her. I don't need to read her mind to know her thoughts/ Though sometimes it would help. No matter what I will protect her. And if she goes down...I am too.
Then you
said, 'shhh..
Oh you'll fix all my cracked broken bones
And
replace all my black poison blood!
Black poison blood!'
Oh Bella, sweet, sweet Bella. I wish you could stay human, but I also wish to keep you by my side forever. I hate to ask you to corrupt your blood and send you soul down the toilet. To me it just seems to selfish. I looked over at my sleeping angel. Another reminded of something she wouldn't be able to do if I turned her into a vampire. I stroked her cheek gently. It was painful to know that she had already made up her mind about changing. About turning her blood from red to black.